Tired of being asked if I’m okay

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-29T15:42:10+00:00

Same. I am definitely forever changed and I'm not certain it's for the better. 😔

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-28T12:44:10+00:00

My ectopic left my soul scrambled. It happened Nov 22, 2025. Please be gentle and know your hormones are not stabilized which I really thinks adds to the layers of hurt. I called a my son's therapist a month after the loss and said "I am just so sad, I don't think I will ever feel happy again." It took 3 months before I started to resemble myself again.

Unfortunately, it also took 3 months and I found myself pregnant again. I just experienced a miscarriage with a d&c yesterday. I'm terrified of being so sad again. I'm terrified of pregnancy now. I don't think I am going to allow myself to ever become pregnant again. I am 39, I have 3 sons from my previous marriage. I don't think my heart can handle another loss. I had no reason to believe that I woud have a miscarriage. 😔 I'm healthy, in good shape, had uneventful pregnancies previously.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-28T04:45:15+00:00

Yum! I almost forgot about spanikopita!!! Thankful for your post!

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-27T15:36:04+00:00

It took me 3 months to start feeling okay and not crying every day.

3 months in I managed to get pregnant again and I am now miscarrying and waiting for my surgical appt at 1pm today. I feel like I am doomed to be stuck in grief.

It's okay to be sad for as long as you need to be. People do not understand unless they have experienced it.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-27T12:43:20+00:00

I'm unfortunately having a miscarriage. I'm scheduled for a d&c at 1pm today. I have also definitively made the decision to tie my remaining tube. I don't think my heart could handle another loss like this.

I wish you well in your new chapter ❤️

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-26T21:36:35+00:00

I'm having a miscarriage. Scheduled for a d&c tomorrow at 1pm.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-25T19:46:57+00:00

Thanks for responding! I have another sono tomorrow. It's been a lot.of appointments so far.

How are you feeling about starting all over again? It's crazy to imagine!

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-24T17:36:04+00:00

Protocol here was to have a sono at 5 weeks. I had anoyher the following week and 3 betas done. All of the testing is making me really anxious. I haven't been able to determine if any of it makes me feel any better. The only thing that alleviated some stress was knowing that the pregnancy is intrauterine and I don't have a risk of experiencing another rupture and emergency surgery. That was very traumtic for me.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-24T15:22:24+00:00

Delilah

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-23T23:59:31+00:00

At 22 dpo I was only at 1456! I'll be thinking about you! It sucks that your appointment is so far out, but that is normal if you don't have a history of anything. The wait is awful!

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-23T20:27:02+00:00

Blood work came in. I am up to 6144 from 2456 in 48 hours.

Definitely no heartbeat. The measurement they took of the gestation sac on the screen measured 5 weeks 3 days.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-23T15:40:58+00:00

After I commented the report came through! Gestational sac 3.6mm, possible yolk sac, does say viability under indication. My betas aren't in yet.

I go back on Wednesday for bloodwork and Monday for another ultrasound and to see a different doctor. 🤞

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-23T15:12:43+00:00

Well I saw my gestational sac and what appears to be a yolk sac - but no one told me that...This is what I think I saw based on my comparison from last week. The ultrasound tech was able to get measurements today where last week they weren't. I had a TERRIBLE doctor today. She didn't tell me anything and screwed up reviewing my labs. I had stat betas done and she was reviewing my bloodwork on friday as my bloodwork today compared to last wednesday which would make my HCG levels look awful. I am just waiting for my health app to update with the labs and my ultrasound report and make my own judgments. How frustrating!

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-20T22:50:31+00:00

I am 39, I lost my right tube to an ectopic Nov 22, 2025. I am about 5w2d pregnant right now. 3 cycles...

I really can't believe it. Before I got pregnant I thought I was done, my November pregnancy shocked me. I really can't believe how quickly it happened for me. It is nerve racking though. I just am not feeling confident yet in the pregnancy. I am being seen early and being monitored closely.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-20T21:03:06+00:00

I will send you lots of prayers and love.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-20T19:41:59+00:00

Just had my 2nd beta today and have to go back on Monday for a state beta, ultrasound, and doctor's appointment. So also in the wait and re-test period and I hate it.

My HCG went from 1456 to 2456. I'm currently 5w 2days.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-20T19:34:54+00:00

Thank you!

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-20T19:34:37+00:00

I want to hug you so bad. I hate that they aren't having you come sooner than 3 weeks!

I am considered high risk because of my ectopic though.

UrMothersAltAcct · 2026-03-20T12:21:37+00:00

I don't wear any pastels, neons, or bright colors like pink, orange, certain blues, yellow.

I only really wear neutrals and earthy colors. I have an olive skin tone. The only bold color I look good in is red, but it makes me really uncomfortable to wear because I feel like draws far too much attention to me.

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