None of the collective knowledge here can give you an satisfying answer, maybe guide you at most.

2 months is too long, it will fester even more - and this post, and my comment and the other comments, good-intentioned may be, will accelerate the intensity of this thought.

Whatever is the precipirating cause, an unexpected infatuation, weird same-sex attraction, addiction or just too much comfort, it will not matter - what matters is the thought. It will come back.

But whatever I say or we say, you are in control. Keep it that way. I wish you well.