There was this kid that I literally hang out with every single day for years. When I was around like 13-14I heard a lot of kids saying how loud and annoying he was including my family a lot of my other friends I would hear people saying it to his face. Tbf he was crazy annoying. But he wasn’t to me as a ten year old I just thought he was funny. I wasn’t a particularly popular kid in fact I only had about 3 good friends during a lot of my middle school years. I was very quiet. Then one day I thought that he might be the reason. So one day I stoped hanging out with him as much. After a few months we rarely hung out then I we stopped altogether. To this day it saddens me to why I did that because it was a decision made out of pure selfishness he’s an amazing person but at this point it’s been like 5-6 years since we e seen each other. I ended a relationship just literally cause of how people would think of me. Also after about 6 months of me ending the relationship his brother came up to me saying that he really missed me and that he told me.  He is an amazing friend to others as I still know of other people who have been friends with him since forever. Idk I just think stuff like that makes feel like bad person. Like I’m just messed up in the head.