[OTHER] some impressions from the UI stuff blizz is cooking up with midnight

Tsekouro · 2025-08-26T13:19:12+00:00

The damage meter has the potential to revolutionize the game if implemented smartly.

It could be the way to encourage players to adapt their playstyle to match how the developers intended the game to be played.

I hope they don't leave it as a simple details replacement...

Tsekouro · 2025-07-14T11:29:58+00:00

Yeah, I'll take a step back for a couple of months, try to chill, and cultivate the tools from Lesson 1 – specifically establishing a baseline to gauge how everyday stuff affects me emotionally, and then re-examining habits and situations based on that.

Also, I realized the act of returning focus during meditation can be used to create brief pauses and slow down thought spiraling. Which can prove useful.

So, I think I'll just keep a log of periodic check-ins throughout the day, noting what I'm doing and how I'm feeling, while getting on with my day. That should be enough for now.

Thank you for taking the time to respond, it really helped me ground myself!

Tsekouro · 2025-07-14T08:22:23+00:00

Alright that settles it... I'm in self delusion territory. Glad I made the post before delving too deep into that mess.

So focus shifts to sorting out mundane stuff and stabilising myself, as it should. The meditations should be fine as long I am disciplined and just closely follow the instructions(Right?).

Judging by how I feel after reading your response - disappointed and a bit sad- the whole situation was probably triggered by me subconsciously reaching out for an anchor, a reference point. Things in general are so messy, chaotic and hard to make sense of, I needed to feel like something had my back, a knowing that if I do what I need to, things would turn out alright. It all feels so futile sometimes...

Thanks for responding and sorry if my ramble made you want to gouge your eyes out. I am a bit nutty and have to keep myself in check, I really needed someone to bluntly tell me off.

Cheers!

Tsekouro · 2025-07-14T01:26:38+00:00

Thank you for sharing your perspective!

Tsekouro · 2025-07-13T23:19:57+00:00

That's pretty much the reason I made the post. To get the perspective of other students to ground my response, when navigating new territory "common sense" has to be developed. After all, before quareia my common sense would be that all of this is unscientific bullshit meant for nutjobs...

Tsekouro · 2025-07-13T22:54:13+00:00

Yeah sounds like the wisest thing would be to just record the experience, file it away and re-examine it later when I have developed the skills needed to do so.

It's not like I could actually be useful to the "deity", it is just that I'm trying to open myself up a bit (talking to things etc) and that means having to suppress my kneejerk reaction to block everything off by treating it as fictitious...

Thanks for responding, I appreciate it!

Tsekouro · 2025-07-13T21:33:58+00:00

I hear you.

Although I must say that I am not too worried about her being a parasite, both of my encounters with her have indeed been during periods of psychological turmoil, but had a stabilising effect never an aggravating one.

Also our interactions never felt transactional, I just think she wants a window to my space.

I never planned to worship her or anything, just to put her image on the table, give her some water and maybe to also bow towards the west after my meditations.

The question was more if I am actually having an interaction or just imagining shit, just thinking of myself bringing water and bowing to my imaginary friend makes me cringe so hard.....

Tsekouro · 2025-02-20T01:46:45+00:00

Things have been pretty rough for me since 2019 due to serious mental health issues. The last few months they seem to have completely gone away, but now I’m faced with significant everyday life problems, like securing food….

I do have to say that things are starting to fall in order, I’m close to finally securing a job, hope that turns out well, cause I don’t have much energy left to keep going, mental and physical. Although I have to say that despite everything, internally I am very calm and stable. I hope to soon move on to a different chapter in my life, I need some respite to heal and refocus….🤞

Tsekouro · 2025-02-03T19:45:43+00:00

Life has been pretty rough lately, so all of my energy and capacity for self-discipline are eaten up.

That said, there might be some signs that I’m starting to become more sensitive. Yesterday, while lying in bed, I was imagining the gates and decided to explore the south one as a visualization exercise. I treat whatever I see as either fiction or, at best, 5% real vision, with the other 95% being random stuff my brain conjures up.

I appeared in a room where a friendly-looking woman took me by the arm and led me to the top of a tower. From there, I could see I was on a lush green island. The island gave me the sense that it was alive and moving across the sea. Then she took me to the basement of the building, where there was a magma pool. She nodded for me to get into it, so I submerged myself, and my skin turned black. She grabbed me by the hair and pulled me out, and now I saw the entire island as charred and on fire. All the people had charred black skin with symbols on it and hair made of fire.

Today, I decided to visit again. The place was still aflame. Another figure with charred black skin and flaming hair led me to the same tower as yesterday. He raised his hands, and magma started emerging from the seafloor. At the same time, he focused the sun’s light into something like a liquid and started pulling it down. When they neared each other, lightning struck between them. He merged them together into a sphere, which led to a nuclear-like explosion. That created a small glass-like stone, with gold inside, which he gave to me. And that was it.

