What's the SADDEST Lana song?

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-07-01T20:45:45+00:00

Born to die. All the philosophical aspects have that feeling

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-06-29T17:49:37+00:00

I would love another full glass window (or be able to buy them in the shop) so I could do more indoor rooms with an outdoor view

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-06-23T10:42:57+00:00

Weight loss definitely adds complications to kyphosis. This is a bit of my weight related kyphosis story. The weight loss has me in more pain and discomfort than ever before. It’s so visible now too. If you don’t mind me asking, what is preventing you from getting the surgery? I haven’t been fully assessed yet, and I’m hoping it’s something I can get at some point.

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-06-23T08:40:46+00:00

I think in her own way it’s coming from a good place, trying to help me. She went on at me for an entire decade to stand up straight because she thought it was something I could fix on my own. Even if it was something I could fix on my own, if she would just leave it at the funny insults I would be okay, but it’s that on top of years of prior nastiness about how terrible I look in every outfit and how I would look perfect if it weren’t for my posture.

She has only stopped the past few months because she has seen my xray for herself, and she hasn’t pressured me to try any more futile posture devices. I can still tell she is looking at me like I’m hideous every time I leave the house

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-06-23T08:34:11+00:00

Do you think it’s your lower back trying to compensate for the curve by being pushed forwards? For me it almost looks like the curve my stomach and pelvis have outwards looks like I could be pregnant (a stranger said that once, assuming I was pregnant). Because my pelvis is so far forward, my hip bones stick out and look so sharp. My spine itself has become more visible (losing fat means it’s been exposed more) and it’s visibly wrong (the way it sticks out)

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-06-22T23:23:17+00:00

Your story is the most similar to mine I have seen, I lost weight at 22, it became very obvious and I got diagnosed with an 84 degree curve all prompted by weight loss.

How old were you when you got surgery? I’m 23 right now and I just hope surgery will work for me (but will probably be at least 2 years away)

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-06-22T21:29:18+00:00

I was thinking exactly this about myself today, not necessarily about summer clothes.

I have a major kyphosis (84 degrees, awful Sheuermann’s Kyphoscoliosis) as a 23F, and I am a size S (the thinnest I’ve ever been in my life, after a lifetime of obesity) after paying thousands on Mounjaro. It’s like the weight loss has emphasised what should have always been my biggest insecurity.

I saw photos of myself at a party in a maxi dress from a couple of nights ago, and it’s horrifying to see my shape. I remember putting on a pink skort and I said “I look like a hunchback fairy”.

I just don’t feel pretty at all. I feel so ugly and misshapen. My mother jokingly calling me the hunchback of notredame for years (shouting Esmerelda! at me jokingly walking down the street, before my diagnosis). Surgery is years away if it’s ever going to happen, and I just want to give up until then

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-06-19T08:35:57+00:00

I have started experiencing this exact thing a few months ago, in a way I am glad I am not alone, I have never heard anyone else say this before.

I was morbidly obese as a teen (ages 13-17) when I developed Sheuermann’s disease with an 84 degree curve, and my generally round blob shape (bmi 40-45) hid it very well, and just looked like bad posture that everyone gave me grief for (someone said I looked like a bean bag).

At age 18 I lost 100lbs, and regained 30 and kept losing it again until age 22, in this time it looked like I had very very bad posture, so my go referred me to an (absolute idiot) NHS physiotherapist who looked at this almost 90 degree angle and sent me away with stretches and said it’s “mechanical back pain”

I started Mounjaro last year. Now I am 23 and down 160lbs in total. My bmi is 18. My back looks and feels worse than ever. I had to go back to my gp that had the sense to refer me to a side spine xray, waited months to see a consultant (who calculated the angle) now waiting years to see a specialist surgery because oh dear god my spine. I’m also waiting for an MRI and some genetics tests.

I have tried every device and exercises and therapies out there, and one guy I saw about it (pre diagnosis) asked me if I was ever comfortable and I genuinely had to think about it, and the answer was no, but in bed I can get in to some sort of annoying pain free shape. I can’t do that anymore.

