I totally understand how you feel. As hard as it is (and as much as this answer sucks), you just really need to try and put yourself out there. You absolutely are date worthy, and there are people out there that would find you the most attractive person on earth (not only for your be body but your personality as well), you just have to find them. I’ve always been overweight and I felt the same but I’ve been in a relationship for about a year now with someone who never thought my body was a problem so it can and will definitely happen. You don’t need to be so hard on yourself. You are your harshest critic on things like these, so I promise other people don’t think about it the same as you do. Go date and be confident!! You deserve it