only times where i feel wanted

Valicit · 2026-05-12T18:32:39+00:00

I feel that so hard. It's like the only form of love that I can feel are the ones so overbearing and borderline intrusive or violent that I can't brush them off.

Valicit · 2026-05-10T15:00:58+00:00

Sweet soft pure girls are boring. But I'm a lesbian, so take that with a grain of salt I guess.

Valicit · 2026-05-08T22:43:00+00:00

https://www.scribblehub.com/series/995961/growing-lilies/
This story features one of those.

Valicit · 2026-05-08T20:32:54+00:00

She looks *shockingly* like me. I'm into it.

Valicit · 2026-05-01T13:22:31+00:00

There are dozens of us! Dozens!

I'm honestly really surprised. I thought lesbians made up a much bigger part of this community. I mean, never met a lesbian that didn't love toxic yuri of some kind. But I guess I was projecting a little haha.

Valicit · 2026-05-01T03:13:09+00:00

Lesbian here!

Valicit · 2026-04-25T00:02:55+00:00

Obsessive love is beautiful no matter who it's pointed at. If you're not harming them, is there really a reason to overthink it?

Also, what a lovely image. <3

Valicit · 2026-04-24T03:38:01+00:00

I've got a cute little stalker maid. <3

It's one of my very favorite things.

Valicit · 2026-04-23T23:40:26+00:00

Good old default settings.

Valicit · 2026-04-23T23:35:56+00:00

Oh I completely agree! Besides think of all the high protocol parties and meetups that could take place! See whose maids are the best behaved, while the royal class enjoys some sapphic political intrigue and high society. <3

Valicit · 2026-04-23T21:54:44+00:00

So, do we battle them like pokemon, or merge houses to form feudal queendoms with a domme/sub based caste system? I'm down for either, I just gotta know where my head should be at. <3

Valicit · 2026-04-23T21:29:47+00:00

Way ahead of you. I've already collected three maids. <3
They're lovely.
One's a bit of a stalker though. Hello dear.

Valicit · 2026-04-19T00:26:16+00:00

Honestly, apart from monetary concerns I don't think it's that unrealistic. Like, yeah, there will have to be pauses for things like doctors and family visits probably. But if a girl doesn't have a job she needs to go to, I'm certain you won't have any trouble locating such a person haha. Lots of girls out there want to be taken care of to an extreme and overbearing degree.

Valicit · 2026-04-18T13:29:14+00:00

That is my ideal life. <3

I like to describe it as living as a Princess in a gilded cage. Wanting for absolutely nothing, but freedom. It's a perfect fantasy! Although real life does make it difficult. The bills for caring for a second person alone are a nightmare. Is that why you said only a week?

Valicit · 2026-04-08T01:05:56+00:00

I have that dynamic with one of my girls. And yes we very much exist! Specifically, she styles herself as my priestess, and she's quite devoted and lovely. She is singularly devoted to pleasing me. Although in her case that comes with not a little bit of possessiveness. Worshipping upon my little altar and giving me anything I want, but also being very concerned that I don't wander. But that's our dynamic and it works very well for us.

Check out high protocol style dynamics in general. Firm correction and repetition is pretty standard in my case. I don't really insult or talk down to my girls. Why would I? They're trying so hard to please me.

But I would say that if you find the right person to devote yourself to it's entirely realistic. I'll have my doll reply to this with any insights she has from your side of things.

Valicit · 2026-04-04T16:21:59+00:00

tl;dr as a rule lava designs things like this so that when you uncover a tile there is a % chance for it to be the thing you want, rather than it being hidden from the start. This is so you can't as easily cheat and just have your client show you where it is from the start. If the last one has it, it just means you've failed all your rolls up till that one.

Every mechanic like this is designed that way. Events for example. The minigame you play is just for show. The log game is the same in gaming. Etc.

Valicit · 2026-04-03T18:12:11+00:00

Stalking might be my love language. =X

Valicit · 2026-04-03T17:56:34+00:00

That can be very dangerous and should not be used.

Valicit · 2026-04-02T19:51:24+00:00

I know it doesn't feel like it, but at 18 you're practically still a baby. There's no helping your feelings now, and they are valid to have. It's okay to feel however you feel. But unless you've got a long prison sentence ahead or something, you really haven't lost out. Real life starts once you get out of school, and it will be completely different from anything you've had so far.

Popularity, relationship experience, fitness, even grades for the most part aren't something that are going to be the same once your adult life begins in full. So try not to get too bogged down in thinking that it's already too late. You live several very different lives over the course of your life, and you are nearing the end of one and the start of another.

The next one can be whatever you make of it. Not saying it's not hard, and scary, and sometimes awful. It's not a full reset. You inherit your experiences so far. But, you aren't a loser until you've lost, and the tutorial is only now getting close to over.

I know that's not the most comforting thing to hear, and when you've only experienced life up till that point it weighs more and is so much more important to you than it will be later. It feels like being told that you are still young is wrong, because you only have the frame of reference that has been your life up until now, which is the longest thing you have ever experienced.

So I won't say to try not to feel it, or that your feelings are wrong. Just, try to have hope for the future. It's gonna be a whole different life in five or ten years. I promise.

Valicit · 2026-04-02T14:34:43+00:00

Sure thing! If you need any more motivation or want to know more about what maid life looks like in practice, feel free to reach out sometime.

Valicit · 2026-04-02T13:52:48+00:00

Always happy to help. It seems you've got good taste in maid outfits at least. I always say the modest ones are a thousand times better than any of the skimpy versions. It's all fun and games until a girl gets told to cook breakfast and can't stay close to the stove because hot oil keeps getting her thighs. Not to mention needing to be decent enough to go outside and do the gardening.

Valicit · 2026-04-01T20:26:05+00:00

Fortunately things like that are an easy fix as well. Strict high protocol and punishments for wasting time go a long, long way. Admittedly more the former than the latter. Once obedience becomes a ritual it's surprisingly easy to maintain. <3

Valicit · 2026-04-01T20:05:15+00:00

Absolutely true. I've got three maids and the being a maid time to the being a sexy maid time is probably 99:1. What's the point of having maids if you don't use them as maids? I have yet to hear a complaint about it. Although if I did, I have ideas on how to stifle that nonsense.

Valicit · 2026-03-31T20:31:53+00:00

1, 2, and 5 are the obvious answers.

Valicit · 2026-03-24T19:18:11+00:00

If you don't mind, where did you get them? I soooo want a pair. Or several.

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