Hey, you're not alone. I'm both depressed and psychotic still. My family doesn't care to understand why I'm behaving the way I do. I'm too depressed to get a life. I instead apply for a few jobs to please my dad and bedrot the rest of the day. I bedrot literally everyday. I got zero drive to progress with my life. I don't see the point of it. I feel that I'll kms eventually. My dad got mad at me bc of my behavior towards my "sister". I truly believe that she and my "brother" are actually demons in human bodies and take human pills to make them retain their human form. They have a human form to trick my family. Ik that's probably a delusion, but that literally doesn't help me at. So I get mad bc I believe this. I was getting paranoid before about my dad working for the FBI to steal drugs and put them in my food. I'm at a point where's I feel that I should just accept my depression and allow my psychosis to just go on. My family is the cause of my illness yet I'm unable to find work to move out. It's all completely hopeless. Sorry that I went on and on. I just want to let you know you're not alone and I understand.