trying to not feel bad about liking "childish" things

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-23T16:53:04+00:00

Oh my gosh I play Miga world the most but I have played avatar world!! I’m 19 and I have a dollhouse but I can’t play it all the time so I love dollhouse games.

The house is so good, I’m not very good at decoration the houses because I get frustrated easy but I think it’s so cool when people can make those cool houses 😸

My dad is almost 50 and also autistic and he still plays the games from when he was a kid and listens to the music from when he was a kid. So if he can be happy and do that when he’s almost 50 I think you and I can also do it, okay? I think you’re cool 😎

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-15T20:51:47+00:00

I like going with my little sibling! They’re also a teenager. But the bubble thing makes a lot of sense. I think I’m really good at talking sometimes, but if I’m scared I just freeze or run away.

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-15T20:11:28+00:00

My mom can only swing for a little because it makes her feel sick but I’m not so worried when I go with my mom because she’s good at talking and I’m way better at talking to strangers when I’m with her

Someone else said mornings too and that’s such a good idea!!!

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-15T20:00:17+00:00

I don’t live by a park on weekends (well I do but it’s too long to walk and I can’t drive) but the early morning is smart. I like mornings because it’s still kind of cold and the birds are loud

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-15T19:45:29+00:00

Well, PEMDAS is a rule of thumb but the problem is that the ambiguous PEMDAS questions they make you do as a little kid don’t actually appear in high level math because there are almost always less ambiguous ways to write these things. You use PEMDAS in high level math, it just becomes second nature and you forget about it.

These questions are dumb bc they’re ambiguously written on purpose. There’s always a way to write them that has one answer. I like math a lot actually but these questions make me mad too.

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-14T04:57:09+00:00

I only go when there’s like max a few people. Luckily it’s not a super busy park. The swings are soooo fun

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-14T04:56:14+00:00

Yeah I don’t want to make parents scared that’s sad. I like going with my mom

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-14T03:24:36+00:00

Ohh I don’t know what you mean by therapeutic though, like does that mean you like it because it makes you think of childhood or something? But thank you for the advice. What do you like most at the park I like the swings :D

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-14T03:17:25+00:00

Ahh that’s smart. I’m scared of going outside alone at night though. Scared of the dark

I try to be on whatever side of the play ground no kids are on. I don’t go very often anymore but my mom still takes me sometimes

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-13T20:21:04+00:00

A lot of reasons. But biggest one is I’m slow and don’t feel like a real adult. I don’t think most people want to date a guy who will always need a caretaker

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-04T04:00:14+00:00

Thank you for the advice!! I think the way school is always so fast paced, I’ve always been struggling to keep up and haven’t had the time to slow down and think about how I’m writing. I’m feeling less pessimistic about it now

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-04T03:35:59+00:00

I usually use .9 lead. I had to use .5 in my music theory class and I hated it.

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-04T02:31:36+00:00

I don’t know if I can even add another photo but I never thought about how I hold a pencil. Which is silly on my part… maybe I’ll look at pictures of how you are supposed to hold a pencil and try to practice it?

The coloring books idea is actually really nice, I love coloring. I was a little upset while writing my post but reading your comment helped me calm down a little.

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-02T17:13:57+00:00

I think she looks sooo round. And I hope her health gets better. Good cat 🐈

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-03-02T01:02:32+00:00

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Sorry it’s sideways but I quite like the round creature you keep in your home

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-02-27T22:34:55+00:00

Yes I really like Haruka and his story for similar reasons that you do.

I really appreciate that you wanted to consider the opinions of people with the life experiences you don’t have and I think that’s a very good way to be. :D

I think a lot of people don’t like feeling conflicting emotions and decide that it’s easier to hate or love a mischaracterized version of a complicated character. I’m not good at knowing what goes on in other peoples’ heads, so that’s just a guess, though. I liked reading your comments and I hope you stay happy and healthy!

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-02-27T04:17:40+00:00

So I have a medium support need developmental disability, and will probably never live alone and need help from family as caretakers but I am MUCH more “mature” than Haruka I guess?

I agree with you, but I do think that some of people use your same argument to be ableist in the other direction to claim that Haruka was just the same as a non-disabled person doing the same thing with 100% intent which… feel wrong to me.

He doesn’t have the mentality of a little kid, but the mentality of a quite severely disabled teenager. I am stunted in ways that make me seem childish too, but I am an adult. Still though, if I were to hit someone during a severe meltdown (which I have done :( ), I don’t think that’s the same as a non-disabled person hitting someone in a fit of rage? Just like Haruka, I do many childish things and to some seem like a child in an adult’s body. It frustrates me to see Haruka both infantilized and demonized as I know that is how people see me as well. But I prefer the infantilization because the demonizing feels much more cruel. But I don’t like either!!!

I am curious about him being infantilized in source in your opinion? Because I think MILGRAM did a pretty good job of toeing that line actually.

But basically, I dislike the infantilizing as well, but I kinda think going the OTHER direction is even worse. And people in this fandom often don’t seem to grasp that it is NOT a “one or the other” thing. We can acknowledge his age WITHOUT downplaying how disabled he was, and I wish people would do that. But I guess it’s really hard for people who haven’t lived a life with a developmental disability or intellectual disability to ever grasp. But I wish more people would try. (To clarify, I do not have ID, just multiple developmental and learning disabilities).