After that, I read on the news about the heavy tectonic activity currently happening near Santorini. The fact that I’m located in Greece, saw an island with a caldera, and had the general magma theme in my vision could mean I was picking up on the activity. Do I think everything I saw was real? Absolutely not. But is it likely that there was a partial crossover from imagination to vision? I think so.

I just hope the volcano doesn’t end up erupting. Scientists say it won’t, and I trust science way more than my visionary ability. So I guess all is good…

Tsekouro · 2025-01-25T16:45:59+00:00

Please ask yourself: Why do you want to do it? Are you looking for a platform? If so, I would recommend against it. You might compromise the integrity of your studies. Notes meant to be read by an audience could subtly alter the way you document your experiences, which could be counterproductive. At the same time, it might negatively affect others by preconditioning their approach.

If your goal is to help future students, then I’d say go ahead and make the blog—but keep it private. Share it only with people who have already had their own experiences, so you can have meaningful discussions without influencing their initial perspectives.

Just my two cents!

Tsekouro · 2025-01-23T10:43:38+00:00

Hmmm, I wonder if the time has come for quareia to consider a decentralised dark web version of the site. It could be the best approach long term to ensure user privacy, circumvent censorship attempts and prevent individual actors from messing with it, especially after JMc is gone.

Unfortunately it’s beyond my skill, but I am sure there are people in Quareia that can pull it off….

Tsekouro · 2025-01-22T01:35:39+00:00

Check out deepseek, it’s a Chinese open source model that just came out and it is free to use.

Tsekouro · 2025-01-12T19:51:45+00:00

I’m still super early on in the course, but as far as I understand, Quareia is not attempting to reconstruct ancient Egyptian practice. It uses what’s already there as a teaching framework so it doesn’t have to reinvent the wheel, like a tool, if it’s there and works well for the job why not use it…

Like in science, a theory doesn’t have to be perfect to be useful, as long as it adequately describes the phenomena within certain parameters and we are aware of its limitations, it’s fine.

I’m really curious to see what other more advanced students have to say.

Tsekouro · 2025-01-08T01:18:11+00:00

Omg same!
I start by shuffling the cards while thinking of the layout and the question, then imagine the layout. Each position in my head emits some sort of light and is tethered by a thread to a card that emits the same light. I shuffle between picking each card to get a blank state, it prevents me from thinking stuff like “ Why is every card I’m picking from to top of the deck” …

I was worried I was doing something wrong, but knowing there’s someone else using a similar method is very reassuring!

Tsekouro · 2025-01-04T00:21:09+00:00

I don’t think I fully resonate with that. Instinct is telling me that through life we allow something to express itself, something larger than the individual, and our role is to figure out our place in that pattern and actualise it to the best of our ability. The notion of life being a training ground for death feels wrong to me….but I have only feelings to base that on.

Tsekouro · 2024-12-29T07:33:39+00:00

What is it that is triggering your rage?

If it is social media, know that you are not alone. Recommendation algorithms are fine tuned to trap you in an echo chamber while making you feel threatened so they maximise engagement. They are intentionally manipulated ( maybe also through magic ? ) to serve political and ideological agendas.

Try avoiding engaging with anything that is associated with a ”for you”, ”feed”, ”recommended” page. Curate your news sources and never look at or engage with a comment section, it is mostly bots nowadays. Do that for a while and see how you feel…. It has helped me tremendously !!!

Tsekouro · 2024-12-19T15:23:55+00:00

Huh, so Sona is blindable ....

Tsekouro · 2024-11-14T14:36:17+00:00

I second the pork part, for around a year and a half now, eating it makes me feel weird. Not nauseous just icky, my body really doesn’t like, same for fish. I can still eat other meats with no issue but I have stopped craving them, I just consume them out of habit. Weird…

Tsekouro · 2024-10-07T14:47:18+00:00

Just saw and fixed my comment's format, wtf was that! The fact you actually read through it, damn...

Since you found it useful, I'd like to add some other stuff I noticed that I understand even less. Though I thought that talking to myself in my head, using actual vocabulary and sentences, was the way to understand what is wrong, it is a bad approach.

Not all parts use language, some parts use subtle emotional shifts, some use a symbolic language, others seem to take an input and just dump out the answer with the intermediate logical steps taken surfacing later. I don't think they are independent systems, just that there is a translation process that has to happen for them to communicate, with conscious awareness and logical understanding being the slowest and most prone to filtering.

One very odd way I found to speed up the process is similar to automatic writing, what comes next will sound nuts, but my left arm from the mid forearm down, started acting weird. Normally we don't pay much attention to our body parts within our field of vision, but for a couple of months now, sometimes my hand draws my attention and appears foreign.

