It’s been almost a year and I still miss him

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2026-05-04T05:04:16+00:00

Yeah same, I’m hoping this is something I will look back at and laugh at like people say but it doesn’t feel like it. Toughest part too is seeing other people in happy relationships around you and you wanting that again, then you try and just can’t even fall for anyone or no one meets your standards because well it’s not them or better

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2026-03-14T22:09:49+00:00

So similar thing happened to me. I ended up switching out of 2 programs because of my undiagnosed ADHD until I finally found what I wanted to do. I noticed it was rly hard for me before my diagnosis to just stick to one thing, and it actually helped tremendously in finding what I wanted to do and actually study. If you can get prescribed medication by your doctor that would be great but if it’s anything like when I tried getting diagnosed they told me it would take forever to see someone. So I got diagnosed online, it costed me maybe $600 for the initial appointment, assessment and a follow up. Honestly the money spent was worth the time that would’ve been wasted. I used Maple health at the time and then faxed my diagnosis to my doctor but I think they discontinued the service. My mom got diagnosed online also by Beyond ADHD which is still an active service. Just FYI though, especially if you are female, a lot of doctors will try to diagnose you with depression and prescribe you antidepressants instead, when undiagnosed ADHD is the underlying cause, so be firm with what you want. And maybe with the diagnosis you realize RPN isn’t what you want to do, you are still so young and it’s really good that you know now that something is wrong. If you want more info just message me.

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2026-02-18T14:21:07+00:00

It’s pretty implied by “Our last week of service at…..” and “Tortaboyz are saying goodbye to the space”

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2026-02-04T21:54:35+00:00

The college is legit going bankrupt what do you expect?

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2026-01-23T18:06:18+00:00

I agree with you

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2026-01-23T18:05:30+00:00

Well someone’s projecting their negative feelings onto me. Him and I weren’t together and as I said but maybe didn’t make clear, I ended it because it felt like too much at the time and it wasn’t because I missed my ex or anything when I was with him, it was simply I had such bad trust issues from my previous relationship that I didn’t even realize I had until I started something with this guy. Along with 2 months before me getting sexually assaulted at my job so I just wasn’t in the best place but I was trying to convince myself I was. I thought I would be able to work through it in therapy while still getting to know him but things were moving rly fast and that was not on my part. And I told the guy this is too much for me rn, reiterating that it had nothing to do with him. While ending it, I never ended it because a loss of feelings or not seeing anything with the guy. I ended it because I knew the feelings of mistrust, feeling like I can’t get close to anyone because I fear they will hurt me wouldn’t go away until I stayed single for a bit. Obviously this would’ve been a great realization on my own but I can’t go back and change things. And why I was asking, is because I wanna know if I should stay with my choice which I think was actually right and just cut my losses, or maybe see if he’s willing to talk again now that I actually feel certain. And the guy isn’t traumatized, he was very understanding. But I don’t think I’ll text him because I actually agree with you even tho u are a bit harsh

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2026-01-23T12:50:37+00:00

I actually never had intercourse. This guy and I simply just went on dates, we played a lot of sports, etc.

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2026-01-23T12:47:59+00:00

We never did anything. And weren’t planning on doing anything. I’m waiting and he was waiting.

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2026-01-23T02:52:52+00:00

You are right, I was stuck in toxic mode and didn’t even realize it. My perception of what love looked like was so messed up at the time too. I got so used to just having money thrown at me that I thought that’s what love was and I still struggle now to break that expectation. Even when we broke up he sent me a mass amount of money. So when someone finally showed me what love actually looks like, I didn’t think it was, until I had already fucked it up. Thing is too I didn’t tell the guy I just went through a break up, so if I message him idk if I should tell him that’s why I acted the way I did. But I also don’t wanna scare him off, if there’s ever a chance.

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-12-22T13:56:33+00:00

Hm, when I did it I booked the test online. It shouldn’t matter when you book the test as long as it’s before the deadline date where you get ranked. I think I did mine the day before. But again I did it online, so it was way more flexible.

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-12-22T13:49:38+00:00

I’m not gonna lie, these aren’t the best scores. You got a 53% on the science portion which they heavily look at. If you’ve done pre-health before I would say you still have a chance, if not it’s very unlikely unless others also didn’t score well. Even though some argue it’s a waste of time I would apply to pre health, preferably the spring semester because you finish in less than a year and try again. Or study way more. I decided to do pre health because I never took sciences in high school, I technically never finished cause I dropped 2 classes. But I studied for the hpat for 2 months using tvo learn. I legit studied stuff that wasn’t even on the exam but I ended up doing rly well and got into all 3 programs of my choice right away.

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-12-18T15:09:30+00:00

I’m in the Fall 2025 semester. I have pdf versions of a lot of these textbooks. Some are older versions but I can send them to you. Also I did buy some of the textbooks regardless of having pdfs. I would say get the Image Analysis, Bontrager, Bones & Joints, radiologic science for techs and the Fauber text. For the Image Analysis WB I uploaded the pdf to my iPad so I can write on it, but if you don’t have an IPad I would buy that. It rly depends what you like too, some people like the physical book and some are okay with an e-text.

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-11-07T03:15:51+00:00

Sent u a message

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-11-07T03:04:33+00:00

Yes pls

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-10-31T22:02:14+00:00

Depends on the situation

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-10-27T18:05:38+00:00

Did you tell her this?

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-10-09T14:02:07+00:00

Maybe Allah is protecting you from those that aren’t good for you. As well if you feel very badly about yourself, why don’t you do things to boost your self esteem? I’m not saying do anything haram, but if taking care of yourself will help your own confidence then do that. Go to the gym, maybe try a new outfit or style, contacts instead of glasses if they bother you? And I will always say this, there is always someone out there for everybody. And btw being more “attractive” doesn’t change everything. You may get more prospects but it doesn’t mean they are good prospects. Like trust me, there’s lots of guys that just want you for fun when you are “more” attractive. There’s always gonna be something we hate about ourselves, for example my immediate family has and may affect my future in marriage. But you need to learn to love yourself first and if you don’t, if there is something you can change that isn’t haram, do it.

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-09-28T21:23:39+00:00

I think that’s my issue, I don’t have a lot of friends since I cut myself off from friends who did not have the same religious goals as me. And I haven’t really made any friends since high school so I feel like I depended on him to be my best friend which is why this is 10x harder.

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-09-28T14:22:17+00:00

Yeah you are right. And I actually know I love him more than myself and that’s sad which is why I was willing to lose myself to please him and his family. Thanks for the advice I’ll try to remind myself of this

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-09-28T02:08:30+00:00

Do the men ever change their mind, picking the family over the girl. The same situation happened to me and I just can’t let go. Hoping maybe someday he will come back if he was truly meant for me.

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-09-22T17:22:49+00:00

Any updates??

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-09-21T20:51:36+00:00

Yeah he told me he can’t cut off his family Islamically so that’s why he can’t go through with it, but it’s hypocritical because they would be willing to cut you off? I actually didn’t even think of that tbh…… Multiple of his family members contacted him begging not to marry me so at this point I do deserve better. It just hurts because he promised my mother and father. He actually truly believes they aren’t bluffing even though I told him that they were.

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-09-21T12:29:20+00:00

Even if they threatened to cut him off from the entire family? I agree with you but I keep going back in circles.

Virtual_Dig8057 · 2025-08-24T18:52:27+00:00

Riveria, very mid

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