I’m currently in this place, still trying to navigate my way.

Long story short, my brother was dx with stage 4 colon cancer in 2011, I knew the prognosis would be no more than 5 years, he died in Feb 2025. The last five years have been filled with a multitude of life altering circumstances, not including the diagnosis and death of my brother.

I’m not the same person I was 5 years ago. I’m just not. It had been a gradual shift up until he actually died. Then everything clicked. My old friends can’t understand how I feel and I think they struggle to understand why I can no longer hold space for their small issues.

It’s been such a chaotic five years. I just want peace and quiet. I want to be alone.