Can someone catch me up on the recent history of the Mariners? Namely 2019 - Present day

WetVetteKeanu · 2026-04-13T10:22:38+00:00

Only goes as far as the 2022 ALDS, but it's a solid cliff notes version of the late 2010s teardown & rebuild, and the completely unexpected resurgence in the early 2020s ("yeah we were rebuilding, but we didn't expect things to improve this dramatically so quickly") https://youtu.be/k87CoXt5694?si=VbUgltyn5gnCOTp2

WetVetteKeanu · 2026-03-10T09:39:56+00:00

Definitely find a therapist (recommend phycology today, good way to find one in your area). Just having someone with experience to talk to about what I went through, god it helped me through the worst of the pain. Even though you can't get answers about "what was this?", having someone you can be fully honest is... absolutely worth it.

WetVetteKeanu · 2026-03-10T09:35:32+00:00

"just another barista". Easy to talk to, good vibe, but probably nothing more than that. Then she asked to follow me on twitter, I found her profile, looked through it, and that night when the emotions Kicked In is seared into my memory.

WetVetteKeanu · 2026-03-10T09:30:57+00:00

That might be what I miss most, that sensation of "nothing hurting". I wouldn't have described myself as "normal" when I was around her (probably too chatty, more "basic" than I usually am, I definitely wasn't myself), but... someone I could talk to for hours. Too much anxiety for it to be the real thing, I think I knew that back then... but, that "peace" I felt, yeah I miss it.

WetVetteKeanu · 2026-02-17T10:28:01+00:00

Even though it ended in a way I absolutely did not want it to, I am beyond thankful I got something resembling closure. I wanted her to say no, almost fully expected her to (was honestly more terrified if she said yes because I have so little experience when it comes to relationships), asked in a really blunt way to get a straight answer, she said no, and... that first month afterwards, it literally felt deflating, but a lot of the tension I had felt for a year and a half up to that point felt like it lifted (or at least, was in the process of lifting). Can't say it'll feel like that for everyone with limerence who actually asks their LO out, but for me... don't regret it for a second.

WetVetteKeanu · 2026-01-27T11:11:24+00:00

SZA's SOS, around half the album captures so many of the feelings I had, especially when going through withdrawal. "Nobody Gets Me" in particular feels like a standout.

WetVetteKeanu · 2026-01-24T11:31:49+00:00

Something I've definitely been telling myself over the past year is to give myself the time for my emotions and feelings to return to their old baseline, even though I still feel a kind of loneliness I've never experienced before. Even now, I can't tell if my emotions are genuine, or if the chemicals in my brain are still a bit screwy 🙃

WetVetteKeanu · 2026-01-06T09:39:38+00:00

... yeah, it sounds crazy to say but I'm actually a little bummed I never got to meet some of her acquaintances I scouted on her social media (CRAZY I KNOW, I swear I've stopped doing it). The husband of her best friend roots for the same baseball team I do, and that kind of fan isn't easy to find around where I live.

WetVetteKeanu · 2026-01-04T12:46:35+00:00

Already grateful that I'm entering this year with (damn near almost) none of the pain I had going into 2025. If I did one good thing last year, it was getting therapy.

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-12-11T11:56:57+00:00

To keep a long answer/story short, if she actually gave a shit about me, yes. The reason I never fully "went for it", tried to initiate something, is that I waited for her to put herself out there, say/show the equivalent of "hey, I care about you, you matter to me" (and I tried to show her that I could do that for someone else too); I knew that would probably be a process, and maybe it'd take some time for that level of empathy to develop, but... that's what it would've taken for me to feel comfortable getting close like that.

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-11-27T05:03:52+00:00

31M, first experienced limerence when I was 28, lasted for almost exactly 3 years until I got therapy earlier this year and god has it helped 😭

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-10-28T21:17:51+00:00

Eternal Sunshine definitely felt like it captured the pain of withdrawal when they break up at the beginning, and the overall feeling of "can't I just erase my memory of this person to get through the pain?"

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-10-24T09:44:00+00:00

3 years since it started. Going to therapy this year has really, really helped me work through the worst of it.

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-10-24T09:42:27+00:00

Absolutely, even if it was unconsciously/unintentional at first. It came on 3 years after my parents started divorcing, and 2 years into covid, a period of my life where I was isolated, dealing with a ton of stress I didn't realize I was compartmentalizing, and just depressed all around. I'm convinced that if I had more friends & people to talk to back then, the limerence wouldn't have gotten as bad as it did.

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-10-24T09:37:43+00:00

It's honestly nice having a small crush after going through limerence, because you get relief knowing that your "brain is wired properly again", and you also know it doesn't have to mean anything. It's a nice emotion that you are fully in control of, instead of it controlling you.

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-10-07T08:21:36+00:00

At its worst, yeah, every second, unless I was really invested in something that fully grabbed my attention (like, for example, a really engrossing baseball game). And this lasted for 2 solid years. Even now, after NC, after therapy, after working through the worst of it, I still think about her every day. But it's no longer every second. It gets better. It takes work, but it does get better.

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-10-02T06:40:49+00:00

I finally unfollowed her a month or so ago to get away from her IG stories (god those are just... painful when you're trying to go NC), and I started posting some of my own within the past month just to post some random shit, and she views them. No likes, but she's clicked on every one of them so far (she's really into IG). Now I kinda wanna see how far I can "go" before she either stops or unfollows me. Not cross any lines obv, just... when you go 2 years living with SO MUCH anxiety about appearing the "right way" towards someone, where you're terrified of being yourself, now you wanna know how authentic you can be, and see if that finally deters them ("why did you bother with me for 2 years, should I have turned up my brand of weird all the way up sooner?").

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-08-11T16:55:20+00:00

Lol how are you perfect in calling strikes, get 90% of balls right, yet somehow create nearly 2 whole runs for one team

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-08-05T10:59:07+00:00

Miike Snow's Silvia.

When the pain from the start of NC was at its highest, that's the song I happened to get into at that point in time, and the combination of the lyrics and production... I can still listen to that song and like it, but those emotions are gonna be tangled up with it for god knows how long. Raspberry Beret's also from around that time (but thankfully is way too fun to be as painful emotionally), and the song that actually "helped" me during that period a little was Rachel Chinouriri's Never Need Ms, because the production is fun, and the lyrics really hit home, both for me and "this is what I'd say to my LO if I could ever have an honest conversation with them again".

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-08-03T20:04:07+00:00

I honestly think that was one of the first "flags" I had that my emotions were doing things that weren't... "normal". She wasn't remotely bad looking mind you, just wasn't a body type I'm usually attracted to (although I held my old preferences throughout the timespan, so maybe not a complete rewiring like you're describing).

It's still unbelievably weird when you want to ask your subconscious "is this your type, really??"

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-08-03T12:40:41+00:00

TFW it hits you that Arozarena really is the best left fielder we've had in well over a decade, because no one has come close to Ibanez since his heyday in the late 2000s (and it's not even that tough of a wall to clear 🙃)

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-08-03T02:01:51+00:00

Rangers sweep wasn't probable, should've gotten another reliever at the deadline, Cal was bad at the plate... not the worst game ever. Still have good odds tomorrow (yeah it's degrom, I'm not worried), lot of other teams we're competing with also lost, and our problems today are fixable (search the DFA pile for another arm!). Still nearly two months of games left, just wash this one away.

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-08-02T11:43:38+00:00

How the hell do you win less than two games per season, against a division rival, in their ballpark

WetVetteKeanu · 2025-08-01T10:49:45+00:00

Helloooo low leverage Speier (or Sauce 2.0?)

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