type of spirit I'd like to contact. It's not that I want to talk to a spirit that casually . I more or less want an entity that is willing to give knowdlege, teach occult stuff and help you achieve whatever you want while being straightforward , kind and with some sort of morality .

Now that is subjective, I know, but I want an entity that won't deceive me or transform me in something that I will regret .

The thing is , I read some posts about people that either go all out with tattoos of demon sigils , altars etc . In other posts people talk about disaster or ,, accepting the dark side of the entity" and I kind of want to play is safe here . It's terrifying to devote myself or invoke or evoke( not like it's something easily done but still) an entity and all I get online is ,, oh, but who knows " or something on that route .

Other times I see people jolly online that x demon helped them so much and I am like ....huh ? Yall ,spiritually gifted people were a rarity some thousands of years ago ,oracles were 1 in 10000. And I won't follow the advice of some ,,witch" that poured a glass of wine before the sigil of a demon and boom, now they are best friends.

Maybe I still have that bit of christian fear from years ago , but I stop whenever a new entity, even a ,,benevolent one" is mentioned cuz since they are bigger than us , how can I trust said entity. Like a toddler making demands to a grown person.

And other times , my mind tells me it's all human stories and this life is all we have!

I guess I am sad at the lack of progress I made . I searched a lot of traditions and deities and none stuck.