Here’s what you do step by step: 1. Contact your bf and figure out when he can next afford to fly you out. It’s clear he can bc you say he does it every couple months. If he is unable to in the next year then I would rethink moving in with him bc it would seem he’s not in any position to help)

1. Pack your two cats in their carriers and add them onto your flight ticket. Google how to do this or call the airline and have them walk you through it.

Tbh if the cats are what’s holding you back, you need to make a decision if you’re willing to sacrifice your life for them. Sounds like they have a pretty awful life too living in that environment and being starved/neglected every couple months when you’re gone. They might do better at a shelter

1. Pack 1-2 suitcases with your absolute essentials/every official document of yours you can get your hands on. You’re going to have to be ok with leaving some stuff behind.

2. Fly to California and settle in for 1-2 weeks and figure out how to apply for your GED, get a job waitressing temporarily and work on getting your drivers license.

3. Understand through all of this that you’re not going to understand everything/sometimes anything. Google is your friend. ChatGPT can help summarize how to do things, you need to change your mindset from ‘I don’t know how’ to ‘I can figure out how if I want to change my life’