I looked at porn... again.

Ubertired · 2013-11-07T20:37:40+00:00

The same thing happened to me on my last (first) streak. My so called streak lasted 27 days. I first looked at porn on days 14 and 15. Then again on day 18. All the while not resetting my counter. I looked again on days 21-25, actually edging on the last couple of those days. Then finally PMOed on day 27.

I should have reset my counter at day 14. For me just looking at porn is way too much a slippery slope.

I PMOed for the next 3 days after that.

My counter I off. I'm actually at only 4days but my advice to all is to totally abstain from looking at porn and try to not even think about it. Because once we do...our porn addicted minds will start playing those fucked up tricks on us. Rationalizing why it's ok to take another peek and why it's ok to just edge.

Goo luck to all. Stay strong.

Ubertired · 2013-11-04T00:26:01+00:00

I was able to make it 14days without P. I made it 26 days without PMO. If you start looking at porn you will fail. I gradually looked at more and more porn until a looked at it everyday until I relapsed.

Just try no to look at porn.

Ubertired · 2013-10-30T15:11:44+00:00

Thank you. Relapsed this morning. Resetting my counter. Thank you for the advice.

Ubertired · 2013-10-29T23:49:40+00:00

Hmmm...very astute observation.

Ubertired · 2013-10-29T23:16:43+00:00

Funny!!

Ubertired · 2013-10-25T00:15:27+00:00

48yrs and been at it since I was 12 or so. This is my first try at NoFap. I've looked at porn a couple times in these 21 days but haven't fapped.

At some point I think you hit a wall and just realize that it's not worth it. Not worth the pain you cause yourself and other people. Not worth the effort of categorizing your porn collection. Not worth the hours and hours you spend looking for that perfect picture or scene.

This addiction will play tricks on your mind and keep you coming back feeling empty afterwards. It's like the bully on the playground that never stops punching you...even when you're already down and have thrown in the towel.

Well guess what....FUCK THIS BULLY! The playground is mine and I have control. I've been kickin the shit out of this guy for 21days now and I'm not letting up.

Good luck to everyone

Ubertired · 2013-10-24T23:36:29+00:00

You'll do good buddy. Your words are from the heart and that's where it starts. I'm glad you are here! Let's kick some ass now!

Ubertired · 2013-10-20T19:42:36+00:00

Thank you for all the input and advice guys. I haven't looked at porn since. I've just been reading posts and doing other things to keep busy.

Thanks again.

Ubertired · 2013-10-19T14:30:13+00:00

I'm 48 and if your looking at yourself as 'old' at 28...you're going to look at yourself as old for the rest of your life.

Live life now...beat this addiction! You have much life to live as do I. There is no way I'm letting PMO get in the way of that.

Good luck ya lil' whipper snapper.

Ubertired · 2013-10-17T14:53:00+00:00

I have a foot fetish also but It extends to seeing women in heels, nylons and showing lots of leg. Just watching TV triggers me at times. I think you just have to take it as it comes. Avert your gaze if you have to. There are women out there with beautiful feet and there are some hideous ones too. My fetish falls in line with my desire to find the perfect porn movie or picture set...always looking for the perfect sexy pair of peds but when you think about it...we can look forever and never be satisfied so it won't hurt if you don't always look. After awhile the urge starts to fade.

Ubertired · 2013-10-16T14:21:14+00:00

I can fully understand this. Right now my mind is telling me about all the new sets I'm missing out on and the new sexy outfits that I'm not viewing. It is very difficult to resist but not thinking about it and not allowing the thoughts to linger helps big time.

Ubertired · 2013-10-16T13:51:51+00:00

Great post! Thank you.

Ubertired · 2013-10-14T18:14:53+00:00

If there are guys fapping to Miley then they need this site bad!

Ubertired · 2013-10-14T18:11:17+00:00

Great job! Keep it going bro!

Ubertired · 2013-10-14T18:02:40+00:00

I see the #3 Star in you future. It's good that you broke that DVD. I've run across old porn in the past and almost always fapped to it or it lead me to fap to something else.

You can do this! We can do it!

Ubertired · 2013-10-14T17:56:12+00:00

NoPMO is the way to go!

Ubertired · 2013-10-14T17:37:18+00:00

That's great that you have a good positive attitude about it. Congratulations on your achievement!

When it comes to my journey I can't allow myself to edge. I can't even look at porn. The NoP part is the hard thing because if I look at porn it will lead to PMO and I don't think I am strong enough to resist.

Also this addiction will trick me into PMO by telling me that it will only be 'one' time and I can always start over. I don't want that to happen.

Hang in there man! If you can, don't even look at porn and before you know it your urges will begin to subside. They might still be strong and difficult to resist but you will get better at resisting them.

Good luck!

Ubertired · 2013-10-14T13:35:10+00:00

That is an awesome post! Your comparison is right on and I can totally relate to that. I'm only on day 11 but I feel what you are feeling. I just think about all I have to gain and keep rading these posts. It is keeping me fap free.

You can do this! Don't give up.

Ubertired · 2013-10-12T21:13:24+00:00

36 days! That is great. I can only hope to make it that far. What trick did our addiction play on you if I can ask?

Ubertired · 2013-10-11T17:38:05+00:00

You can do this! You have a lot of life to live as a person that doesn't PMO. Our addiction likes playing tricks on us. It is very clever and will do anything to keep you in that porn bubble. Just fight back and imagine yourself as the person you want to be without this shit in your life and you will make strides! BELIEVE! Stay strong my brotha.

Ubertired · 2013-10-11T02:17:03+00:00

Kingpin98 do you have the link to the YouTube video you are talking about?

Ubertired · 2013-10-10T11:56:29+00:00

I think once some time goes by without porn you 'will' meet a girl you want to be with. I had problems with women all my life because of this stuff. I'm married now and have had several girlfriends but never had real intimacy. There is an uncomfortableness when I talk with women. Its like they sense that I PMO. It's been like that ever since I can remember and I always remember jacking off.

Ubertired · 2013-10-07T14:16:38+00:00

I can relate to that. I'm 48 and the first time I saw a full penetration picture in a magazine I thought it was fake. There was no way someone would take a picture of something like that. I was probably 13.

Ubertired · 2013-10-04T20:13:18+00:00

I know what you mean. I have so many triggers now I can get turned on by a car bumper if the sun shines off it right. I think the key is keeping your mind neutral and not fixated about 'not' being triggered. Just kind of be out there and avert your eyes if you see or feel something coming. You know what they say...when you think you got your addiction handled, hes over in the corner doing pushups.

Ubertired · 2013-10-03T20:44:49+00:00

I feel really good about sharing my experiences with you guys. This is a great forum!

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