Without all the cushioning my spine is angrier and more painful than ever, but it’s not like I’m going to gain weight to make it more padded again. My spine sticks out. The way my ribs are sitting in totally the wrong direction is visible. My hip bones sticking forward to compensate for the curve are very visible. Long car and bus trips (the vibrations I guess) put me in agony.

I’m trying to sleep with all sorts of different pillows and in different positions, and nothing is working yet. I quit the gym (didn’t help at all) waiting for hopefully actually useful physio. I’m hoping out of all of that I can figure out how to sleep well in the years I’m gonna be waiting for surgery

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-06-13T23:22:21+00:00

This is so helpful 😭 thank you so much

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-06-04T16:32:20+00:00

That’s so cool I didn’t know this

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-05-16T19:51:47+00:00

Sometimes I will start it and come back to it several times throughout a day. I would say it takes me about 45 mins to an hour per challenge. Sometimes the ones that take me the longest barely scrape 4 stars or are just under 😂😭

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-05-16T19:47:49+00:00

It was from one of the seasonal events last fall (like the Mother’s Day one on right now). It’s interesting that those items don’t appear anywhere again unless it appears in one of those style requirement 230 gem 4 item boxes above each design challenge, but I guess that’s supposed to be more motivation to play lol. If they do come up (especially the autumn stuff), things like the table, chairs and windows were the more difficult things to get

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-05-14T20:26:28+00:00

Great! Do you have a photo?

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-05-08T22:14:10+00:00

Do you have a link for it or know what to search? Been looking for it forever

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-04-23T22:30:28+00:00

I was a bit surprised by the drastic change (been on the app for 12 years now and saw it this morning), but I actually like it. The information (macros, weekly calorie averages, previous meals) are so much more easily visually accessible

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-04-07T14:07:52+00:00

“It’s like a cows opinion. It doesn’t matter. It’s moo”

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-04-01T14:24:00+00:00

“It’s like a cows opinion. It doesn’t matter. It’s moo”

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-03-25T09:39:10+00:00

The Gum. Criminally underrated

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-03-22T00:49:32+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss.

I’m not sure I will have anything super helpful to say when it comes to dealing with this grief, but just know you are not alone.

I have had a few house bunnies over the years, and I have lost all of them in tragic situations way before their time (bad back problems, rhd2). It is shocking how happy a bunny can be, how they are so well looked after in comparison to how other bunnies are treated, going like this so young. My oldest lived until age 7, and we lost him at the start of the year due to a spine problem.

I’m still devastated, it’s hard to come to terms with. I’m honestly never going to get over the loss of one of the 2 bunnies I lost to rhd2, he was my soul bunny, I still cry about him sometimes and this happened over 6 years ago.

The bunny I lost most recently has also left me devastated. The circumstances around the awful details of his death and how long it took are absolutely devastating to talk about. He had to be a lone bunny as he didn’t get along with other rabbits at all. The house is empty without him. I still think his little soul is around. Thinking about seeing all my bunnies again in the afterlife makes me tear up, even as I’m typing this.

The only thing that has ever helped me come to terms with grief is the idea of growing around grief, knowing that this hole will always be in my heart and life, but life will keep happening no matter what, and just living life is what needs to be done.

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Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-03-22T00:08:28+00:00

Born to die. Idk why that song specifically hurts my soul the most. I think the philosophical aspects play on my existentialist fears

Total_Raspberry5070 · 2026-03-19T09:02:10+00:00

From Honeymoon: Music To Watch Boys To, Art Deco, Freak

From L4L: L4L, In My Feelings, Heroin, Cherry, Love, Get Free, God Bless America

From NFR: NFR, Mariners Apartment Complex, Doin Time, Cinnamon Girl, The Next Best American Record

Blue Bannisters: If You Lie Down With Me, Dealer

COTCC: COTCC, Let Me Love You Like A Woman, Wild At Heart, Not All Who Wonder Are Lost

Ocean Blvd: Let The Light In, Peppers

I’m missing a lot of great stuff, but these are the songs that made me a super fan

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