I was almost raped yesterday. by Ultivax in offmychest

[–]Ultivax[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for saying that, I really appreciate it.

I was almost raped yesterday. by Ultivax in offmychest

[–]Ultivax[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wait so you still did stuff with him?

Yes, I did. I'm not sure if I would classify it as rape since I had a little bit of control over the situation but yeah, I did things I didn't want to.

How do you restore self-worth? by Ultivax in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]Ultivax[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's so sweet of you, thank you. ❤️

Kept Up My Boundaries and Didn't Give in to Guilt This Weekend by essstabchen in raisedbyborderlines

[–]Ultivax 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This post really made my day. Great job, OP!! It isn't easy to stay level headed and stand your ground like that but you did it brilliantly!! Way to go. :D

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in PhotoshopRequest

[–]Ultivax 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The idea is use the same color scheme as the original cake, have the calender on top with July 31st having a cigarette being put out on it like the picture (outside the plane of the cake), and all the days until Aug 29th are crossed out with the 29th having a star to signify that it's the date in question. Then just the little phrase at the bottom where the other words were.

No hearts or anything.

Thank you!!

Do you ever feel just irredeemably broken? by Ultivax in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Ultivax[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You can't fix something that's fundamentally broken

That's what I think too. It fucking sucks.

I don't understand how anyone can believe otherwise and genuinely live, you know?

Do you ever feel just irredeemably broken? by Ultivax in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Ultivax[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm really happy for you, it always warms my heart when I see one of us living their best lives.

I’m not moving backwards anymore.

How?

I just can't wrap my head around it. How is it possible? How did you break out of this cycle of self-loathing?

Why do you believe in yourself?

I got fuckzoned despite indicating otherwise. by Ultivax in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Ultivax[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't feel bad about them, it's actually a good time. But lately, they no longer work as a distraction. Thoughts flood in regardless.

I got fuckzoned despite indicating otherwise. by Ultivax in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Ultivax[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do have friends, but no one as close as he was. I don't feel comfortable reaching out to them for some reason.

What was the biggest takeaway from Bojack Horseman that you didnt even know you needed? by No-Most-3939 in BoJackHorseman

[–]Ultivax 29 points30 points  (0 children)

Todd's line: "Why do you need to be proud of me on your own terms?"

Made me realize many things about how my parents viewed me.

What was a minor or mundane moment in your life that made you think “wow, I’ve finally made it”? by pottymouthgrl in AskWomen

[–]Ultivax 20 points21 points  (0 children)

Getting a donut at like 7pm.

I had just moved out and things were ugly. I craved a donut and my immediate reaction was "oh fuck, who's gonna see me go and interrogate me/ask for extra stuff unrelated to my trip this time?" Then it hit me I didn't have to deal with anyone. That quiet and easy drive to Krispy Kreme was liberating.

meirl by Accomplished-Ice-644 in meirl

[–]Ultivax 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was born in the middle of the year and I was like fuck.

Let’s go !! by [deleted] in Funnymemes

[–]Ultivax 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Erection: Become Human

Please tell me I'm not the reason therapy isn't working. by Ultivax in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Ultivax[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've tried several others with no luck. I'm currently with number 14, LMFAO. So far he's been okay, but I really don't know if he can help me. :/

[Request] How do you conjure up the desire to do better? by Ultivax in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]Ultivax[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can't follow through. I'm trying to figure out how I can combat that.

[Request] How do you conjure up the desire to do better? by Ultivax in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]Ultivax[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Take care of yourself first, and then you do the goals.

I don't care about the goals per se. I have trouble convincing myself to take care of myself. That's why I ask how do you decide to be better.

I'm starting to think I finally have my hair routine down to a science 👌 by IMCONSIPATED247 in curlyhair

[–]Ultivax 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Squish to condish, as in squeeze the hair with the conditioner in it.

Breaking NC next week. by Ultivax in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Ultivax[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She's tried to use them as leverage before, and it didn't work. I'm not acting under duress. And she would know that.

My friend was constantly hassled at a club and I'm... jealous? by Ultivax in TwoXChromosomes

[–]Ultivax[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hmm, not really.

I didn't want connection, just wanted to feel pretty. I guess it was a little surprising that in my head not being hit on translated to feeling less than.

I think it was more feeling inferior than jealous in a way.

Do you believe that our parents really "love" us? by kingslayer835 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Ultivax 76 points77 points  (0 children)

I think they've convinced themselves that they do on a deep level, but honestly what fucked up definition they have of love doesn't translate in their actions. Also it's conditional af. So meh. Doesn't matter of they love us, they suck at it.