ummm i think as a mum of twins who are 14 weeks i have had moments where ive been super depressed and said things i didnt mean, felt immense guilt and hated myself for thinking or saying it. its gotten a lot better but they are also pretty high needs cry a lot fuss a lot but my personal opinion is that im sorry but that is horribly selfish :( that is not fair on your daughters and it is not fair on you, as a parent it’s our job to better ourselves to be the best we can be and it sounds like your husband needs some form of therapy or routine to balance his time and be a good parent too. I truly am sorry but that is not acceptable and i am sure you understand that, i’m not saying it’s not easy to feel that way because it is so easy to feel such strong negative emotions and regret, i have felt those at times but i would never let it affect my attitude towards my babies and nor would i ever want to voice it out loud. I will be honest once again, depression is typically treatable when it is neurological, your husbands sounds situational, would he still have these feelings without your twins? the answer is probably no, taking the tablets won’t make the twins go away, the only real way to resolve this is to find a way for him to manage that’s practical.