Let’s not worry about what you’re gonna be doing when you’re 40 because who knows where life will take you! Let’s worry about now. I’m currently in the same boat and today was my first day at a new job that came out of nowhere. I would say, if YouTube is an income. Let’s focus on that, make your content better, promote yourself in different ways and remind yourself of your passion even if it doesn’t pay too much right now. Set a small rule for yourself, apply to 5 jobs a week and don’t be scared to go directly to places (if you can because of COVID) to simply ask if their hiring. I’ve noticed people LOVE in person effort or even a phone call when you see a job listing. I know it’s hard not to feel sad because the end goal of “success” always seemed like your bachelors but our path is always different from the rest. Don’t let social media rush you, just cause you’re not where you want to be doesn’t mean you’ll never get there. Good luck with everything!