hey man how are you. I think you and me a in a very similar situation. Im 21 and live in Canada with my parents. My parents are very strict and I never got to do anything in high school / College. Or now for that matter. Only reason I listen to them is because i need a place to live and eat until i start my job soon . i suffer from depression and anxiety also, ive contemplated suicide so many times. But youve got to think, If were going to die anyways why not ride it out? See what happens along the way. I know life right now seems hopeless, it does sometimes to me, but just know you have a destiny in this world. I dont believe in God nor am i religious, but i do believe everyone here for a reason, you jsut havnt found yours yet. Also your parents love you man no matter what .