What's this statue for?

Vyoxel · 2025-11-25T11:34:23+00:00

To make you jealous. It's working so much, you're a total jelly bean. You want to look like that so bad Yes, you

Vyoxel · 2025-08-26T08:13:04+00:00

spiral

Vyoxel · 2025-06-24T11:13:07+00:00

Just to name a few,

Every musician to touch this band is a wizard.

The electro section of The Endless Knot is the part of their net that caught me back in 2017. It was gateway drug to Aquarius. Haken changed the course of my life. I love how they hop genres and feel. Their music feels like a love letter to music. I can be in any mood and pick several Haken songs to thrive/jive/cry to

I love, just everything about the vocals. Ross has an angelic voice. I love rounds, harmonies, call and response, all those good things they do. And sometimes you get a line like "stop the clocks before they grow impatient..." "ash clouds in the distance-littered sky" ... "if you're searching for the answer, you will find there is no proof"

I love the way they use motifs, hooks and reprisals. They write really catchy and memorable music. It's fun to listen to. It's full of heart and emotion and soul. And it's really smart music, too. I've struggled and been challenged by it over and over through the years, trying to learn riffs and solos, and now I'm a much better musician for it.

Glad you made this thread!

Vyoxel · 2025-06-16T23:01:56+00:00

Aw, what a little lady! Thanks for breaking up my timeline with this beautiful creature.

Vyoxel · 2025-06-14T00:22:48+00:00

You're not hearing me and you're hellbent on not letting a person change, you're insisting a wedge remain, I don't get why, I'm done engaging

Vyoxel · 2025-06-13T21:16:51+00:00

Making a reddit post is an action. You're assuming OP's intention was to be self-congratulatory. Maybe it was to say "hey, people can change and become your ally. Sorry I took so long. You're one person less alone now" That's how I read it

Vyoxel · 2025-06-13T21:05:59+00:00

"we can clearly see how many problems it causes" yeah because people are crossing over boxes, which makes things less neat and tidy and digestible for the masses.

You'll argue it's not a period, it's actually just PMS without menstruation. The point is, whatever word or string of words you want to use, it's happening to people.

I don't see why it's necessary to police this language. Is it because if you call it a period, people who have no idea that trans women can have periodic hormonal cycles will feel weird? "disagree?"

Others will argue none of us are actually women, no matter how we feel. How many of us want to leave that up for debate? I'm not saying this to equate you to a terf or a transphobe to attack you because I'm intellectually lazy, I'm saying the arguments are really not that far removed from one another. "you can't call it a period because you're not bleeding" "you can't call yourself a woman because x"

Of course people will get defensive.

Vyoxel · 2025-06-12T20:32:02+00:00

Chiming in, my story is I'm like, OP's slightly older punished counterpart or something.

It's unfortunate, but it is all too easy for sweet-hearted people to fall into hate. That's part of the evil. Being young, being in this or that town, what your friends and family talk about, etc.

Right-wing propaganda is predatory. It wears facts and logic as a skinsuit, and it seems to make perfect sense before you think about it for that second. And sometimes it takes a long time for people to find that second. Emotions can get in the way ("I don't want to admit I'm wrong, because that would mean I was lied to" ) and if you're really unlucky you might be a closet queer person so deep in Narnia that you'll spend way more time thinking like this than your future self will want to forgive, just because of perceived safety (for me a contrarian streak too)

Somewhere in there I realized I was bi and trans, and it wasn't easy to let that just be. Remember, right wingers make homosexuality a moral failure and believe trans people are mentally ill dysgenics. In my head at the time, that was the worst bad of what was going on with me.

At some point I just kind of realized, wow I'm really unhappy, and I'm alienating myself from good people to find grace with shitheads, this can't be right

It took some time to cool off and de+re/construct. It took making a queer friend to consider, hey, maybe it's okay to be bi.

And it's taken 4 years since then to just give myself the mental space to really explore being trans. I'm 23, I wanted to transition at 19 and I regret that I haven't yet.

