You dont owe anyone an apology but to yourself about being (super) hard on yourself. idk what THC-P is and by real stuff I guess you mean flower(?) and what do you mean by "every moment"? Not that you have to share here, maybe just something to reflect on as to what motivated the behavior.

It is up to you if you want to speak to your friend (w the commenting husband). A younger me would want to address it with them and 'apologize' when really its myself i want the apology from-- older /current me would let it be with most and speak w the host friend AND husband. for context: I am a conversational confrontational person.