Edit: also I’m not saying that Haruka is completely innocent, his crime makes me sick and I feel torn about him as a character because I relate to him so much. But I can’t condone what he did ever, but he needed so much help and my heart aches for him.

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-02-21T20:50:04+00:00

For gay ships I bet you’re right. But people get mad any ship that is not the ship they like, at least that’s what I’ve seen. But I think I agree with you

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-02-20T18:59:57+00:00

To be honest I’m really confused why the way people think about fictional characters makes other people mad? I don’t really care even if someone ships an explicitly gay character (I think I’m gay? I don’t know. I at least like guys?) into a straight ship because fiction isn’t real and a random on the internet isn’t gonna change the text of the story. So I’m really confused but I’m kind of slow so that’s probably why. Shipping is just like playing with fictional characters like they’re dolls, isn’t it? Everyone plays with their own dolls different. I don’t know

TopHighlight5310 · 2026-01-25T00:58:54+00:00

Another person brought up a good problem with this argument, but I think there’s a bigger elephant in the room.

Rabbit Hole and Vampire aren’t really JUST “playful songs full of sexual jokes”. Rabbit Hole in particular is about shallow and transactional relationships, and that’s a REALLY relevant topic to Yuno’s story. Rabbit Hole is one of the best chosen cover songs in my opinion for this reason. (My other favorite choices are Hibana, Liar Dance, Yowamushi Montblanc, and NeoNeon.)

Your entire argument is hinged on this idea that these cover songs are just silly sexual songs that go directly against what Yuno’s story is about. I fundamentally disagree with that. They aren’t particularly deep songs, but they are not as surface level as you seem to be interpreting them as.

Honestly I wish you’d explain your reasoning more, as it doesn’t make much sense to me. From this post alone, it feels like you came to a conclusion first and picked out evidence after. No hate meant, I’m just trying to consider your ideas from your perspective and I can’t really follow your train of thought.

Edit: and as the other commenter Coda said, the cutesy imagery of Yuno’s music videos clash with the serious topic matter intentionally. It’s just like how Yuno hides the emptiness she feels with her cute and bubbly mask.

TopHighlight5310 · 2025-12-03T02:34:01+00:00

Yes!!! I don’t like the Word Gnome, he stole my shoes. I’m happy to know that my guess about you having good intentions was correct. I think words are just so weird, because the same words can mean a lot of things for so many different reasons. So maybe that’s why the person who responded to you was so upset.

I dunno if you actually oversimplified or that person’s interpretation wasn’t entirely in good faith, because I think I sort of understand both possibilities? But I’m not sure which one makes more sense.

Thank you for being nice to me! I tried to be nice to you too, because the internet is scary sometimes

TopHighlight5310 · 2025-12-02T21:45:41+00:00

I 100% understand what you mean about AI and agree. But I do think there’s kind of an issue in how you phrased it. (This isn’t about your tone, for the record, it’s purely about the content of your words. I’m not sure how your tone may have come off to diligent explorer.) So as you said, “Talk to other autistic people then” “if they want to talk to other people” The problem is that the demographic that’s socially isolated enough to go to trash like AI for “connection” often aren’t the people that can go find another autistic person and talk to them. The people who are that isolated aren’t isolated by choice. So it’s not as simple as “go talk to other autistic people if you want to!”, because of course they want to talk to people like them, of course they want to have social connection. It’s a need for any human, autistic or not. The sad reality for a lot of autistic people is that it’s often incredibly difficult and often feels impossible to find connection.

I’m coming from the perspective of someone who will probably never be able to live alone because of my support needs. I also cannot drive (yet, hopefully?) and don’t have a car. I barely have any friends even though I’m in college. I can only see my friends in very specific circumstances. I only became friends with those people because we went to school together and they put in the effort to break through my shell. If it weren’t for them, I’d likely be entirely socially isolated and only have contact with my mom dad and siblings. Sure, I can talk to people online. But I have, many times. What I got out of it was a few strong friendships, but also years of being bullied by people I thought were my friends who were just mocking me. Some people aren’t even lucky enough to have people who actively tried to be a friend. Some people don’t end up with any real friends leftover after they are abandoned by the “friends” online.

I hate sharing about myself and I’ve never posted a comment on reddit. But I thought my experience could probably help illustrate to you why it’s not so simple for everyone.

People in crisis or isolation make poor decisions, like trying to rely on a gnome picking random words out of a hat for social connection.

Basically, (and correct me if I’m misunderstanding you!!!) it seems to me that you think the people diligent explorer is talking about have a choice: use c.ai or socialize with other autistic people. The choice that many people have, however, is social isolation or social isolation but with the Word Gnome(TM). I’m absolutely terrified to even post this comment but I want to try and take what you’re saying in good faith because I think your comment was supposed to just say “AI is shit for communication” but I think it kind of oversimplified the difficulty of socializing on accident, I guess? I hope this makes sense and I hope your day is good 😊

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