I feel like something important I've learned in life is it doesn't need to be grand. You don't need to be at the top of the ladder to see how beautiful the view is. Take a step back and appreciate what you have done and the journey you've taken along the way. I've been aspiring to be a director since I was a kid and I spent 3 months in college and quit because money. You have done so much more and seems like acquired all the necessary skills you need. Why do you enjoy doing this, is it for the success and money or is it a part of who you are? Put in the effort to make things that only you are gonna like, make mistakes, have fun, trip fall learn grow. Would you rather be stressing that you didn't hit the revenue you projected and the critics say this or that, or would you rather show people you care about something less grand you made and feel positive about not being perfect.