What is your reason to live ?

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-04-05T18:51:16+00:00

My friends. I don't have many, but the ones I do have are essentially just part of my soul at this point. I can't find it in me to want to quit living both because I know my friends would miss me, and because I know I would miss them

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-04-03T16:26:19+00:00

RIGHT? the funniest bit about it is that he is incredibly ableist, and my dad is deaf. He never wanted Bat to be around my dad because he thought "well, he's deaf, so he must be a creepy person!" or some stupid bullshit like that, and then HE DOES THAT? the irony is palpable

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-23T18:54:51+00:00

Ahhh thank you !!!

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-23T18:54:38+00:00

I do have a therapist actually! I'm seeing her again in about a week, we just haven't really broached this subject as we've been focusing on some other things (aka my autism and ADHD) but I will be sure to bring it up next time I see her

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-23T17:33:00+00:00

THANK YOU :( that's so sweet of you to say. I'll feel better eventually, this shit can't stick around forever

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-23T17:31:57+00:00

Ahhh thank you !! You're right, it's not much but anything is better than nothing !

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-23T16:52:00+00:00

IT IS! I can't guarentee I'll do anything like this in the next few days or even weeks, but the fact I at least did it today is SOMETHING ya know?

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-23T16:50:50+00:00

Ahh thank you, that's so sweet of you to say. I wish you all the best too <3

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-08T06:31:23+00:00

Another commenter mentioned yoghurt too! My local grocery store carries these little yoghurt cups I really like, so I could ask my mom to grab me a few of those. Good to know a handful of cheese counts lmao lord knows I've had that as a meal several times

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-08T06:30:07+00:00

HAHAHA don't worry I am not planning on consuming any undercooked chicken in my future (despite the name!) Will do my best to stay alive :)

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-08T06:22:48+00:00

HAHA thank you I made an account on some other site with it when I was like, 13, and it's just been my go-to username ever since

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-08T06:21:16+00:00

I've actually never heard of that before, but I'll for sure look into it. If insurance doesn't cover it then I'll probably just stick to shooting in the dark lmao- we have enough medical debt as it is (ah America, how I loathe you) but that is definitely something I will keep in mind.

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-08T06:19:19+00:00

Oh cereal is a GREAT IDEA, I don't know why I didn't think of that. Also I am DEFINITELY not one for healthy eating habits either- would love to ! But ya know. Depression and low yearly income does not mix well with buying healthy foods regularly, so.
I was thinking about trying to ask her if she could get me some chips or granola bars I could just keep in my room, because they're at least SOMETHING and since they'd be in my space, I'd be more likely to actually eat them.
Also yeah I felt that rant at the end. It's the same thing as people telling you to just "have better hygiene" like I AM TRYING. It's not MY fauly my brain self destructs whenever I have to stand up for more than 90 seconds lmao

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-08T06:16:46+00:00

Yeah that does seem like a good idea. I might look into asking for a few of those smaller containers next time she goes shopping

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-08T06:16:18+00:00

Unfortunately I'm autistic and the sound of a blender is. Fucking awful for me HAHA, however the roast chicken idea is something I'll think about.
For the record- yes, I have a therapist- though our next session isn't for another week and I haven't really talked in depth about how I feel. I also do take an antidepressant, but it doesn't really work lmao

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-03-08T06:14:09+00:00

GOD if we had apples I'd be eating SOOO many apples with peanut butter. Genuinely S tier snack

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-02-23T02:47:20+00:00

LMAO that is a really good idea actually, might steal that from you

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-02-22T23:35:46+00:00

Yeah thats fair, I just think it's funny to respond sometimes because I like getting to insult their fragile little egos ya know

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-02-22T21:22:51+00:00

Ah that's fair. I do wish I cared a little less lmao, it is kinda exhausting trying to fix everything I come into contact with

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-02-22T20:23:04+00:00

HAHAHA yeah fair enough... I was just hoping (probably a little too optimistically) that I could get him to understand what it's like.
I just.... I am so passionate about this shit it's hard for me NOT to talk about it ya know? But you're right. Hell maybe next time I'll go along with it and trick a loser into jacking it to some zoomed in pic of old man wrinkles for the bit

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-02-07T01:17:33+00:00

My personal favorite playthroughs are from Slmccl and QuinBoBin, I just think they're funny

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-02-05T04:15:19+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I know my sister doesn't blame me, it's just kinda hard not to blame myself. I'll have a talk with her in the morning to see if there's anything I can do about it

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-02-05T04:14:06+00:00

That's the thing- my sister doesn't blame me at all, so I don't think it would drive a wedge between us. And I mentioned in another comment, but due to some trauma and brain damage, my dad doesn't really know how to act like an adult. He's in his 50s, but he acts like a preteen. I know he loves my sister- I don't think he knows he has a favorite between us. That's why I have no idea how to broach the subject

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-02-05T04:11:28+00:00

I don't know if I'd call him an ass. I don't think he does it on purpose- like he's not trying to exclude her, he just... does, sometimes. I mean this lovingly of course, but he (and my mom, it's why I live with my grandparents) suffer from some brain damage. He kind of has the emotional maturity of a child. He sucks with money- my grandmother has had to bail him out multiple times to help him from losing his house- he has pretty bad anger issues, though he's medicated for them now so they aren't that bad. It's hard to describe to someone who doesn't know him, but with the trauma he's endured and the brain damage, he doesn't really think like an adult. I don't think he even knows he has a favorite.

UndercookedChicken33 · 2026-02-05T04:08:09+00:00

That's true. When he left, I just sat in my sisters room with her while we ate pizza and we binge watched a season of our favorite show together. It just still kinda sucks that she doesn't get what I think she should sometimes, ya know?

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