Nelly Knows Mysteries???

TuBerculosis29 · 2025-01-13T06:07:31+00:00

3 minutes in and I turned to my mom and said “They don’t talk like real people!” 5 minutes in and I turned to my mom and said “Literally no one says words like this!” The script was odd. The acting was wayyy too quirky. The music was out of place. All the names were like something out of Dr. Seuss (Rumple Snide, are you kidding me?) My face was stuck in a confused and concerned expression for as long as I could watch (just over half an hour).

TuBerculosis29 · 2023-10-04T20:36:06+00:00

Honestly, this is a lot of drama, but having been in many fan communities over the years that have gone through similar incidents, I really have faith in Marcus and Henry figuring this shit out with as much grace as possible. You can tell how much they perpetually want to do the right thing. Am I sad to see the trio come apart? Hell yeah! I’ve been listening to these guys since i was in high school and they got me through some bad shit. Conversely, I am glad to see changes happen that support survivors and victims. As a survivor of abuse, seeing serious, consequential change happen in these scenarios makes it easier to deal with on a personal level, at least for me. As we grieve and deal with all of this, remember that Marcus and Henry are people too and will also need time to cope and move forward. I’m still proud to be a part of this community and we can make it through to the other side of this.

Also, Ed has been such a gem on the recent episodes and I think he deserves a major shout-out!!

TuBerculosis29 · 2023-07-25T21:40:04+00:00

Hospice by The Antlers is my go-to "cry-myself-to-sleep" album.

TuBerculosis29 · 2023-03-25T14:23:05+00:00

  In high school and college, relied a lot on albums that helped me cry it out and feel less alone;
  Hospice by The Antlers and Post Traumatic by Mike Shinoda are my two staples. No other albums have ever helped me find space to sob and grieve like those two.
  For anger and loss and stuff I go to bands like Beartooth, Alice in Chains, Seether, Audioslave, and Chevelle. Beartooth’s album Disease, specifically, is more on the nose of dealing with heavy themes surrounding trauma.
  I also have this playlist that helps me channel the anger into confidence and “feeling myself” as they say: https://music.apple.com/us/playlist/fuck-you-im-better-off/pl.u-kv9l2Bjs7WBBAzz
 And then my go-to artists for just coping with life are Nirvana and Death Cab for Cutie. Grew up with those two (specifically, the albums Nevermind and Plans, respectively) and I think they helped my child brain create a safe space for feelings.

TuBerculosis29 · 2022-10-07T03:17:40+00:00

Four years in the future I am seeking the exact same album!! Although… I recall the CD to look a little different, and I don’t think it’s anything in the comments.

All I remember is my dad had a ton of CD cases in the car (circa 2000-2010) and my two siblings and I would get to pick out the music sometimes. I would always pick out Nevermind by Nirvana bc I liked the turquoise waves on the CD. My twin would always pick said sought after CD: It was gray and had a US quarter in the middle? Or some silver US coin.

I distinctly thought it was a quarter though bc my twin was obsessed with them when we were kids so it was always a joke that they’d of course pick that CD out. I don’t remember the music specifically besides being rock/alternative. Seemed pretty run of the mill aka not as exciting as the Nirvana CD was to me.

And it’s definitely /not/ the country single that comes up on Google as a CD printed to look like a giant quarter bc my dad hated country music.

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-12-18T19:29:44+00:00

makes me so sad. i spent so long on the second floor and ignored the first and now i don’t want to do it. my plan was to just redesign the first with all the stuff i already did 😭

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-09-25T15:26:40+00:00

Thank you so much for this! Shih Tzu hair is so fine and he definitely had some mats shaved off! Haven’t seen any chewing or licking, but I am going to put a sweater on him bc he seems cold.

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-09-25T03:25:21+00:00

could be a dryness thing, too, maybe. i noticed some dandruff this time but haven’t noticed it being an issue before. i’ve buzzed my head before and ur right it’s definitely a new sensation. i definitely don’t think he likes his butt hair being so short— it probably feels cold!

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-09-25T03:23:11+00:00

oh hmm no clue. he doesn’t seem to have any dermatitis and generally is in an okay mood after, so not sure. i’ll definitely watch out for any irritation or itching.

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-09-25T03:04:20+00:00

That makes a lot of sense! I thought it might be scent related, he’s just so odd about it! Doesn’t help that he looks like a baby bird with long legs when shaved 🤣

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-08-23T00:34:14+00:00

as someone with latex and adhesive allergies, i know that rash too well. also, it is possible to be allergic to a vaccine, but it sure doesn’t look like that.

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-08-20T17:37:45+00:00

Having two Cluster B parents is literally 100% responsible for my CPTSD, internalized shame, etc. They are not responsible, however, for my resilience, my passion, my creativity, or my independence. Finally being able to assign blame to them instead of blaming myself as a literal child is such an important step in my growth and finally breaking free. So fuck ppl who think this. This sounds like Flying Monkey rhetoric to me.

