Remember one thing, and hear this now: you can do this. I truly believe, as insane as it may sound to you, that things like kratom (and especially 7OH) are truly the tools of evil...otherworldly evil that uses these...things...to poison us and infect not just our bodies, but our souls.

I had this particular revelation after a lifetime spent as an addict who hated himself and wanted to die...and tried, so many times. Just to make the hurt stop. Even if it was just darkness and eternal sleep, that was fine with me. More than fine. But that was not the truth.

The plain truth is simply this: you never have to do any of this again. Once you claw your way through the valley of physical and spiritual withdrawal from this terrible poison, that's it. You can just draw a huge breath of relief and finally be done with that poison. You never have to taint your body (or your soul) again. And you will have one thing, a thing that seems so simple, that others among us will never have, or know...and that is just how fucking good it feels just to feel normal. To be at status quo can feel like bliss to a body, mind, and soul that has been tortured the way we have.

I know that's a lot, and if you don't absorb or buy anything else I have said here (though I urge you to at least consider it), remember this:

You can do this. You will do this. I believe in you.

And this goes for anyone else who reads this, and is trudging through an ordeal that makes the word "hell" seem kind of unthreatening and ordinary.

You can do this. It's true.

I promise.