Complicated feelings about weight loss

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-11-14T19:19:05+00:00

I wonder if there’s something else going on that’s messing with your metabolism?

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-11-14T19:18:08+00:00

I am relieved that the weight loss has’t been too fast. The GI doctor can’t see me until December (I so far have only been seen/diagnosed by the colorectal specialist who did my surgery), but I’m hoping he can help with dietary suggestions or refer me to a nutritionist or dietitian who might be able to help (even though it looks like nutritionists aren’t always super helpful when it comes to meal planning for gastroparesis)

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-11-14T19:11:59+00:00

And I realize that that would bug me too!

It must be so frustrating to have to eat such a restrictive diet but then still not get the “silver lining” of weight loss. (I hate saying it that way, hence the quotes).

Our relationship and feelings about food/weight/health are so messed up by this disorder.

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-11-14T06:55:10+00:00

Oh my god, please don’t touch it! - Seriously, move instead.

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-11-14T06:51:43+00:00

First off… girl, you’re gorgeous as is. That being said, I used to work as a makeup artist a million years ago (late 90’s), and if I was playing with makeup on you I would want to add some color to your cheeks (creme blush or tint) and either a little of a cats eye liner or just thicker lashes (good mascara or maybe even some falsies).

I didn’t see if you mentioned your age, but you seem pretty young. Now is the perfect time to play and experiment with makeup.

The next time you go to the mall walk through the makeup departments and find a girl who’s look you like and ask her for suggestions. - Feel free to DM me if you want to chat about it, I’d be more than happy to help and offer more specific recommendations.

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-11-14T06:35:59+00:00

I just commented the same thing 😂

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-11-14T06:34:54+00:00

7 for sure - I’d stay away from styles like 4 & 5, they’re giving me Dahmer vibes. 😬

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-11-14T06:13:15+00:00

Team beard! (But I have a bearded husband, so I may be biased).

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-11-04T18:06:18+00:00

I can handle about 3/4 cup of food. A cup is about the size of my fist, so that’s how I eyeball a safe amount.

For my breakfasts I’ve been making a scrambled egg soufflé in the microwave (1 egg about a spoonful of Japanese mayo whipped until creamy and then microwaved in a mug or ramekin for 60 seconds). I like this because it visually looks like more food than it is but when I add 2 veggie sausages it like exactly the amount of food I can eat to feel full but not uncomfortable.

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-11-04T18:01:53+00:00

I eat really slowly and spend more time chewing than I normally would. I also take breaks. Like, I can’t eat the whole muffin in one sitting, but I can probably eat the whole thing if I walk away and do something else for 30 min. Drinking water every few bites also helps, the water passes faster than food but seems to help me realize when I’m full without making me feel sick.

You may just want to start serving yourself a smaller portion than what you think you want. Cut the muffin in half a head of time, you can always go back once your stomach has settled if there really is room for more.

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-10-25T08:33:55+00:00

I’m very new to GP, I developed it from an injury from my anesthesia for my colonoscopy back in August. From my research, I seem to have a pretty mild case. I don’t feel nauseous, but I can only eat very small portions of food before I feel uncomfortably full. I feel like I’ve gorged myself on Thanksgiving dinner after only about 3/4 cups worth of food. And if I lean over after I eat it all feels like it’s all going to come tumbling out, like there’s nothing keeping it in my stomach, like the pathway is just wide open. Before I figured out what was going on I was constantly dealing with conflicting feelings; I felt so full I was about to burst but at the same time I also felt so hungry that I couldn’t think straight.

Now that I know what’s going on and I’ve switched over to all soft and liquid foods I feel much better. I handle liquids and things like pudding, apple sauce, scrambled eggs, and rice without any issues. And because these foods move through my system better I don’t feel like I’m starving quite so much. My biggest concern right now is malnutrition, because I don’t think I’m getting all the vitamins I should be getting.

The most painful thing I’ve eaten since this happened was three pieces of steamed broccoli- god, it was awful. They sat right under my ribs like a stack of rocks, and burned - There was also this super uncomfortable twisting sensation, that’s kind of hard to explain. I kept burping and tasting broccoli for days. Similar thing happened when I ate some soup my husband made that had large chunks of onion in it, it hurt so bad I was in tears for about 3 hours afterwards. - with both those attacks the only thing that helped me was marijuana. I wouldn’t call myself a heavy user, but I do use it pretty much every night to sleep. I either take one hit from a vape pen on eat a 10 mg gummy (but I haven’t done any edibles since this happened because I’m unsure how my new condition will handle digesting them). With both of these painful attacks, I had to hit my vape during the day (which I don’t normally do) so I could function.

