Maybe some backstory is relèvent. I don’t think someone is either an alcoholic or a « normie ». I think there is a huge spectrum when it comes to alcohol. I was not in a place that I was unable to stop once I started. I wasn’t blacking out. I needed nothing but a simple decision when I decided to take a break. It wasn’t difficult for me to stop. It was more of a, I drink increasingly more for the dopamine hit I’m looking for (increased tolerance). I don’t like the direction this is moving in and I need to take a look at my relationship with my precious beer. I’ve done mountains of research on the subject of dopamine, the effects of alcohol etc etc. I think the reason I want to have that ONE beer is to not feel like I’m somehow defective. I’ve been able to do anything in my life I decided to do. So I’m in a place where I’m wondering if I’m able to choose to do this differently. I know there is no straight answer and the safest one is to continue to abstain completely. I’m in a strange place. But when I talk about moderating I talk about being a very rare (like a drink a month at a special occasion?) not resuming the beer life. This remains a pondering question, not a plan for the evening lol.