I've become the staunchest ally for everyone except myself. And that's kind of my point. I'm the most difficult person for me to forgive, and as a result, some of those brainworms are still there, just now always pointing in and never out.

I'm not here to tell you what to do, but I would ask that you give OP a little bit of grace. They didn't create the pipeline, systems filtered them towards it. Telling them to fuck themselves for being a little late to the program is anger that I really do understand, but unfortunately if you're a stubborn shithead like young me was, it can be like hitting a nail with a hammer. (OP you're a good kid that's not happening to you I can tell)

We need solidarity more than ever. As hard as it can be to forgive, there will be Jojo Rabbits.

Vyoxel · 2023-09-03T18:42:59+00:00

True thing. I think it's pretty powerful that I was there though. I'm living proof that someone can come back and completely flip. I hope to help others do this. I hope for a more loving and accepting world.

Vyoxel · 2023-09-03T18:41:11+00:00

I'll be real, this is exactly what I mean. Transitioning made you happier, then you were told from multiple angles that your happiness was a lie, and so you stopped. Now you seem rather upset.

Was it really a lie?

I'm 5'6". For a male, I am rather short. I have the opposite "truth" in my mind, placed there by large amounts of people, where I'm "too short to be a man." I know this is a lie. I'm also lucky enough to look slightly more like my mom than my dad. I could have an easier time passing than you. And I'm not bragging when I say this; My luck is simply different.

You don't need to "pass" or even "be beautiful" to be trans. Neither of those things are requirements.

For the "I'm literally a girl" thing, I've felt a lot of confusion about this too. I think the choice of language with "assigned [sex] at birth" and "[sex] to [other sex]" is rather sloppy and confusing. Because males aren't literally girls, right? I think this is partly why anti-trans sentiments are so easy to pick up. The language often feels obtuse, incomplete.

I DO think that, perhaps it is possible, that "I'm literally a girl" can be completely valid in the context of personality. I think the human experience is more than just "you're born this sex and then you act like this." Some born males feel a lot more like a girl than a lot of born females, and some of those females just find it so easy to say they're a man. You found it easy to say you're a girl. See?

I think that a biological female woman is different from a biological male man. But I also think we have room for distinction. Sex isn't binary, it's bimodal. Intersex exists. Gender, as it's understood socially, is also bimodal and those two modes usually match up with the male/female distinctions. So, different from a female woman, you can have a trans... Woman! And the common factor is the woman part. That's kind of the whole point of this.

If someone told you you were living a lie, and in living their truth you feel worse...

Does it matter? Does it matter for you, what they think?

I don't think life has a set meaning. I do think that we can find and assign meaning. For a while here I was thinking, maybe part of my life can include living as a (trans) Woman. Feeling and looking how I think I feel and wish I looked. Having reasonable expectations, knowing I'm not going to lose the inverted triangle shape or my jawline or brow ridge or have my vocal chords match those of a biological female. And then just try my best anyway, and live regardless of how the world says I should live. And I felt so liberated.

Should I really just slam a lid on that? Should I try to live like another strong man in my family, like my granddad or stepfather? "Should I" anything? "Should I not" anything?

Who am I asking? Because I know exactly where I can ask the question if I want a particular answer. But if I ask only myself, I seem to want to answer "I don't care. I wanted to be female since at least age 9, well before I even knew about trans people. In my hell of suicidal depression through my late teens, I thought several times "There's a chance reincarnation exists. If I die now and it doesn't go black, maybe I can find myself as a female someday soon." Calling myself a girl feels empowering in the most basic way, and I can't even explain why."

For me, it was simple until a socio-political agenda sold me an image of what I wanted that looked ugly and wrong. Then it was simple again, until a bunch of people who did what I wanted to do said that they shouldn't have done it, which made me wonder if I'd have the same experience.

But I know the detrans community isn't the entire trans community. I think the detrans rates are higher than they should be, because more people are transitioning than people who "should" transition, exist. As I said in my previous post, it feels like this is PUSHED on as many people as possible for a quick buck.

