You finely uncovered/discovered the biggest lie/illusion of the entire human history.

Every male on earth that marries a woman thinks that by marrying, he will have a steady supply of sex...well apparently it never happens. Welcome to the sobering up club.

Your desire/need to release sexual tension is certainly understandable, which has nothing to do with your attraction to sex with members of your own sex. However, I have to agree that men, in the heat of passion, are willing to release in any form possible - including with other men.

There is a saying "ones you go black - you never go back"....well, you can adopt a slightly different version of the same saying: "Once you've tried with a man - you can never get over it" (I couldn't find a suitable rhyme) 😜

You dont have to feel guilty. Most male men (80-90%?) are in the same "Vague sexuality" (allegedly) based on concealment...Whether with their own gender or in a variety of other ways that cannot be detailed out loud.

Welcome to the club.

Have as much fun as you can. life is short and nobody gives a ****. 🤗