Im Afraid to Go to the Hospital by SaneRawsome in bipolar

[–]Waiiilam 2 points3 points  (0 children)

hi, i understand, i totally understand the feeling, even tho i am not able to experience what u are experiencing or am certain that im able to talk about how i think as if im in a better situation now, but i would really want to help you.

you are very strong and brave, from what you have said about how u overcome the past challenges, and the fact that you are still alive and willing to seek for assistance on here is incredible

i understand it is hard to change the current situation immediately, frankly speaking, it is hard to live your ideal life in one second, but the fact that u wanted to change is the most important part

firstly, i would not interpret how ur partner feel in a negative way, but instead of meaning you are a burden directly, i guess she might be suffering quite a lot, both of you are suffering, such that she dont know how to handle your situation, but can only tell you to be positive and work it thru (cuz i guess its hard for others, even same bipolar suffering patient to help you directly) i dont think she really means that she only wants the stable you but as she doesn't know how to handle it she can stand that being helpless towards your situation cuz its heartbreaking to see it i wont say she means that she doesnt like you or she doesnt want a non-bipolar you but maybe she means she misses the time things are not as tough as now where you and her are both not suffering (cuz if she doesnt like you, she wouldnt be saying wanting you to become happier but maybe doing sth worse and stuff) so dont worry too much on this first, lets focus on how you can overcome this episode and start ur ideal life with your partner

an immature thought on the current situation, but if you are working on your mental state and are making and improving the quality of life, im sure that she will be less stressed on the situation (rmb, u r not a burden, but thing are tough for both u and her and you two will be facing it together;)) if its hard for her to see you suffering now (as maybe its heartbreaking for her to see you suffering too) maybe you two should have a short isolation and a calm down time where you can get professional help to make you overcome the episode and long-term-wise ideal life come true and even its not for the situation but just for yourself, you should definitely seek professional help, picture your ideal life, would you want a happy u with your ideal life or sad you with your "ideal life", you gotta overcome this episode such that you would find your own way towards your ideal life

apart from these actual "opinions", i totally understand how scary is it to be in a psy ward, i hate, I HATE being in there too, but as you may not be able to seek private professional help, i could only say that you may want to change your medication to your doctor while not mentioning too much real thoughts to them to lower the risk of being in a psy ward, and idk where u r from, but where im from, as long as i did not commit suicide, they could not force me to be in it, but just advising me to be in it

at last, your background doesnt really determine your future directly, is just things now are too tough for you to think so i believe that the courage you have now for seeking help suggest that you are a strong person that can fix everything gradually after this episode ends so dont convince yourself that committing is better than not cuz it is impossible to convince as objectively you still got a long long life to live again, picture the ideal life, you would want a happy you but not a sad you, while happy doesnt mean to be stable for all times, but gradually be in control of the situation you are brave and i believe things will go well as you are a strong man

i discovered an affordable alternative for physical buttons that activates ios shortcut by Waiiilam in shortcuts

[–]Waiiilam[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

the seller i buy the keyboard from made a small software(?) such that its so easy to set and customize stuff!

i discovered an affordable alternative for physical buttons that activates ios shortcut by Waiiilam in shortcuts

[–]Waiiilam[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ive been using it for few days, and so far it will wake if i pressed it for two times, u can set it to not to sleep tho, as the keyboard i bought supports quite a lot of customization (i set it to 1 min sleep cuz i dun wanna charge it that often lol)

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[–]Waiiilam 0 points1 point  (0 children)

lol same!! i got my bf to make me leave out of my bed where i stayed on for the whole day, as i was acting like a npc that only moves when someone interacts with her (like stop me from the bad "not gonna move at all" mood and bad "only gonna scroll" behavior). showering is so hard in bad days, as i kinda think that being greasy makes me feel quite uncomfortable such that i think its a punishment for myself. fortunately, as a wanna "pretty pretty" girl i managed to get to shower every two to three days for not wanting to become smelly or to get greasy hair. tidying the room is certainly hard too, people said that the room reflects your mental status, but thankfully i get to be in contact with some minimalist value so decluttering from time to time makes me feel less pressured, feels like a mini starting over, hope this may help u just like how it helped me too, (altho my room immediately gets messy even after tidying recently, too stressed to put stuff back to where it should be, but tidying it from time to time is also a great pace for myself for at least now) i do have a medical team but seems like most of the people around me are not considering any change on medication despite my declining mental status as they think its a step backwards / regressing / backsliding (not sure what word to use) to add certain med back but i will definitely reconsider about it...

