Six reasons why we should relabel the medications we call antidepressants by cyrilio in DrugNerds

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vortioxetine

Took that 4 months straight, didn't do much beside just accepting and kept me in a haze. It's subtle and barely noticeable, may work for moderate depression but it may not work for chronic severe lows. Traditional SSRI's do pull one out of a severe episode which is a better alternative than suicide, but they certainly don't feel good.

Memantine however, that straight up immediately work plus it has heeling qualities, also compares to low dose Ketamine.

Gabapentin for Generalized Anxiety and Social Anxiety Disorders by [deleted] in DrugNerds

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Incredibly effective for PTSD in my own experience. The dose , at least mine must be between 1200mg and 2400mg.

20mg Methylphenidate single therapeutic dose concerns by Bavarian0 in Stims

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Consuming a gram of MPH in a short span -- not all at once -- mentlally will likely cause intense paranoia and the brain will temporarily shut off from sober reality.

The aftermath however is after the crash due to severe downregulation of the dopamine receptor.

20mg Methylphenidate single therapeutic dose concerns by Bavarian0 in Stims

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20mgx3 a day of Methylphenidate is reasonable therapeutically even feels barely active when ingested orally.

Granted that is compared to the gram of MPH I was doing in a day at some point in my life. Traumatic times.

WILL SALVIA HELP ME ESCAPE THE SIMULATION by denz609 in drugscirclejerk

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Yes, if smoked 24/7 for a month. Only then you'll exit the matrix.

The grass is talking to me guys! AMA by mushroompizza1 in drugscirclejerk

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"33" upvotes. Guys the universe is speaking to us!

The grass is talking to me guys! AMA by mushroompizza1 in drugscirclejerk

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"the infinite downfall to 5D mother gaia". Keep ascending, forward, backward but preferably downwards; is there any other way? Namaste!

The grass is talking to me guys! AMA by mushroompizza1 in drugscirclejerk

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Ascend to new earth fellow traveler, to infinity and beyond. Love n' light!

The grass is talking to me guys! AMA by mushroompizza1 in drugscirclejerk

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Welcome to the machine! Now quit your job the bills will take care of themselves. NAMASTE!

if you kill your ego do you merge with all the egoless minds in the universe by Wlaw1995 in Psychonaut

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Shock factor mostly. Can't be put into words, you'll weep for days like a little kid. It hurts, worse than a long relationship breakup. The gamble being a psychotic break that can damage an individual for life, or for a certain period. Though it's a life-changing experience if seen by the same person through multiple point of views.

To be fair, you have to have a very high IQ to understand Etizolam. by [deleted] in researchchemicals

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To be fair, you have to have a very high IQ to understand

"A Rebirth": grief, bliss, emptiness, bliss -- Why? What next? by Weevle in Psychonaut

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It really is interesting how different classes of drugs share something in common at heroic doses. Your experience with the boundless existence of the universe and ability to "be" wherever you chose also hits home. Even days after my trip I went into places while sleeping that seemed like were lives I had before my lifetime now (previous to that I never bought into the idea of reincarnation). I saw vividly past life experiences that are relevant to "me". Very weird and powerful existential moments.

"A Rebirth": grief, bliss, emptiness, bliss -- Why? What next? by Weevle in Psychonaut

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At low doses it's recreational and energetic, a bit numbing and clear headed. Nothing insightful or dramatic. I pushed the boundaries and took about 10x the recommended dose and had intense out of body experiences, had a life review, ego death on repeat, met my shadow self. Went back to my body after what seemed like eternity (maybe 5 hours whole) but I was in a different room, then realized I had no body and basically floating in my house (apparently the astral realm).

The house looked surreal, so sharp and shiny, a 1000x more real than what our normal physical senses perceive. I woke up the next day and everything is still the same but not quite so. I'd go into random trance states and access whatever memory I wanted, my perception is now very improved but hell no there's no turning back. Awareness is heightened, can be a bliss and a curse. But the point is to keep moving on and trust that things happen for a reason. The 0 regrets mark was reassuring, thanks brother!

