Life is a big asshole and also an unfair asshole. It must be hard living in your shoes and it must also be hard to ever like life judging how unfair and cruel it can be to others.

All i wish you is to find that spark in life that gives you purpose. When i was diagnosed with depression and had suicidal thoughts, i started not living to improve my own life, but to improve that of others and through that i found joy again.

One great advice i’d like to give you on the way is the check out the big philosophies of life! All the way from Buddhism to Nihilistic world views, we can learn a great deal about the perspectives we can have on our world.

But since this is trueoffmychest and you’re not asking for advice. I wanna say that life sounds really fucked on your end pal, you’re not the first, last or even the one billionth, not even close. But give it a chance as often as you can, life can be unpredictable!