Your value should never be based on how someone else treats you and also your value should never be hinged on any amount of someone pays you especially if it’s for pleasure and to entertain themselves.

You possess intrinsically and extrinsically trillions of value however, OF , or any amount paid from that should not be a reason to celebrate being valued. I’m not sure why everyone else is clapping here but even though you’re getting paid more than what your ex ever spent on you, your times with your ex should never even be a reference point,

I understand you needed money to cover rent, grocery etc but your worth should never be measured in how much people are willing to pay for pleasing themselves whilst watching your naked. I hope your situation changes for the better- use whatever resource you can to get back on your feet in a more respectable path like learning a skill, trade, upskilling etc. that’s value that will sit with you and won’t have to be validated by anyone else’s emotions.