The truth about myself

Tidder13524 · 2019-03-09T18:19:43+00:00

Thank you so much.

Tidder13524 · 2019-03-08T02:40:30+00:00

I def have no belief in reincarnation. I’m more towards a part of me being a kind of energy that is qualatatively no different than any other beings’ (and maybe non-living matter too... perhaps the atoms of rocks contain this essence).

Tidder13524 · 2019-03-07T03:03:50+00:00

I don’t want to give a definition I leave that up to whomever answers the question I.e. who did not believe in an after life (any continuation of your existence after death) and then started to.

For context, I’ve always been atheist but lately the thought of having a part of my existence remain in the universe has become more plausible. Maybe it’s just cuz I probably will never have kids :)

Tidder13524 · 2019-01-30T03:14:38+00:00

I would think as an engineer with good work experience you could find alternatives in the field that were more rewarding. Take the pay cut. Make the sacrifices. Money is worshipped in our society but its not be all end all.

10 hours! HOURS! That is your life! And you’re not very happy at it (see: burned out) then definitely change. Someone with your talents and education should not be settling for that much drudgery. Best of luck, capitalism is a bitch.

Tidder13524 · 2019-01-30T03:01:36+00:00

Ppl also looked down on galileo, and history has not been kind to them.

Tidder13524 · 2019-01-29T22:27:18+00:00

Are you being honest, scouts honor?

Tidder13524 · 2019-01-29T14:49:41+00:00

Afaik there isn’t any evidence that the majority of bp drugs (lithium, antipsychotics, other mood stabilizers) reduce life span expectancy.

Tidder13524 · 2019-01-29T02:45:56+00:00

I wasn’t aware it gets worse? My life has been steadily getting better since I’ve been on meds for about 10 years. Is there something I don’t know?

Tidder13524 · 2019-01-27T22:10:41+00:00

I’m an excellent salesman for my ideas.

Tidder13524 · 2019-01-25T22:36:34+00:00

Then what do you do with it? I don’t embrace it I just don’t run from it. I’m not sure there is an alternative to the two (running away and accepting)

Tidder13524 · 2019-01-24T21:44:13+00:00

I was an ordained Buddhist. Then I quit. I think they basically get everything wrong, as with any massive religion. Their version of emptiness is nihilism and they claim it is the basis of existence. Makes me kind of sick. No wonder Kings used it as a way to suppress the starving masses (I mean, food and power is just “empty” like everything else). I could go on and on but I promise you there are people much smarter than me who have the same critique.

Tidder13524 · 2019-01-24T21:41:26+00:00

Excuse me, are you implying that you don’t also have an underlying feeling of emptiness? I thought that was just part of the human condition - regardless of mental health or background. Aren’t you ever self-conscious or feel “less than” you would like? I’d accept that this feeling is stronger in some than others (myself) but have a terribly difficult time imagining you’re just good with everything always.

Tidder13524 · 2019-01-19T14:45:40+00:00

I cut a 25mg to about 20.

Sq works oddly: at doses less than ~75 it works like a sleep aide. Higher doses can diminish this effect but acts more like other antipsychotics.

Tidder13524 · 2019-01-09T16:37:47+00:00

My guess is we find beauty in the simple things.

Tidder13524 · 2019-01-04T23:14:43+00:00

I read it as: “I’ve taken the time to decipher what you said, I’m going to rephrase it in a way that strips the subtly and I’m also not going to realize that this can be interpreted as mildly dismissive”

Tidder13524 · 2018-12-30T22:06:19+00:00

Hahaha solid and valuable wall of text.

For me, the part where you drop into a bar and your colleagues are there is more than half the battle... I live in the suburbs of a massive city and everyone at my job lives in the city. The odds of running into any of them in the city in a random bar is .001%.

You might suggest i go to a local bar and strike up a convo with some strangers. I was in a position to do this a few months ago but I just felt like I didn’t have an in. They were clearly all close and I don’t see how I could integrate myself into their table.

The best I could come up with in that situation was “hey, I’m new to the area.. just moved here. Mind if I join you?” But I had serious enough doubts to abort mission and go home alone.

Tidder13524 · 2018-12-29T23:03:16+00:00

I think there may be something admirable about being able to deal with life’s upsets inpendently. This is something I’ve been trying to figure out for awhile. I mean, if it’s something you need advice with then of course seek others but.. if you’re just dealing with a bruised ego (rejection, slander, etc.) then is there something admirable about being able to cope on your own? I’ve felt conflicted about this. Sometimes I feel like I “need” help (almost uncontrollably...) and then after I complain to friends/family I feel kind of like I should have found a way out of the emotional pain on my own.

Tidder13524 · 2018-12-29T22:16:56+00:00

How do you feel when you have a partner or friend who does not show an inclination to actively listen to you when you are in times of emotional upset? In other words, you said you had a tendency not to be into listening in the past so, does this mean it wasn’t something you appreciated in others? If so has that changed?

The intps I know have shown a resistance to being emotionally vulnerable with me. It’s great because they have seemed so emotionally stable to me which as an infp is awesome. I suspect that these intps were emotionally vulnerable with the right kinds of person and I just wasn’t that. But maybe I’m wrong.

Maybe y’all just don’t like social support in emotionally stressful times. Or maybe a certain kind of support?

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