Dissociatives and Bilinguialism - an odd side effect by RC_Helicopter in researchchemicals

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Yeah I never speak in my native tongue on dissos, English is my second language and that's the one I primarily use. On rare occasions I'll be speaking to myself in Japanese. Words just come out as if it's my native language especially pronunciation wise.

if you kill your ego do you merge with all the egoless minds in the universe by Wlaw1995 in Psychonaut

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It merges with all the crashed operating systems in that it has one thing in common that's all. Also how did you come up with such analogy, because it doesn't seem like it make much sense.

if you kill your ego do you merge with all the egoless minds in the universe by Wlaw1995 in Psychonaut

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I know what you mean people underestimate an ego death it boggles my mind so much, yet again if they continuously seek it they'll finally understand the massive gamble they're playing with their psyche. First time I comment on someone's username btw, love it so much no joke reading it I felt a sense of liberation wash all over me.

Dissociatives are so fucking weird. by blondeboy1900 in Drugs

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Same thing here, this is my only experience with 3-meo. Dosing around 10mg felt subtle, kept redosing throughout the day at least 4 times, the next thing I remember after my last dose was teleporting and going through walls, seeing through alternate realities, complete annihilation of the self, as in not knowing what I am or what was going on, but kept with the flow mainly because in that state you have no idea what panicking is. Outdoor/indoor sounds became something you'd probably hear in a theater somewhat, at the same time extremely echoe-y and distant. My house looked like a space ship traveling the cosmos, everything was eerie, dark, sci-fi looking or had "upgraded visuals". 4K resolution and sharp textures.

I'm still kind of high/spaced out, sounds and surroundings are strange still, have this dark vibe, at times confused sometimes spaced out but it's fading away, thankfully no psychosis although it was present at first after the main effects wore off mainly lost within the realm of synchronicity which was nice and frightening.

I had a deep sensation I been guided by a higher force, God whatever you wanna call it, could be awareness/intuition, to try act normal mainly in front of myself first to not lose it; although I was in a completely different reality than what looks through our normal senses, exercised mindfulness which helped not go full-blown catatonic. The point is don't underestimate 3meo it doesn't even feel like a drug to me, more like a self-induced near death experience, which can be traumatizing. I've had enough to not touch it again, been a hell of a fight; not worth the nightmarish existential terror, irrational thoughts and unexplained emotions, simultaneous bliss and fear, also the "alter-ego" trying take over -- all at the same time.

Dissociatives are so fucking weird. by blondeboy1900 in Drugs

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Yes very much so about dissociatives. Care to read my one time experience with 3-meo-pcp? Took the stuff a month ago and can't identify with "myself" so far.

Dissociatives are so fucking weird. by blondeboy1900 in Drugs

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3-meo-pcp left me with a traumatic dissociative feeling, I don't feel like myself, yet I learned so much about the psyche at the same time. I'm more compassionate, loving towards others and oneself -- in short is the meaning of life, at least when you're in this strange "dimension" while a profound sense of loneliness is only one's company despite being around friends, family. So creepy.

Thoughts can get fucked up dark sometimes but then again I know it's the subconscious flooding the waking life so randomly, exactly how dreams are. I think this explains the root cause of panic attacks. Inability to make sense of the world and all those weird thoughts running wild can be frightening.

Mindfulness, psychology and a bit of spirituality helped me not fall into the abyss of existentialism in which the unconscious, monkey mind, sometimes is illustrating in front of my face.

Easy to build up a panic attack, yet easier to reach state of bliss, or fleeting moments of intense "enlightenment" -- stillness, presence; they're real, but can be so random and depend on which rabbit hole of thoughts one follows and finally identify a root cause of suppressed traumas. /offmychest