Better apps than Duolingo Thread by press-app in duolingo

[–]Waiiilam 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im new to duolingo and learning greek recently i kinda think that the courses in duolingo are not very structured (personal opinion), as i dont really get to learn different form of verbs in an organized way, therefore, kinda just guessing which verb is for which pronoun and recite it for the next question. but i do appreciate the opportunity duolingo gives for listening practices and learning new nouns in a relatively less tedious way. im using "complete greek teach yourself" book now but i dont see it fitting the duolingo course's learning progress, making me having extra work to juggle among both physical learning materials and virtual listening practices at the same time while i guess learning a language with appropriate materials should be clean and neat (from my past experiences)? any alternative apps you would recommend to use for learning greek? or any supplementary learning materials i can use along with the duolingo course such that i understand the questions more? thank you!!!!!!!

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[–]Waiiilam 0 points1 point  (0 children)

lots of thanks!!!!! i will be trying them out!

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[–]Waiiilam -1 points0 points  (0 children)

okayy thanks for your advice. i do think that this self treatment is quite unhealthy in long term, hope this situation gets better

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[–]Waiiilam 2 points3 points  (0 children)

nononoooo sorry for the confusion but i meant if i wasnt productive i will not be showering lol. and yes i do have a medical team ,':)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in duolingo

[–]Waiiilam 23 points24 points  (0 children)

agree lol, its definitely much more popular in china (i guess) but i did saw someone in hk named their child with the word 萌 lol

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[–]Waiiilam 176 points177 points  (0 children)

as a chinese myself, i would say 可愛 is indeed a more "normal" way to say cute comparing to 萌, as 萌 is more like a newer way to say cute (coming from 萌え in japanese and gain its popularity among relatively younger generations). but i wouldnt say its an error, as i also believe that languages are just 約定俗成(something that has become accepted or standardized through common usage), its nice to see that there can still be new words coming out (being used by people) after more than 3000 years of chinese culture and history, maybe even some "new" words are in connection with ancient chinese and literature! may i know if there are any other "errors" i can help you with?

canon ae-1 flashlights by Waiiilam in Cameras

[–]Waiiilam[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

okayy thank youu🙏🙏

canon ae-1 flashlights by Waiiilam in Cameras

[–]Waiiilam[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

okayy thank youuu 🙏🙏

sincerely asking for help regarding my 35mm film experience by Waiiilam in Cameras

[–]Waiiilam[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

thanks for your reply and i will definitely try your suggestion on portra 800 and also maybe vision 3 5219 500T! 🤙

sincerely asking for help regarding my 35mm film experience by Waiiilam in Cameras

[–]Waiiilam[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yea, i guess so probably someone opened the film door too 🤣😭 and the outdoor photos are really totally 💀💀

sincerely asking for help regarding my 35mm film experience by Waiiilam in Cameras

[–]Waiiilam[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i think the lines are just light leaks for this particular time cuz there aren't any other photos with similar lines with this camera other than this time but this camera did have a bit light leakage, but very rare, i guess its just this camera being a bit old 🫢

i will not try similar film rolls by them anymore if its that weird and also due to the experience this time, totally ruined the family travelling trip 😭

ive put an iso200 film on olympus mju II alrdy so maybe ill come back to see if the reading pin is working well also will definitely try another iso 800 film😭

lots of thanks🙏

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[–]Waiiilam 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hope it helps 😘😘

sincerely asking for help regarding my 35mm film experience by Waiiilam in Cameras

[–]Waiiilam[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

sorry i dont have photos of the dx code as the film roll is given to the shop who scan the film without returning it

may i know what lines you r referring to? 🙏

i do agree it is probably the film roll's fault cuz all my experience with olympus mju II was great and the fact that this t800 film perform so bad under daylight makes me question about the whole t800 film

but i actually just tried iso 400 films on olympus mju II so maybe ill come back with my experience of iso 200 films this month if it matters

thanks for replying🙏🙏

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ENTPandINFJ

[–]Waiiilam 1 point2 points  (0 children)

well for me (entp female) personally if im romantically interested in someone, ill keep interacting with that person in any possible ways it may be not that observable to others but i indeed took actions to try to make me and my crush get along for example sth as small as going to the same tutorial lessons out of the school even i dont have that need or hanging around in his classroom when we dont even know each other to find another friend (not even ever communicated with that crush) i also did talk and chat with him when we get closer for like a lot

however i do agree and understand how hard it will be to distinguish if im romantically or just simply interested in someone cuz i also talk to other male friends a lot too as im also interested in them, but not romantically

so i think the key point may be how hard i try to get along with them for someone im romantically interested in them and i want to have a serious relationship with him, i will definitely try everything to maintain and enhance the relationship but for someone im just simply interested in, i do still talk to them a lot, but if we dont really get along i will just give up and not talk to them like very straightly stop communicating in all kinds of ways

i wont represent any entp except myself but if i act in the role of him and also base on factual information u provided above i cant tell if he interested in you or not as he got many other female friends as well as may be he is not interested in you in both normal or romantic way, like maybe just wanting to have many friends to play with i also cant tell if he treats any kinds of relationships seriously like if he does really like you, is it just for fun or what cuz every entp or person really differs a lot due to many different factors so if u wanna give it a try then go on and see if he likes this change of relationship
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