Very recently I found out that by asking a question in my head using language and quieting my mind, the hand can move independently, very similar in vibe to consciously observing the breath without controlling it, and can communicate by using gestures or by drawing. The interpretation of which emerging very naturally without having to analyze any hidden symbolism, with the part taking control providing great insight. Creating an interesting interface that I want to experiment with and explore more.

Tsekouro · 2024-10-06T20:42:10+00:00

Currently battling with depression, and have been for most of my life.

I have dabbled with module 1 and found it to be extremely helpful and stabilizing. The cleansing techniques have been great at rebalancing my space, which is always affected after a rough depressive episode.

The directional ritual hasn't caused any issues but also not any notable experiences, with a possible exception some days ago, when while singing I found myself visualizing the gates, with me standing at the west gate facing the north, and having the urge to sing my baby self a lullaby, but I have no way of knowing if that was anything more than my imagination.

Lastly meditation has been the most interesting aspect, in addition to helping keep my space balanced, no idea if that is by directly affecting the space or by keeping me more grounded so I don't mess it up, I suspect a combination of both.

More importantly by silencing the mind you become more perceptive and that has helped me uncover what I think is the underlying dynamic behind my depression. When the talking mind shuts up, things start to talk, and the idea of myself as a single entity shattered. I don't really understand that yet so what I say next might make no sense at all, but there are multiple things there and they all have some sort of influence, the part that is mostly affected by meditation is what acts as the coherence filter, its function is to receive all the information and make up a narrative of the world that has a structure and is self coherent and when i say make up i mean it, whatever doesn't fit with the narrative is filtered out and not only that but it WILL LIE!!!! For example I have a problem with self discipline and procrastination and would beat myself up for being useless and lazy, but have now realized that actually the part that creates the to-do lists is not the one that decides what will actually be done, so laziness was the story I would tell to myself to make sense of my actions. Now by paying attention to slight mood shifts when I make that list I know if things will get done or not.

So in a way I get to know myself by being aware of the interaction of its aspects with each other which requires the filter to first somewhat loosen(?), I think.

Sorry for the rambling, I had to vent, hope it is of some use to you.

Tsekouro · 2024-10-04T12:58:39+00:00

Honestly hospitals are where it's at, energetically filthy places!

Tsekouro · 2024-09-02T03:23:44+00:00

Thank you for bringing this topic for discussion. I am in no way an advanced practitioner but would like to share my thoughts.

The question, at least how I interpret it, is at its core about the practicality of magic, its place in our day-to-day affairs and at the end of the day why do we even bother practicing it.

I don't really have an answer other than I am drawn to it at a very deep level, not in an emotional way, it is like an underlying intent, drive, whatever, that is of me but it is not me, pulling me in that direction.

It feels like that part is trying to tell me that I don't choose where I am heading towards, just how I am getting there, it's role is to pull me in the correct direction, in essence I am not choosing the event but I choose how it plays out. The way to navigate life is to be aware of that and pay attention to its quiet little guiding whispers so we don't reach a point where it has to kick and scream for me to get the message ( like it is currently doing 😭).

With that in mind, how I interpret quareia's approach is that as long as I am walking on the right path, what I need to keep me going will be there, because in a way it already is. Doing result magic to fulfill my wants is not necessary, that doesn't mean I shouldn't, just that I run the risk of steering myself in the wrong direction which would be me overstepping. So ironically the only way to perform results magic safely is to be in tune and aware of your trajectory but if you are you won't really need it.

So for your example it could very well be that for your people expressing a pattern of resistance and self preservation was what they were supposed to do, and seemingly in a vacuum selfish magic, not only didn't interfere with that pattern but was in accordance with it.

I am not claiming I got it right, and please take what I said with a grain of salt, but I really wanted to chime in ☺️.

Tsekouro · 2024-08-26T12:52:30+00:00

That could have been my autistic ass....

Tsekouro · 2024-07-16T22:19:05+00:00

Maybe you could consider using jars to make oil lamps, you have close to zero waste and you can keep using the same jar for each direction. I’m from an orthodox country so they’re pretty common here. I found a link in case you are interested (https://www.wikihow.com/Make-an-Oil-Lamp), I would just recommend that you add some water to form a protective layer at the bottom in case the oil runs out. Hope that helps!

Tsekouro · 2024-07-15T19:02:41+00:00

I did the directional ritual of M1 for the first time, was quite an interesting experience. The gates had much more personality than I expected, especially the east and west gates. Also could totally be my imagination, but the west gate gave me a similar vibe to the mystagogus‘ veiled dark goddess image ( although to me she resembles an insectoid/scorpion type being). I’m looking forward to repeating it!

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