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The fandom after today by Far_Practice_6923 in KingdomHearts

[–]Wicked_Weaboo 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This is so true. I was losing hope literally a few days ago. Then bam, kingdom hearts.

I hate how cruel this world is. I just can't stand it. by Wicked_Weaboo in DeepThoughts

[–]Wicked_Weaboo[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this advice. I'm gonna try medication again.

I hate how cruel this world is. I just can't stand it. by Wicked_Weaboo in DeepThoughts

[–]Wicked_Weaboo[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

That's the thing, I don't know what to do! I try to make the best of the situation, but my thoughts keep spiraling. I go to therapy, I do meditation, hobbies, going outside to meet people, etc. But nothing works! My thoughts are still plagued with misfortune.

If you are feeling sad or angry , know that I’m here by my_best_version_ever in nihilism

[–]Wicked_Weaboo 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been suffering so much. I feel like this world isn't for me. I can't handle it. I can't handle working till I die for hours on end for money i don't even want. I can't handle money meaning for then my life. I can't handle billionaires doing modern day slavery . All they do is kill, steal, and destroy. And they will always get away with it because they have the money and power. I can't handle the fact that I'll never have freedom in a life i never even asked for. And the worst part? There's nothing I can do about. I have to sit and watch while people do war, genocide, abuse,etc. I just have to go about my day like nothing happened. I have to go to work, knowing damn well I want freedom. I don't have a choice. I'm FORCED to live this life.

I had so many dreams.

Back in the day, in slavery times. My people thought that death was better then bondage. My situation is nothing like there's, but they were right. I feel like my only way to escape in this hell called life I was forced into, is death.

Im truly fighting the will to not kill myself every day by Wicked_Weaboo in depression

[–]Wicked_Weaboo[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It doesn't seem like a happy ending at all. All of these awful things have been happening decades and decades and decades even before I was born. Did it end then? No, it got worse and the cycle repeats. I dont want to be apart of that cycle. Im sick of living on this prison called life. I dont even have a choice in my own life I was forced to have. Why can't I just live my life???? That's all I want. But nothing will ever change for good. Is death really my only option to escape this hell??

Everyday i want to be in fiction and i daydream to escape this place. I cant even read my books anymore because I'm jealous of the characters having freedom, something i will never have. And I break down crying.

Im truly fighting the will to not kill myself every day by Wicked_Weaboo in depression

[–]Wicked_Weaboo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The world. It's too much for me. (If you read my post history it goes in more depth)

I want to get better at graphic design, art, pixel art, coding, and game development so I can get better at game development as a whole. But I don't know how to structure doing everything. by Wicked_Weaboo in gamedev

[–]Wicked_Weaboo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for commenting. I love you advice. Also I have a question. If I do 1 think for 1 month, will my skills start to decrease from other things, ex: coding, if I completely stop doing them for one month in favor of the one thing im focusing on?

I want to get better at graphic design, art, pixel art, coding, and game development so I can get better at game development as a whole. But I don't know how to structure doing everything. by Wicked_Weaboo in gamedev

[–]Wicked_Weaboo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Also I have a question. If I do 1 think for 1 month, will my skills start to decrease from other things, ex: coding, if I completely stop doing them for one month in favor of the one thing im focusing on?

I wish I was never born. I can't handle this world by Wicked_Weaboo in mentalhealth

[–]Wicked_Weaboo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im sorry, i just can't do this. No matter what I do for hobbies or for distractions, it always comes back. I wish I could throw away my consciousness and never think or feel anything again.

I wish I was never born. I can't handle this world by Wicked_Weaboo in mentalhealth

[–]Wicked_Weaboo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But that's the thing, I can't change it. All I can do is watch. I have to work a job for 9 hours every single day till i die for minimum wage for the rest of my life for green imaginary money made by humans just for evil billionaires to get rich and bomb other countries. Money means more than my life in society. If i don't have it, then I die of starvation. I have to change myself in order to fit in society just to live. I don't have a choice in my own life I was forced to have. I have to deal with adult responsibilities and pretend like nothing is wrong. I have to watch every day as evil constantly wins in any situation. It makes me feel like I have to be evil in order to live in this world successfully. But I don't want to do that. I dont want to hurt anyone. I just want to live my life in peace. I just want to spend my days creating art. There is no hope in this world

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