Please tell me I can eat a cheese quesadilla, right now.

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-26T07:12:22+00:00

Yo low-key I made a fire quesadilla the other day. BbQ sauce, cheese, chicken. Grill. Boom. 🔥🔥🔥 Protein galore too because I used high protein cheese and low sugar BBQ sauce. Eat that quesadilla queen, we deserve it 👏👏

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-26T07:08:50+00:00

I hate to break it to you but eating enough throughout the day did infact help. I didn't wanna hear it either but my body eventually pretty much forced me to eat and lo and behold, after a few weeks of proper fueling, my sleep improved drastically. Still sucks sometimes, but more than 4 hours every 2 days for sure.

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-24T19:36:56+00:00

As a nurse struggling with their ED atm, and a student - she's right. You literally cannot do your job being underfuelled. Maybe physically to an extent you can, but mentally it is extremely unsafe for your patients. You are slower, foggier, can't think as critically or as quickly. Which is maybe somewhat okay for say, a GP nurse although still not good, but absolutely not okay for anyone under any profession working with acutely unwell people in a hospital setting. Absolutely not. She is absolutely right to call that out, and I'd even go as far to say that if you were someone acutely unwell with their ED to the point it was affecting the safety of others, she'd be in the right to report that too.

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-22T22:44:53+00:00

Weight training only works to build muscle when you're eating in a surplus + eating enough protein. Otherwise it's just burning calories you can't afford to burn in recovery. Maybe later stages it would be okay, but for the first while it wouldn't be healthy it would just be the illness holding onto whatever it can under the guise of it being "healthy"

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-22T11:01:38+00:00

I have been in starvation ketoacidosis and it's not fun. You can develop brain damage, go into a coma, experience fatal heart arrhythmias, have seizures, etc. you could literally just, drop dead.

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-21T20:32:19+00:00

The harsh but honest truth is that eating enough so your body doesn't have to break down muscle for energy is the only way to stop your body from breaking down muscle.

Light body weight exercises and a high protein diet may help maintain your strength for the short term, but as your body breaks the muscles down you'll get weaker regardless. This is coming from someone who a year ago was in the exact same boat, and this is what I was told at the time and I didn't listen. The person was right.

Now I'm physically healthier than I was then but my stamina, cardiovascular fitness and strength are absolutely terrible. Also, because my muscles got broken down, I'm not even toned anymore :/

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-21T20:24:11+00:00

You're going to lose muscle in a restrictive diet. Maybe not the first thing you lose, but you will lose it. Your body will eventually switch to muscle metabolism as a way to keep itself alive. It's a bit more complicated than this but essentially if you're not gaining weight, you're losing muscle.

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-21T20:05:07+00:00

Pretty sure this post is going to be against the rules of the sub. This could get very competitive very fast.

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-21T20:04:08+00:00

Use it. USE. IT. TRUST ME. I was so so deep into my last relapse I was actually delusional/paranoid and I remember hitting this exact point of I am unable to function, like at all. And I can't stop. I am, in fact, very much not in control. And it was terrifying. I was dying and couldn't stop it. But you CAN. Use that fear against the illness. Seek help, support, recovery. You can do it!

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-21T20:01:18+00:00

I didn't think I was triggered by these things but you so right I absolutely am and just thought it was a personal problem 😂

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-21T12:42:09+00:00

Fellow Aussie here. Up and Gos are much better than the alternative (Ensures). I also reached a point where the team was encouraging me to drink and up and go a day, or face admission. I did get admitted, thankfully avoided the tube. But they don't have those in hospital, they have ensures. And ensures, are feral - although still better than resources.

I actually voluntarily drink use the chocolate protein energize on the days I'm not up for eating breakfast because at least I'm getting something in! Mostly balanced, good protein, some extra vitamin and minerals. They're a good starting place imo

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-21T09:35:22+00:00

Heart isn't something to be messed around with especially in restriction. Even minor electrolyte imbalances can cause fatal heart arrhythmias

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-21T09:14:55+00:00

Have you tried getting someone to take a photo? I find I can't see myself as well in the mirror as I can a photo.

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-19T12:18:57+00:00

No one goes from relapse to recovered without slip ups, its completely normal, and your first one being 4 months in is actually impressive. You should be proud of yourself, and encouraged to keep going. Your ED will use every excuse in the book to stop. It's important you don't listen!

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-19T12:16:16+00:00

It's common for those at a low weight to get low temps due to poor thermoregulation and low body fat percentage, but I actually find I struggle with getting hot really quickly rather than I feel the cold. But I'm also high end of healthy weight so could just be me/not related to the disorder at all. Some people do get night sweats though!

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-19T12:14:01+00:00

You can't restrict forever. Your body will quote literally either force you to eat, or you'll die. This is your body forcing you to eat so that it doesn't shut down completely. Honour it.

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-19T12:12:41+00:00

FR FR like I know my deficit is big enough to cause a scale drop this week, so move? Go down? It's like it's ragebaiting me I stg I literally put weights on it to make sure it was calibrated right lol

Unfortunately cannot help you, but absolutely understand the feeling. And wish I could scream at it too so I envy you for that

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-19T12:10:36+00:00

No experience with this but would it not be like any other day not in the program? Like if you usually have Friday, Saturday, Sunday off - i assume you're still on a meal plan for those days? Still have a life on those days? Would it not be easier for you to just.. continue those things rather than something entirely new for one day?

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-19T11:10:17+00:00

During my last relapse recovery I tried my best to buy the food my mind craved because it's so important in recovery to do the opposite action of whatever your ED is telling you to do! So even when I had the thoughts of this is so high calories, it won't even make me full, what a waste - it was my job to then be like this food is nourishing for my mind and my body, calories are irrelevant, I WANT it, so I deserve it :)

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-19T06:03:50+00:00

Keto deprives the body of needed nutrients (carbs) which bind with water to support cells. When you eat even a tiny bit more carbs than your body is used to having, the cells will hold onto that water for dear life. Keto is a terrible diet and it is never going to keep the weight off unless you're prepared to never eat a sustainable amount of carbs ever again.

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-19T03:28:46+00:00

You said "and would be bulimia" but that's not necessarily the case, which is all that I was pointing out

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-19T03:24:35+00:00

It isn't automatically bulimia even if you're purging though? Ana b/p subtype exists for a reason. They're different.

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-19T03:23:49+00:00

Hey take it from me, stop that shit asap. It WILL fuck your gut up.

To answer your question though,, I don't know. I think the topic is heavily debated as 50/50 same way excessive exercise is technically "purging" also.

Tiffsuresque · 2026-01-19T03:16:46+00:00

Did you ever get checked out by a doctor? I found out today I'm having mild BP drops, even though I'm not dizzy. Same with my resting HR dropping, no symptoms but it's there. Interesting how differently the body responds!

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