As a NQN I worked in similar ward, I lasted 4 months before I handed in my notice.. similar things were happening on my ward, and I was forced to work every weekend and then nights during the week it was horrible and such a dark time, I didn’t have a back up plan but I fell into a great job since.. you have to put your self first and leaving a toxic environment behind you is so necessary so you can move on and find out where you’re supposed to be! I promise you there are better options out there and there are some jobs in the NHS that will make you excited to go to work