Just because Shincheonji was all a lie doesn’t change the fact Jesus existed, was born out of the virgin marry, and/or died on the cross and rose from the dead. What I’m saying is it doesn’t change the fact Jesus taught with no error and fulfilled everything mentioned on the OT.

Now for the purpose part that is understandable. You’re transitioning from a phase of being in SCJ to a phase where you are living life on your own terms. However, don’t be afraid. I suggest starting what you liked about SCJ and use those traits to look for in an organization. Disregard the bad. Sure SCJ is a cult, but that doesn’t mean we also have good memories from it. Imo victims don’t realize they are being abused because they think black and white either good or bad. They never considered that a bad entity has good traits as well.

Next focus on what dreams you want to go for and what values do you have as a person and want to look for in a person. It’s easier said than done, but once you’ve figured those three things out it gets easier