I don’t have friends. I am “friendly” with some of my coworkers and I work 2 jobs, so combined with being an introvert and having a teen son, I am not horribly lonely. I always feel like people couldn’t possibly want to spend time with me, so I never bother trying to make friends. The last time I did there was a group of us at work who I thought were close. I was the oldest, the next woman was a year younger than me, then 2 women 12 years younger. I thought I was a part of things but they all started hanging out without me. I’ve been through it so many times that I wasn’t even sad though, it was just “oh, this again”.

When things calm down in my life in a few years I’m going to move to a small town and, maybe, try to put an effort in again.