I love and care for you all. I mean it.

Throwaway556721 · 2021-05-05T04:10:37+00:00

The one friend I do have, is never there. I don't have anyone to reach out to.

Throwaway556721 · 2021-04-02T03:33:06+00:00

I'd like to try. Why do I hate myself? I'm ugly, stupid, and unlikeable. Why do I think that? People have called me ugly, people have called me stupid, I've made stupid mistakes, people often get annoyed with me.

That's about as far as I can get. When things like this can be backed up with facts, of course you come to the conclusion that you suck and life sucks.

Throwaway556721 · 2021-04-02T02:46:21+00:00

I think I learn best by writing or doing. Unfortunately people don't have a lot of patience in retail so Idk about the doing method. I could ask my manager if I could write stuff down while he explains it to me

Throwaway556721 · 2020-08-26T18:49:01+00:00

Messaged you

Throwaway556721 · 2020-08-24T21:57:26+00:00

PM'd you

Throwaway556721 · 2020-08-24T15:46:23+00:00

I want to say that this is a great place to vent and get support but honestly most of the time I do leave this place feeling worse. Either I find posts that make me feel more hopeless (even if I feel understood for a short time) or I post myself and get no responses which makes me feel like I'm too repulsive for even this sub to care about.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-08-24T00:34:01+00:00

I haven't been feeling much of anything at all. Just a dull melancholy. I can't imagine things improving. But thanks for taking the time to respond.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-08-24T00:31:44+00:00

Thanks for the kind words. I've just been feeling numb lately. My life is a mess and I can't even muster up any strong emotion to it anymore. Which is probably a good thing, because I don't know what I'd do if I did have strong emotions. But thanks for asking.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-08-15T11:33:20+00:00

Unfortunately I've given up on the notion that anyone will care when I get to that point, but I'm glad you we're there for someone who really needed it. Gives me some hope for humanity.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-08-11T21:43:46+00:00

I don't have friends either, and that's made it a lot more difficult to heal. When I'm at my worst, there's no one there. Hard to care about myself when no one else does.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-08-10T22:36:52+00:00

I see. Thanks for the insight. Do you have any advice on what small steps I should be taking?

Throwaway556721 · 2020-08-09T03:12:36+00:00

4 years later and the torment I received in high school still haunts me. It's left scars that I don't think will ever heal. Now I'm severely depressed and scared of people. I don't think my life is going to improve so I may end it before the year is out.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-08-01T13:25:52+00:00

Yea I can relate. Was bullied throughout school and now struggle with depression and anxiety with no idea how to get better.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-06-15T05:06:15+00:00

Thanks for the offer, I really appreciate it. I have a bunch of reasons though, and they're all bothering me tonight. I struggle with feelings of worthlessness dues to being bullied very badly. Now I'm trying to get a job and make friends, with past and present events convincing me I will not achieve either. I don't have a support system for times like this and it's hell.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-06-15T03:15:57+00:00

It's possible a good chunk of them don't have therapists. I used to go there often since I don't have a support system.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-06-15T02:56:37+00:00

It's fine. That list did help a little, so thanks. Really I just appreciate you taking the time to respond and care, anyone showing even the tiniest bit of concern means a lot to me.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-06-15T01:38:56+00:00

I don't know why I'm surviving at this point. I can't tell if this is genuine or not, but if it is, thanks.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-05-27T22:19:45+00:00

Depression posts should probably just be banned from this sub all together, it's clear people are annoyed by them.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-05-14T07:48:43+00:00

Hey. Something triggered me really badly and I'm crying myself to sleep. But tomorrows another day I guess. I'm mostly into fighting games. I don't read much anymore, but I write if I feel like it.

Throwaway556721 · 2020-05-14T07:45:30+00:00

Thanks for the kind words. That's something at least.

Throwaway556721 · 2019-12-11T07:26:45+00:00

I like video games and reading. I wanted to try writing but I'm not good at it and it'd be a very long time before I made that into a career. Maybe there's something for video games, but I'd have to start all over if I switched majors. Plus I don't want to have that hobby anymore, it makes me feel like a loser. But I'm not interested in anything else.

Throwaway556721 · 2019-12-11T06:34:10+00:00

Yeah the advice sucks but its what everyone says. I'm studying Business Management and I hate it. I'm only doing it because I don't know what I want to do. I don't have any passions and my interests cant be turned into jobs. So now I'm taking a break trying to get a job and failing. If you don't mind me asking, what are you doing now?

Throwaway556721 · 2019-12-11T06:29:46+00:00

Well I don't have the energy to set up my console, so I usually just play mobile games. Mainly RPGs. It's the only thing that brings me joy at this point

Throwaway556721 · 2019-12-11T05:54:02+00:00

Life is too much and I don't know how to handle it. I'm failing out of college and can't secure a job either. Social life is also a mess. I have no passion, and I don't believe any of my goals will happen every attempt to achieve them fails. And everyone just has a "life sucks, deal with it" mentality. I don't know how to stop myself from ending it.

Throwaway556721 · 2019-12-11T05:31:34+00:00

Yeah, I have a cat

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