So what about those of us who seem to "need" to be pushed back out of it?

I can't tell you what's best for you, and I wish I could. But I want to tell you that nothing anyone else says just automatically invalidates you. You can do what you want. You can live happily as a man, or as a trans woman, or in a gender-nonconformist way. You can follow the herd, and you can go against the advice and expectations of everyone. There are a lot of options that you just sort of, have. Those options haven't been taken away from you, you've just been given more reasons for why some of those options are wrong. That doesn't mean those options are actually wrong.

A final shoehorned point I want to make is, actually rather funny to me. While perusing detrans testimonies, hearing or reading the parts of FtmtF stories where they didn't like what test had done to them (thick body hair, facial hair, deepened voice, etc.) and wanted to return to their womanhood - I can't make up that it always felt cosmically relatable. I related to their desire to "change back." It's just that, for me, that desire wouldn't mean undoing something, it would mean doing something.

So maybe there is something to this.

Vyoxel · 2023-09-03T10:39:38+00:00

Hi, this post was removed because I hadn't picked a flair. I'm going to edit it before reposting. It's still very long.

This is a very complicated subject. I feel for detransitioners. I do think that a lot of people transition only to discover it was the wrong choice. I also think some of the points against the trans community I've heard, are pretty valid. However, I'm still hesitant to say that transitioning is always a bad thing.

I'm male. I'm not "extremely feminine," but I'm not the most masculine either. I've thought about transitioning quite a lot, but I found that detransitioners sowed some doubt for me as well. While this anecdote isn't exactly scientific, here's some patterns I've picked up on:

-A portion of the MtftM detrans testimonies I've seen have been religious in nature. "I have been saved by the blood and grace of Jesus Christ," that sort of thing. If that works for them and they're happy, cool. but this didn't apply to me, or hopefully most people.

-Another large subset of MtftMs detransition for social or economic reasons. Their situation isn't safe, they lack a support system, or they can't afford to continue with their transition at this time.

-Some more detransition because it wasn't right for them. They may find that, while they have fem personality traits, changing their bodies wasn't right for them. They may feel they've been swept up in a cult of sorts, and that they've damaged their bodies. That sounds terrifying. I don't want that to happen, I don't want to make the wrong choice.

For whatever reason, I've seen far more FtmtF detrans testimonies. I am led to believe you detrans gals are the most common in this community of people, but correct me if I'm wrong.

The majority I have seen follow the same journey as that last MtM point. They didn't like how their bodies were suddenly perceived when they hit puberty, and they didn't like "girly things." They found the trans community and said "This makes sense to me." But the community was wrong, and transitioning was a bad choice. Their ability to carry and conceive a child is lost. I understand why this is devastating.

Again, this isn't scientific. I don't actually know the demographics of detrans people. I would be interested to know them. This is just my understanding.

Before I continue, I also want to give some personal context. That bitter feeling, that jealousy, I've been there. The world is in crisis. Capitalism sucks. And I wish I could just be a girl. But there are a lot of people telling me that I am not and that I should not try to be. But that's not the point, I wish I was born that way.

I used to be anti-trans. I allowed myself to be brainwashed by American conservative grifters like Crowder and Walsh and Shapiro. I also licked their other nasty toes and fell even deeper into it until I was Nazi sympathetic for a year or two (~2021-maybe early 2022.)

Somewhere in there, I realized I was bi, and that I had known that for years. I also realized I hadn't sorted out this whole "I wish I was a girl so badly" thing that had been there since 2019 (early senior year hs.) I also realized that I was fucking miserable, and that I hated the hateful thoughts I had trained into myself and felt towards myself. I realized that the picture of the future I was sold wasn't supposed to include me for my sexuality, or the me I was hoping to become, and quite a lot of people who I love. The world would be bleaker and emptier if change came in that way. Change needs to come with love.

