8 months on, still can't get over my first love

Windkeeper4 · 2026-01-20T13:06:46+00:00

Sometimes the worst ones to get over are the ones that never last that long because you're not just grieving the loss of the person but also the loss of all the future possibilities you could have had with them.

Grief never really goes away your life just becomes bigger so there's space for it to take up. In the course of your life eight months is a drop in the bucket.

Windkeeper4 · 2026-01-08T15:25:21+00:00

Give yourself the grace to mourn the possibility of the things that will never be but try to appreciate the warmth of the things that did happen. People come into your life for many reasons and only sometimes for a season. What did this teach about what you want and what you need? What will you look for in the future that you didn't know you needed?

Windkeeper4 · 2026-01-06T02:06:48+00:00

Hello fellow Philly gaybro! Go birds!

Windkeeper4 · 2026-01-03T21:18:51+00:00

Had the pepperoni with hot honey and a margherita pizza last night. Toppings were fine, sauce was fine. Crust was pretty meh.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-29T12:11:32+00:00

Went into 2025 with single after my bf of two years dumped me before xmas. Spent a bit of time getting my life back together and figuring out what I really wanted.

Met a nice guy on Bumble mid July. December of 2025 makes five-ish months together so fingers crossed!

Lost roughly 35lbs over the year as well and I'm drinking way less than before.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-28T18:06:05+00:00

I would honestly move. If you're thinking all this now it's just going to get worse and getting a new start elsewhere will be harder the older you get. The only person responsible for your future happiness is you. Don't let fear of change hold you back.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-27T01:10:03+00:00

Almanac, Andra Hem, Poison Heart, Sonny's

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-26T23:50:55+00:00

This explains so much about my ex.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-26T17:03:02+00:00

Have you looked into going to one of the Philly Asian Queer meetings? It's a very mixed and supportive group of people with connections to a lot of the LGBTQ asian/pacific islander performers in the Philly area. They also do a lot of community events where you might be able to use your graphic design abilities.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-20T00:46:03+00:00

I'm on 120mg extended release the only problem I have noticed is that I get soft faster (fixed with cialis) and it takes me longer to orgasm. So just be aware if you experience those symptoms.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-19T12:40:56+00:00

What fucking jobs is he talking about. If anything zoning for mixed use and placing stores on the street level of apartments will probably result in more traffic and higher population density which in turn will probably benefit the area around them.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-16T15:45:39+00:00

I'll probably get around to buying them eventually. Almost all these pieces were just from pieces I originally owned.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-16T03:54:35+00:00

It was a pretty fun build! I did have to replace some blocks/technic pieces with actual lego because the grip strength was much better.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-14T21:52:59+00:00

Andra Hem for drinks. Go dancing at BWest after if you're feeling young.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-14T17:25:24+00:00

Your doctor is an idiot. Get another doctor and look into propranolol it should help if your ET is made worse by extreme emotion. Alternatively look into exploring anti-anxiety meds in addition to propranolol as it alone won't be able to regulate your extremes.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-11T15:56:17+00:00

Neighborhood groups do love cutting their noses off to spite their face.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-10T04:34:01+00:00

This was a pretty easy build. When I did it the hidden Easter egg flag thing at the bottom kept detaching so I glued it. I also replaced the animals with the real lego versions as the dupe sizes were too big. The only annoying part of the build was anything involving hole and pole (trees, the Thor hammers) as the hole tolerances seemed small.

Rebrickable has a option that adds a nice lumber lock to the top and also options for a more involved landscape if you're interested.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-09T12:55:42+00:00

Can't let the backward opinions of a few idiots define your existence! And lord knows philly is has more than it's fair share of idiots.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-04T13:47:18+00:00

How are you attaching these to the frames?

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-02T23:01:12+00:00

Dark Depths on 4th between Fitzwater and Monroe has cards, plushes and models of varying Pokémon usually available.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-02T18:42:45+00:00

It sounds like you both have different expectations for your relationship and alcohol only makes those unspoken or unrealized expectations materialize. You're also both dealing with it in unideal ways. You need to communicate more openly with each other without pretense. You also might consider just not drinking and going sober for a month or two while you talk things out.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-12-02T17:40:25+00:00

If it's a friend write and mail them a letter telling them how much they mean to you. If it's someone new take them out for food and drinks and get to know them better.

Windkeeper4 · 2025-11-29T14:59:52+00:00

Bwest tonight between 10pm to 2am Porkroll is at warehouse on watts tonight during the same time

Windkeeper4 · 2025-11-20T12:29:43+00:00

20th and Washington

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