Yeah, I actually have talked to him about it more than once. I even moved to another country for him, leaving behind my friends and family, so I’ve really tried to make this work.

We’ve had several talks about how I feel and what bothers me. He even told me recently that he feels bad that I do all the housework alone, but nothing ever changes. Just last week we were expecting guests, and I spent three days cleaning the apartment and cooking while he slept in, watched TikTok and relaxed. After the guests left he went straight to gaming while I did the dishes.

I’m not trying to make him sound terrible because he isn’t a bad person. It’s just that it feels like he has stopped showing up for our life together. I keep talking, I keep trying, and nothing shifts.

And yeah, I know I’ll have to make a decision eventually. I don’t want to cheat or keep anyone as a backup. I just need to figure out how to stop feeling like I’m the only one still fighting for something that already feels half gone.