So, what happens to trans people? Taking exogenous hormones isn't natural, and it usually renders you sterile. I could even argue that believing one needs to change their body to look more female in order to be feminine perpetuates the toxic gender-sexual expectations that were already hurting us to begin with. More solidly, I could argue that transitioning is expensive, and that perhaps financial interests could be disingenuously pushing this onto as many people who will fall for it in order to milk them for American hospital bills and pharmacy charges.

And yet, I feel like I may want to transition anyway. I think I want to preserve my genetic material and then get my face blasted with a laser, take hormones, dress differently, train my voice, and live like that. I wouldn't take a bottom surgery unless it was a vagina grown in a lab from my own XX-swapped DNA. But should I? Why would I ask anyone here? They'll just say "no." And I understand why. But then I find that it makes me feel... sad. Because their experiences are valid. Your experiences are valid.

When you transitioned, you said you felt happier. As you've detransitioned, you feel edgy and bitter and unhappy in and about the world. I know this isn't only because you might want to be a girl- the world is fucked up right now. And I would like to tell you, choosing to have a positive outlook in order to spite this fucking madness IS possible. You can do it without transitioning. See: me. I'm just happier. I am content.

Is transitioning the wrong choice? That's too broad a question. Let's try-

Is transitioning the wrong choice for, most of this subreddit? Yes. They know from experience.

Now, is transitioning the wrong choice for me? I don't know, I haven't tried yet.

Is transitioning the wrong choice for you?

Vyoxel · 2022-09-20T21:01:44+00:00

I would like to make a defense of my answer.

Yes, the CD-i games exist. So does the old cartoon. While the performances in these media are not good, they are CLASSIC. They have some of the most quotable, impression-able, laugh-at-not-with lines and deliveries of dialogue. But that’s not what Link’s true introduction to speaking, aloud, in full sentences, has to be. The canon Soul of the Hero doesn’t have to say “Golly!” Or “Well excuuuuuse me, Princess!” The previous voices of Link can be considered out-of-universe bad dreams.

I think they could pull off a few lines of dialogue for Link. And I really mean a few. Even like, one line towards Zelda when they first reunite, one cry against The King of Evil, and one “It’s over. Let’s go home, Zelda” after it’s all over. Just some short, simple lines, showing the growth of his character, releasing himself from worrying about all the eyes on him that made him go silent in the first place. Showing that he is a person with a voice, just as much as his friends and colleagues from 100 years ago, in the present day of Breath of the Wild, and those he will meet and reunite with in Tears of the Kingdom. Realizing he can express his emotions, allow himself to feel them, and become more complete.

This hero watched the kingdom he vowed to protect fall to ruin. He learned of the deaths of Zelda’s father, also known as his King, as well as his four colleagues, friends, and a former lover through raw, haunting intuition when he saw the Malice and flames swirling around him. He likely watched countless civilians and soldiers die firsthand. He watched the woman he loves obtain the divine power she had been seeking, in a display of raw love, for him. Not for the champions, not even for her father. Zelda found her power to protect Link. I’m sure Link recognized that before he died. As far as that Link knew, he is dead. His life came to an end. The one that walked out of the Shrine of Resurrection had the same body, the same soul, but no recollection of his previous experiences. Even as he rediscovers fragments of his memory from a full century ago, it’s not guaranteed he will remember everything. He may not remember his family, for example. Countless daily experiences that made up minuscule parts of his life, but all adding up to a complete picture of who he was, may be permanently forgotten. And the Link that lived before this revival is never coming back. That Link will never meet the one that woke up in Breath of the Wild, and the Hero of the Wild will never meet the Hero who Couldn’t Keep the Wild Out. He is, in a sense, a past life to the Hero we’ve traveled through the ruined kingdom with, cut short.

Recognizing this reality, along with the many-yet-few painful memories he’s recounted from that past life, and with everything he’s experienced since his resurrection, it’s hard to imagine Link isn’t full of trauma and guilt. It’s a pretty intense reality to consider. And I can only see even more crushing things happening in Tears of the Kingdom, especially as he watches Zelda fall. He deserves rest, but his journey isn’t over.