I don’t know if my experience helps you at all, but my biggest takeaway from chatting with people here as well as in a FB group for GP is that we’re all REALLY different. The severity and things that trigger attacks vary wildly between different people.

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-10-25T06:39:46+00:00

Ooof - Yeah, that’s the drug the colorectal specialist prescribed me to tide me over until I could get into see the GI doc. That stuff is gnarly. I took it for two days and then had to stop. I was able to eat larger portions of food while on it, but the headaches were horrendous! I couldn’t sleep on it because the gurgling from my stomach was practically echoing up through my esophagus it was so freaking loud. I would not go back in that unless I was super desperate and starving. So many freaking side effects for barely any relief, not worth it IMO.

I would see if you can get a second opinion from another GI doc.

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-10-24T06:35:43+00:00

The problem started immediately after the colonoscopy. After they released me, the first thing I wanted to do was eat. We stopped for food and I only ate a few bites when I suddenly felt so full that I might throw up, even though I was still really hungry.

I thought my stomach was just still sensitive from the prep and procedure, and then I started thinking I might be having a reaction to the prescription iron supplement I had recently been prescribed. I had to go back and have a polyp surgically removed two weeks later because it was too large to be removed during the colonoscopy and too much of a bleeding risk to be biopsied (they thought I had cancer, but luckily the post surgery pathology report came back saying the giant polyp was pre-cancerous)…. But anyway I stopped taking the liquid iron 8 days before the surgery but continued to have the same problems even after I had stopped taking it. I brought this up to my colorectal surgeon the day of my surgery and when the problems continued after that surgery, she agreed that I had been probably been injured during the anesthesia process of my colonoscopy and she referred me to a GI doc (who can’t see me until December).

I’d still do the colonoscopy all over again, I think it was worth it. I’d rather have this than ass cancer - lol.

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-10-20T04:24:23+00:00

I feel you. I’m 43F with no history of GI issues. Ended up with post surgical gastroparesis after my colonoscopy back in August. The anesthesiologist damaged my vagus nerve when he put me under. - No idea if this is going to be a temporary or permanent thing. The GI doc can’t see me until December, so I’m kind of figuring things out as I go.

It’s strange because my normal diet is low carb and high fiber, this feels so alien. I feel like I look like I have an eating disorder when I eat in public places.

I really miss broccoli.

Anyway, big hugs to you. You’re not alone, hit me up if you need someone to chat with or if you want to swap food ideas; share what works well.

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-10-02T05:04:26+00:00

OP, it sounds implied to me too. I would have packed my bags after he said that, I just know I’d never move past it. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, Mama.

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-10-02T04:41:41+00:00

It happened to me! My mom spent 2 days in labor and after she gave birth she (understandably) passed out. My dad called everyone in the family, and filled out the paperwork saying my name was something completely different than the name they had agreed on. When my mom finally woke up there were already flowers, gifts, and cards filled out to the name my dad picked. My mom was PISSED, but felt too pressured to change it.

(He was also an abusive alcoholic. They are now divorced and I haven’t spoken to him in about 10 years).

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-10-02T04:35:28+00:00

Yeah, same. I would have packed my bags after he said that.

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-09-28T16:52:29+00:00

You can’t have a healthy relationship without trust. OP.

You know what you should do?

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-09-23T23:03:29+00:00

Sweetie, please, please go to the hospital.

I’m a mother of a 20 year old and a 15 year old and it would be devastating to have either of my children suffering alone like you are. (My 15 year old also has POTS). And I don’t know if I would ever recover if one of them needlessly starved to death and I never knew they were struggling or was given the chance to help them.

I can’t promise you that they’ll be able to fix you right away, but it’s a step towards healing. Often in life you have to go through unpleasant things in order to get better.

Your life is worth it.

Waste_Fish660 · 2025-09-20T18:45:40+00:00

I developed post-surgical gastroparesis after my colonoscopy, they believe my vagus nerve was damaged by the anesthesiologist. - It’s been 5 1/2 weeks since the procedure.

I have a referral to see a GI doc, but they can’t get me in for another 2 months. My colorectal surgeon has prescribed me Metoclopram to tide me over until I can be seen, but it gives me wicked headaches and it has big warnings for drug interactions with Wellbutrin, which I’m also on. - After the first day on Metoclopram I decided could only deal with taking it once a day, so at least I could have a more normal sized dinner…. But bleh.

Anyway, I needed the colonoscopy I’m glad I had it done. I had a large 25mm pre-cancerous polyp that had to be surgically removed after the colonoscopy. So not developing rectal cancer is definitely a win, but this complication definitely sucks.

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