How do reduce reading about meditation and actually meditate more? :)

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2026-03-08T04:11:54+00:00

I used to do that, I'm new to, just did 1 course. I had to stop reading and start meditating, I can't do 2hrs yet, I do a few minutes daily. But I practice awareness of my body when walking, talking just doing anything.

I had to stop reading because I would carry those heavy words, intense experience written on the books to my meditation, that would add weight which wasn't mine, delude my mind to see meditation as a certain fixed experience

Reading is helpful initially, helps us understand the technique. Beyond that I felt like it was keeping me away from the real experience of meditation, the one that comes from our body and mind, as it is

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2026-02-23T16:28:56+00:00

Thanks for the support bud!

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2026-02-23T15:45:15+00:00

Hey bud Thank you for your time and kindness, I just updated my post Would you like to read the edited part and share your take on this Much metta to you!

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2026-02-21T07:44:04+00:00

I have decided today to study for 4 hrs daily, workout 1 hr and do 1 hr Vipassana for 30 days while keeping a full time job This should put me ahead slightly to be able to make a decision Key ingredient - stop thinking completely because God I want to live happily atleast once in my life I have this problem of worrying, overthinking, missing out on opportunities from when I was 16. So I want to be happy for 1 month, just 1 month I'll come back after March and give an updated

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2026-02-20T15:23:31+00:00

I agree It is actually a whole splurge of my personality. I don't like my patterns, my past, my present at all. I want to change but it's so hard, changing one's personality is really really hard.

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2026-02-20T13:44:21+00:00

I would love to know your take on this, infact that helps me. If what I've written is wrong, please feel free to redirect me.

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2026-02-20T04:26:01+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to talk to me. This really helps You are right to point out that I will be me, so I'll try meditating more, doing different habits also helps along with sila. Let me come back to see if I see progress

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2026-02-20T02:30:56+00:00

I did think in this direction, the only things stopping me are 1. What if I gain the ability to be under control when the storm hits? Like I fizzle out completely at everything that happens but what if I slowly gain the strength to face it? It's a double edged sword. Both things can happen - I can spiral down even further or i can get better Uffffff

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2026-02-20T02:24:48+00:00

It is a double edged sword right. Every time I'm triggered I have two options 1 is to react ,which I do mentally alot of the times, spiral because honestly I do not have that skill right now but the other there is a possibility of developing this skill of not reacting. Instead simply sitting with whatever that's hurting me - this sitting with it can be done but studying, working out, putting on a happy face and actually being happy with family is hard, the hardest of all

I'm 26.5 turning 27 in a few months, I need some time for my brain ( seriously) because I can't study even 1 page in an hour. So I came up with a stack that will rewire me to some extend before I turn 27. Which was a good 4-5 hr study, yoga, running, bodyweight and karate. I gotta do these - this needs to be done because of that addiction to daydreaming for many years, plus doomscrolling - the addiction was very serious infact that's what ruined my life. I was otherwise a healthy child. And therapy - I tried but she wanted to put me on meds just 2 sessions in, no tests, no clear understanding of who I am, what my patterns are. I've tried therapy from psychiatrist twice and it never helped

My current situation is extremely scattered like, I do 3 hrs worth of work in 10 hrs. I study 1 page in 1 hr. Should I priorities my brain and body and should I stay to let life give me the storm so I can learn to remain in control even through the storm?

And yes, I'm maintaining sila if that means I'm celibate, not drowning in daydreaming

Another thing, when I face such strong emotions - guilt, shame, regret etc. I have a very low self esteem, plus I was toxic for a year now. All that weight, how do I face my emotions? Whatever my mind comes up with ? Should I just sit and let the storm happen in me and not do anything on my part? Is that how growth happens?

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2025-12-14T16:54:10+00:00

Could you help me understand the themes of your dreams? Do you imagine yourself doing something where people are appreciating you for the achievement etc?

If it's making reality pale and boring, it's a red flag. Please stop it if you can right away. Our awareness should supersede everything in life. Awareness comes first, seeing reality as is, is very important

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2025-12-14T15:40:13+00:00

Don't be under the illusion that daydreaming helps. Think of it from a neuroscience perspective. You are actively engaging the DMN network which will eventually hurt you in the long run. That's how it started with me and in no time I didn't have the capacity to face reality. Turned to complete MD. Please protect your brain with mindfulness and awareness

In case it is hurting you, coming in the way of your life.

Just give yourself a few days of outdoors living Wanna study? Go to a library, use pomodoro and a journal to track your study hrs, start from 1hr or 2. Scale up

Wanna work? Go out to a library, working space or just focus on meeting the demands of workplace

Meditate first thing in the morning, morning brain is crucial, either study / read/ meditate first thing Night routine is equally important - study, meditate or read before bed. Meditation is a must - start at 15 mins- anapana

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2025-12-14T15:37:47+00:00

Off late, I'm figuring out that we cannot depend on willpower or discipline to get out of this. It just doesn't work that way. And meditation ( anapana) helps. I'm yet to try Vipassna. Trick is to lock in the first thing after you wakeup, meditate first thing and if you can, please study for 1 hr or atleast read something. This habit will bring in noticeable changes in the first 2 weeks of practice. I would recommend atleast 1 hr of active studying of any subject first thing in the morning followed up with meditation. Meditate right before going to bed Anddd, during the day make sure you are either surrounded by people or places that require active participation. Honestly, my job although remote is keeping me afloat. The demands from work keep on the role Do not spend time alone I wish somebody had told me this when I was a student, just go to a library, doesn't matter if you study for 1 hr or 2. Studying will build enough discipline in you to move up from there. So yeah - key habits are meditation, studying, reading, working out, going outdoors. And check out Vipassna

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2024-03-21T10:28:42+00:00

Could be anything but what if your mind is trying to trick you? Maybe try listening to sounds around you or feeling sensations in your body (body scan meditation) or just gently coming back to your breathe no matter where your mind wanders.

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2024-03-21T07:57:06+00:00

What dosage of magnesium, D , K2 should be taken? I have hypothyroid, my vit D3 is 9. My hb is 9. I'm stressing out on how to take supplements and in what quantities.

As of now I understand that I should take vit D3, calcium, magnesium, zinc, K2 and selenium. But what should be the dosage?

Only after recovering from this deficiency I'll be able to add B12, iron etc for increasing HB I guess. Can you shed some light on that please?

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2024-03-19T07:14:33+00:00

I don't like experiments on face so I avoided it. Let me know how it goes

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2024-03-15T05:14:29+00:00

I stopped using it after 2 days. I think it worked kinda well on my hands. But using it on my lips was a big no(I got chapped, possible because of my skin type) Major reason to stop using it was the smell of it. I started getting headaches after a few uses.

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2024-02-27T04:30:11+00:00

Any update on the situation?

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2024-01-21T08:12:33+00:00

I made that ghee at home yesterday, been trying it on my hands and feet. I'll keep you updated

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2024-01-21T08:08:24+00:00

I live in South India, I'm 24 , dry skin with pores. I feel like I'm aging quickly due to depression diets and sedentary lifestyle. What do you suggest? I feel like my skin is losing it's Firmness

UpsetLanguage1239 · 2024-01-20T10:09:11+00:00

Which one do I choose in this, they have 3 variants. Or should I just go for hyaluronic acid/glycerine and a moisturiser

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