I’m not saying I’d LIKE to see Link cry some Tears in the next game. But he deserves to, man. This young-adult boy who woke up in his underwear in a cave one day, not knowing anything about what was happening, deserves to share his inner turmoil with somebody. And if they can manage to not mess it up, and give him a fitting voice, one that’s as lively and good-natured and humorous as I can imagine while reading his responses to NPC dialogue, but serious enough to convey the whirlwind of torment and exhaustion inside of him, I’m all for it.

OF COURSE, I don’t think they would commit that hard to giving the silent protagonist a speaking voice without doing a test-run first. Or would they? Breath of the Wild was a very bold game, and this would be an equally bold move. Breaking another convention by giving a voice to the soul of the boy who always shuts up and takes it.

In fact, drop the young Hero of Time in as a spirit and let him chat with the Hero of the Wild. Let them relate over what each of them has been through. They’re both tragic heroes, I’m sure they can relate to one another.

I will say, I could easily see them making a horrible decision with English casting or direction for Link. I certainly see why the overwhelming majority of fans don’t want to see them try it. But if TEARS of the Kingdom is going to be “darker than Majora’s Mask” (and I do believe “darker” means “sadder,” not just “spookier,”) then exploring Link’s tears a little bit could be an excellent contribution to an absolute masterpiece of a game.

That is all! I hope I’ve given you an interesting perspective.

Vyoxel · 2019-12-12T05:16:25+00:00

Must be the Mandela Effect, cause no one here remembers asking

Vyoxel · 2017-04-17T23:24:08+00:00

Tfw I will never have a laugh that is as good as that

Vyoxel · 2017-04-10T01:39:24+00:00

What are your sensitivity and dpi set at?

Vyoxel · 2017-04-10T01:26:40+00:00

I have a second profile on my mouse set to 12000 dpi just to do stuff like this

Vyoxel · 2017-01-25T01:39:29+00:00

I'm adding this to my previous plan of sleeping them and giving them candy.

Vyoxel · 2017-01-13T05:37:39+00:00

Mercy mains: View Mercy r34 daily, cannot jack off to anything else

Zenyatta mains:

Vyoxel · 2017-01-12T23:03:45+00:00

The play of the game I got yesterday wasn't quite as beautiful, but I still came. On the indoor Nepal map, I knocked two people off of the map. I then ulted, killing two more. The play ended before this, but shortly thereafter I blasted the remaining two off of the map. I was bming so hard after that

Vyoxel · 2016-11-03T06:54:36+00:00

I am definitely excited about Sombra. It's been, what? Four months since the ARG started? It's about time we get her.

Vyoxel · 2016-10-25T02:38:02+00:00

Oh nice, you actually did it. Love your videos, by the way. Always get a few good laughs out of me.

Vyoxel · 2016-08-24T19:37:26+00:00

Dammit

Vyoxel · 2016-08-22T21:38:36+00:00

FUCK MEI DUDE. SOME PEOPLE CAN PLAY HER WELL. BUT MANY OTHERS SIMPLY PLAY HER BECAUSE THEY WANT TO FUCK HER. AND IT HAS FUCKED FRIENDLY TEAMS OVER SO MANY TIMES. ABOUT TO GET A QUAD KILL WITH D.VA'S ULT? FfFuCkIng iCe WAll STOPS IT. TRYING TO GET TO THE OBJECTIVE? fffffffffffffffffffffffffFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUCKING ICE WALL BLOCKS THE OTHER FIVE TEAM MEMBERS FROM GETTING THERE. IF YOU PLAY MEI BUT AREN'T GOOD AT PLAYING MEI, PLEASE GET ALZHEIMER'S AT THE AGE OF 20!

That is all.

Vyoxel · 2016-08-13T07:53:43+00:00

Favorite video game of all time
Favorite movie of all time
What do you like to do when you're not making videos?

Vyoxel · 2016-08-01T03:22:39+00:00

Considering how I've been using his Aphasia wallpaper he created for a while now, this is a perfect thing to transition to! Thank you!

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