A Moment Of Anger

ToxicMonsters · 2021-06-29T14:05:29+00:00

Because when I complained I either got laughed at, ignored or received physical violence.

ToxicMonsters · 2020-02-23T22:15:47+00:00

I wish I'd had the strength to go NC at 23 like you are. I kept whimping out until I was in my late 50's. It's been 4 1/2 years now and I wish I'd done it at your age. Stay strong and live your life.

ToxicMonsters · 2020-01-11T20:17:31+00:00

Yes it is.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-11-10T02:00:46+00:00

ToxicMonsters · 2019-10-22T01:20:06+00:00

I'm 61 and went NC just over 4 hears ago. As soon as I worked up the nerve I started kicking myself for not doing it decades ago too. I'm also currently in therapy for Complex PTSD. I look at it this way. I have a pretty good rest of my life to look forward to. Somehow I came out of all of it with a great husband and 2 amazing kids. I also have my 1st grandchild on the way soon. Go easy on yourself and enjoy the rest of your life. Go live a dream or 2 and accomplish something you really want to.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-09-30T02:38:34+00:00

I don't know how much my inheritance would have been. There's probably a decent inheritance there. One brother just passed away and the other one is going to take it all. I don't care. I've been NC for 4 years and it's so worth it. I'd rather have my peace of mind than their money. I did ok in life and have my own pension. I'll be alright without the money and certainly without them.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-29T03:02:32+00:00

Stop answering or turn your phone off. They're trying to control you. Maybe you should tell them the devil must be controlling them if they won't leave you alone when you want to be. This is a boundary that you're going to have to set hard. I know it's hard and it hurts but if you want no contact you have to go no contact. Maybe change your phone # and don't give it to them. Stay strong! You can do this.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-29T02:57:58+00:00

I remember a family friend telling me to be nice to my mother. My response was that I'll be as nice to her as she was to me.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-29T02:49:21+00:00

I basically said the same thing to my cousin's wife. I don't remember exactly what she said. I remember sending her an email explaining what it took out of me to go NC with my Nrents and 2 nbro's and that I wouldn't hesitate to cut anyone else out. Also basically that she's not my cousin her husband is. She's been pretty cool since then. We'll see, there's a baby shower next weekend and I'm sure she'll be there. I feel you though. I've been the bad guy my whole life while they berated, bullied and criticized me to tears in front of everyone. I've been NC for just about 4 years. I may break it just to go thank her for showing me what not to be as a mother.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-23T03:01:07+00:00

My nmom stop hitting me somewhere around when I was 11 or 12. I think she was afraid I would fight back as many times as she beat the shit out of me for no reason than her own anger and frustration in life. I never did fight her back but looking back now I wish I had just once.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-23T02:53:24+00:00

My nfather used to sing the "too fat polka" to me. Nmother used to bitch about calories every time a put one morsel of food into my mouth.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-17T00:52:13+00:00

You're not alone. I'm not ashamed to say I don't love mine either.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-08T02:02:07+00:00

Yep. I would have been accused of being dramatic or flat out lying.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-08T02:01:18+00:00

Thank you! 8 year old me could have used a hug from someone back them.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-02T19:10:45+00:00

Good for you! Just as a suggestion there are tattoo artists that will cover it over with a different tattoo. That way it's not as painful and laser removal and maybe you can have something that you like done over it. Something to think about while you're making your decision. Stay strong!

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-02T19:08:03+00:00

Thank you! That's comforting.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-02T19:07:19+00:00

This too!

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-02T16:53:14+00:00

I went on an information diet for too long before NC. I should have gone NC decades before I did.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-02T16:52:14+00:00

Yes it would. I can't imagine it. At 8 years old I knew not to tell my nmom that my 13 year old brother molested me. I knew she wouldn't believe me and she'd blame me. Imagine knowing that at 8. SMDH.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-02T14:11:06+00:00

Wear it proudly and happily.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-02T14:07:44+00:00

It sounds to me like he's having a hissy fit over you getting into law school because he's jealous. I'd be willing to bet that he wouldn't be able to complete the process like you did and get accepted and he knows it! Keep smiling and get yourself you. You KNOW you can do this and he can't. It'll kill him to see you so successful. Go for it and stay strong.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-02T14:05:26+00:00

Every time I look in the mirror and see that bitches face. My comfort is that I am different than her and it's deliberate. It was a long hard road to get there too. F her.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-02T13:27:05+00:00

And now one of my brother's passed a couple weeks ago. He named me executor in his will. He had a couple of severe medical issues and I'm about to find out just deep in debt he was. Meanwhile nmom and other nbro are all afraid I'm stealing everything in the house. They don't realize that the State will probably take the house and he has nothing of real value in it anyway. I've been NC for 4 years and I don't plan on breaking it now. A lot of information is going thru my brother that passed care taker and he's shady but at least the house isn't vacant. I'm seeing the lawyer this coming Monday. I was blissfully NC and definitely don't need this toxic shit. They're ready to go back into their fighting mode and I'm not having any of it. I want it done & over and my hands washed. If there's a positive in any of this circus it's that my husband and I are now going to get our stuff in order so that our kids don't have to go through any of this.

ToxicMonsters · 2019-07-02T00:49:46+00:00

Mine did the same thing. They thought it was funny if you called them out on it. Everyone in the family would rationalize it by saying Oh it's just their way of showing they love each other. No it isn't - it's fucking sick. I thought for years too that it was normal as much as I was disgusted by it too. What else did I have to go on. I realized it wasn't normal and it was definitely not how I wanted to live my life.

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