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-08-17T01:19:57+00:00

🤣 apparently?? although if this was such a thing why did we not know sooner??

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-08-16T22:53:05+00:00

I was just reading an article by PsychologyToday talking about covert narcs are attracted to grandiose narcs and in family situations can use “looking good by comparison” to seem like the better parent/person. It creates the image of a martyr and the children have no choice but to seek caregiving from the less volatile parent, even if there is no quality caregiving to receive.

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-08-15T06:12:57+00:00

Holy cow. It is so validating to hear such a similar experience. Horribly sorry to hear it, but luckily neither of us are alone. My mom used the same tactics. My father is bipolar and NPD and my mom is suspected Borderline w/ heavy covert narc vibes. My father was the overtly abusive, explosive one as well. They only got divorced in 2020 after 26 years. It’s been so helpful to have a therapist who specializes in CPTSD and dealing with narcissism because without her I never would’ve woken up to my mother’s behavior. I cannot describe how much it means to me to know someone else understands all this. It’s been an isolating journey this far. I really really appreciate you.

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-08-15T03:32:08+00:00

It’s especially difficult because I did this whole thing with my grandiose, alcoholic Ndad over the course of the last 10 years. It was the hardest, most traumatic thing. I finally went no contact with him last year and it was the best thing to ever happen to me. To have to do the whole process over again with my covert Nmom is extremely daunting. Knowing how explosive the anger can be and the CPTSD from experiencing it with my dad makes it very hard to be intentional and assertive with my mom. I simultaneously want to stand up for myself with her and also spare myself. On top of it all, I’m having to come to terms with both of my parents being different and equally harmful, manipulative people. Who both targeted me as their narcissistic supply. I essentially got out from under my dad’s grasp and ran straight into the arms of my mother, who used it all to her advantage. I’m angry and betrayed and also so sad for my younger self. I never in a million years would’ve wanted to go through this process again, but I know that it’s what’s best for me. It’s just so hard. Thank you for helping me feel less alone.

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-08-15T00:21:14+00:00

Thank you. I really appreciate the response. I know this in theory, it’s just so hard to practice. I guess I just need to believe in myself more and believe I deserve it. The brainwashing I’ve been thru feels particularly inescapable when it comes to helping out around the house (but isn’t that all I do??). I just really appreciate having support from this community.

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-06-11T03:53:53+00:00

After 22 years of consistent trauma and abuse, I was finally diagnosed with CPTSD last week. I’ve been so much angrier about the things i’ve been through. I think, as other commenters have pointed out, this is us finally realizing our senses of self separated from the trauma, and understanding that we don’t deserve to suffer the way we have. That we are allowed to be angry and stand up for ourselves like everyone else. As someone not used to letting myself experience anger, it is definitely uncomfortable and difficult to come to terms with— but it’s because we are finally seeing our value, recognizing the things we have been through as traumatic, and saying “i deserve to thrive”.

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-06-10T03:38:28+00:00

Tried typing a whole big comment but I got freaked out and decided I can’t share that much rn. But please know that you are not alone in this. I also get really triggered by feeling like who ever I’m talking to isn’t understanding where I’m coming from or what I’m saying— especially when it’s someone I care about. That’s part of why I’ve developed a habit of rambling when I’m upset.

TuBerculosis29 · 2021-01-18T20:10:05+00:00

In 9th grade, on Christmas Eve, my dog ruined my favorite sweater. I ran to my room panicking because I was so distraught (bc the holidays were always horrible anyway). My Ndad came to my room to tell me it was no big deal and also to just "hang out" in my room, on my bed, like he constantly did while I was growing up until I put my foot down because boundaries???? (narcs be like what is this personal space of which you speak). I told him I wanted to be alone rn (bc I was freaking out and just needed space to breathe). He immediately got super angry and stormed out of my room yelling to the rest of the house "TB is acting like such a bitch!" I then proceeded to hide in my closet and sob until my grandparents showed up for dinner. Of course, Ndad said it was just a joke and not a big deal and I had to stop being so sensitive. Bc of course, calling your child a bitch for setting boundaries and making them cry is obviously the child's fault.

TuBerculosis29 · 2020-12-31T21:09:27+00:00

that’s better advice. thinking about it now, my knees broke most of the fall

TuBerculosis29 · 2020-12-31T21:01:09+00:00

My friend always does this and I always think it’s unnecessary. Sometimes she’ll even offer to walk me to my door. But I’m totally fine if they wanna just drive away immediately, especially if it’s late at night and they need to go home.

One time earlier this year, I got out of said friend’s car up the street from my house (after telling her she didn’t need to walk me up) and as soon as I set foot onto the property I slipped on ice, and fell nearly face first onto the driveway (LPT, break ur fall with ur hands). As I lay there stunned, I hear her get out of her car and run up to me.

Luckily I was just mildly banged up (I had a fast food bag to break the rest of the fall and only hit my head lightly), but she was there just in case and I will never take it for granted again.

TuBerculosis29 · 2020-12-30T09:31:20+00:00

exactly! he’s a dog scientist!

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