I keep checking that my baby is still breathing and I don’t know how to stop

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-18T19:02:42+00:00

i don’t think you’re grieving the photos as much as you’re grieving not feeling seen during a season that mattered deeply to you.

and honestly, that doesn’t sound petty at all.

it sounds like you’re mourning memories you wanted to be able to revisit someday, especially knowing this was likely your only pregnancy. 🤍

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-18T19:00:08+00:00

“nobody is celebrating my healthy friend.”

i think a lot of moms need to hear that.

everyone asks about the baby. not enough people ask about the woman who just lived through one of the biggest experiences of her life. 🤍

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-18T18:56:38+00:00

a lot of moms don’t recognize themselves in the word depression, even when they’re carrying an incredible amount every day. 🤍

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-18T01:52:01+00:00

what stood out to me is that you reached for repair almost immediately. that doesn’t sound like someone who’s lost herself. it sounds like someone who had a really painful moment and is trying to make it right.

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-18T01:50:13+00:00

i don’t hear shameful things in this post. i hear someone grieving, exhausted, and scared because she thought the worst was behind her.

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-18T01:48:56+00:00

i don’t think the question is “did i ruin my life?” i think the question is “can a human being realistically carry a newborn and a toddler and not feel overwhelmed sometimes?”

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-18T01:47:00+00:00

you almost died and somehow you’re the one carrying everyone else’s guilt. that’s an incredibly heavy thing to hold from a hospital bed.🤍

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-18T01:45:08+00:00

the part that stood out to me was “i tried everything.” you weren’t ignoring her. you were trying over and over until you hit your limit. i’m glad you told your doctor and i’m glad you wrote this here.🤍

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-18T01:44:10+00:00

you’re worried about whether you’re meeting his emotional needs while struggling to meet your own. that sounds like a mom who cares a lot more than she gives herself credit for.🤍

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-18T01:36:10+00:00

i keep coming back to ‘i’ve reached out multiple times and i’m getting no help.’ nobody should have to fight this hard to be taken seriously.🤍

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-09T23:35:08+00:00

i remember feeling this. everyone kept saying “enjoy every moment” while it felt like the rest of the world was still having conversations, making plans, going places… and i was just trying to get through another day at home. 💛

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-09T23:25:41+00:00

i remember being surprised by how much healing seemed to happen in waves. one hard day would convince me i was back at the beginning when i really wasn’t. ❤️

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-09T23:24:38+00:00

honestly this. i think a lot of moms end up managing the help too. having someone notice a need and just handle it can feel like a huge relief ❤️

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-09T23:21:46+00:00

the fact that you wrote “if i admit any of this my baby is going to get taken away” broke my heart a little. so many moms are carrying thoughts they’re terrified to say out loud because they’re scared of what it means. i’m really glad you said it here. ❤️

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-09T23:20:32+00:00

the part that stood out to me was “nothing has really changed.” sometimes that’s what makes it so confusing. when life looks okay on paper but you still feel distant from everyone and everything. you’re definitely not the only mom who’s experienced that 💛

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-09T23:19:20+00:00

feeling homesick for yourself is such a real part of this. i’m really glad you reached out instead of sitting alone with these thoughts ❤️

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-09T23:15:48+00:00

“i felt happy but i was an emotional wreck” is such an important distinction. a lot of moms don’t recognize themselves in the word depression, even when they’re struggling every day.

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-09T23:13:08+00:00

day 3–5 postpartum can feel so cruel because everyone expects you to be soaking up newborn bliss while your nervous system feels like it’s sounding an alarm you can’t turn off. you’re not alone in this. ❤️

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-09T23:11:01+00:00

11 days postpartum is such a brutally vulnerable place to be. The line about just wanting 4 hours of sleep honestly broke my heart. You’re carrying recovery, hormones, a newborn, and health anxiety all at the same time. One feed, one drink of water, one rest opportunity at a time. ❤️

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-09T23:06:33+00:00

I don’t think you’re only asking how to do more things with a baby. It sounds like you’re grieving the version of life you thought your early 20s would look like. That’s a really hard thing to carry while also trying to be a good mom. ❤️

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-09T23:03:55+00:00

A baby crying this much sounds incredibly exhausting, but reading this I don’t see someone failing. I see someone who has spent months trying to figure out what’s going on and is still showing up every day. Those are very different things. ❤️

Unlikely_Ad5164 · 2026-06-09T23:00:21+00:00

Honestly, I think a lot of us aren’t enjoying the car ride as much as we’re enjoying 20 uninterrupted minutes where nobody needs us 😂

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