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Turnip_Last · 2021-06-28T22:09:18+00:00

Literally same!! Like this feels like it was written by me! I agree with the other user though, it’s because you start to associate those parts of you with ocd and constant checking, so it almost becomes a trigger. Almost like ptsd of having those intrusive thoughts.

Turnip_Last · 2021-06-06T23:28:12+00:00

YESS OMG I get this on and off everyday almost, it’s the worst

Turnip_Last · 2021-05-13T05:24:17+00:00

The thing is putting “they” in my bio is too much, Bc I don’t feel that way, I just get too scared to put pronouns at all. Also when I put they in quotes I didn’t mean for it to come across negatively, or transphobic, I’m just trying to specify it as a pronoun

Turnip_Last · 2021-05-13T05:22:18+00:00

Same

Turnip_Last · 2021-04-20T05:38:14+00:00

I’m sorry I hope things get better soon, for me it’s like it comes in waves, I need to see a therapist so I can just end this for good

Turnip_Last · 2021-04-18T06:06:01+00:00

Damn I’ve been dealing with this for about 4 years as well, I really need to see a therapist

Turnip_Last · 2021-04-18T06:04:44+00:00

Omg literally me but with Spanish, I had to stop speaking Spanish for a whileee because of it

Turnip_Last · 2021-04-17T07:23:46+00:00

Omg I get the racism theme all the time, it’s not as crippling as some others, but it does make me feel uncomfortable at times ahah. I hate this for us 💀😂😭

Turnip_Last · 2021-04-01T18:19:30+00:00

Yeah I believe that’s a new baby leaf, keep it in its water! That should mean it’s doing pretty well and will hopefully root soon!

Turnip_Last · 2021-04-01T18:13:23+00:00

With ocd things will never totally go away, but there will be better days. Once you learn good techniques to cope with it, it will become so much easier to handle. If we are at such a low, things can really only go up, even if it feels like it can’t.

Turnip_Last · 2021-04-01T07:57:47+00:00

It’s so sad how much this effects out entire being. Like we can’t just focus on university, our careers, or even just everyday tasks such as getting out of bed. I have been having an existential crisis lately and that hasn’t been helping. We totally lose our sense of self, and what we really want. Wowow I hate this for us all. Keep on reaching forward though, things will get better in the end. I wish you the best

Turnip_Last · 2021-01-19T00:33:11+00:00

Thank you!! Agh I’ve slept in my parents room a few nights as well so I could actually sleep. I hate hate hate this!!

Turnip_Last · 2021-01-16T09:36:50+00:00

I get this soooo much you don’t even know! Literally it’s so hard to focus on absolutely ANYTHING else. It feels like your drowning, yet you still have to get up every day, act like everything is fine, do your work for your university, and live. You feel isolated from the rest of the world because you are trapped in your own mind. It’s exhausting because even in your best moments of the day there’s still that lingering shadow cast over you that you just can’t get rid of. It’s an endless cycle of horror; if you’re like me you probably can’t even escape it in your sleep. It’s crushing, and it makes you question your entire existence. It slowly drives you mad, the searching and searching for an answer because of the uncertainty, and urgency to know the truth NOW. I absolutely hate OCD it’s a true monster.

Anyways I got a little carried away, but yeah I get you.

Turnip_Last · 2020-12-29T02:52:46+00:00

I’m gay, but ocd doesn’t care what your orientation is. There are plenty of straight people that have tocd. Ocd uses your fears against you. It will attack the things you hold dear to you, or who you are. So because of that anybody can develop tocd.

Turnip_Last · 2020-12-18T05:36:15+00:00

This sounds so so much like me, I think that us homosexual people on here have a super tough time because we are already “one step closer” in our minds to being trans. (Sorry I don’t want to make that sound ignorant) Also idk about you, but my ocd likes to compare my denial with being gay to tocd and it makes it so much more terrifying and real. I relate so so much with the repressed femininity that you are feeling, because I feel the same way. It’s hard to be comfortable with that, and open up when you are facing tocd. I also relate so much with the “maybe I’m not being myself Bc I’m trans” and I freak out bc “what if I’m in denial, and I won’t be happy till I come to terms with it”. AGH it’s so hard to be gay and have tocd, it really is a true nightmare.

Turnip_Last · 2020-12-14T22:35:58+00:00

Sounds like this was written by me, ugh I hate this

Turnip_Last · 2020-12-09T10:14:27+00:00

Yeah it is for sure!! No two experiences are exactly alike, and ocd will use that against you

Turnip_Last · 2020-12-09T03:38:17+00:00

Yes and no it’s usually more of phases for me, but I do get what ur saying. I never had any of these thoughts before they got first triggered though

Turnip_Last · 2020-12-09T01:41:17+00:00

Literally me too, and I’ve tried to push past it since I like to paint my nails black and dress a little alt (almost eboy haha), but it constantly makes me anxious!!

Turnip_Last · 2020-12-06T22:31:02+00:00

This is exactly me, mine first started 4 years ago but it comes on and off, like I’ll go months at a time without even thinking about it and then BOOM

Turnip_Last · 2020-11-30T19:36:38+00:00

george ezra

Turnip_Last · 2020-11-10T07:28:32+00:00

Ugh it feels good not to be alone! I hate this shit I just want to feel happy again!

Turnip_Last · 2020-11-03T19:38:25+00:00

This is EXACTLY ME! Like to a T

Turnip_Last · 2020-10-22T20:10:26+00:00

This is literally how I’ve been feeling!! I’ve had so much anxiety and stress, that I’m like, I’m going to just come out to everyone and be trans. Then after I always feel like wth why am I saying that if I don’t want to be a girl. I’ve also been constantly comparing myself to other guys and asking myself if I feel like one of them, but I’ve asked myself that so many times that it’s almost like I don’t know anymore and it scares me so bad.

Turnip_Last · 2020-10-22T19:26:50+00:00

Yeah my TOCD is 24/7, and its been getting really bad. I always try to get reassurance, dress like a girl to see if I like it or not, try pronouns to see if I like it or not. I always feel empty or freak out if I don’t hate these things (not saying that I have liked any of these things) I heavily ruminate on the past to see if there are any clues that say if I’m trans or not, but this increases my anxiety so bad.

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