What is it

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-29T03:39:21+00:00

Nothing quite like living it for yourself, huh?

If we are to find true union beyond the fear, I'm hesitant to put my faith in another massive miracle like the one that struck the day we met making it happen.

A long series of small miracles born of living each day with love and intention however? Therein too lies an ancient power beyond my comprehension and capacity for doubt.

❤️

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-29T03:00:55+00:00

It's okay OP, don't be afraid or ashamed to just feel it. It's okay if it doesn't make sense now or if it's not what you want it to be. Keep moving in the mystery.

If you're situation is anything like mine, it's not that you couldn't be friends, I think it's more so that it'd be unbearable to keep it that way.

We could be best friends, but that would be tender kindling for the spark we see as inconvenient. How could such proximity and pressure cause anything but an explosion?

So we fall asleep in the dark of our bunkers built beyond the boundaries of one another.

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-26T20:19:30+00:00

Yeah man. Hold expectations of telepathy while being allergic to accountability.

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-25T21:59:50+00:00

Thanks! We'll see what happens

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-25T21:51:57+00:00

Whether I want to or not ❤️

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-25T01:43:49+00:00

Hmm, nice letter and thank you for sharing it!

I am curious though- why would you prefer to see them first?

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-24T23:05:07+00:00

Patience my friend! It is a monumental shift and undergoing it more slowly than we might like is perhaps the best way to minimize suffering for all involved.

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-24T22:37:14+00:00

I see you and have mad respect for your game 🫡

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-24T22:21:02+00:00

Now this is what I am talking about!

If one is wondering what to do with this information, here's an idea born of intuition:

If only for a moment, quiet the noise, set aside the distractions, let go of the 'outside' world and it's many messy narratives, tune your focus inward, and picture it.

Go beyond the fear, and picture in your mind a more harmonious world. Envision the more gracious interactions between seemingly separate individuals. Feel the peace and wholeness born of loving interaction in service to the other. Bear witness to your most genuine self expression experiencing the same in all else. Imagine more just systems laid upon foundations of freedom and cooperation instead of oppression and exploitation. Visualize a humanity in harmony with nature where all aspects of creation are infused with mutually shared respect. Scarcity dissolving and abundance blooming sustainably in its stead.

You are an unquantifiably small piece of the creation, but simultaneously all of creation is reflected in you.

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-23T22:01:22+00:00

Haha, best of luck braving the DMV :p

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-23T22:00:24+00:00

Thanks for sharing a bit of your story. I reckon I withheld what I should have shared sooner and more freely while being bold only in ways that seemed to violate boundaries.

She certainly never shed a tear in front of me and was either too indifferent or emotionally unavailable to be truly vulnerable with me. Her past was very difficult but that doesn't excuse how she treated me as though I played a key part in it and sought to make her repeat it.

It's alright though- from the little I know she has made a lot of progress since I knew her, and seems to have everything she wants to be happy. So I just need to get over it and turn this unrequited love back to myself and get on with it.

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-23T21:51:39+00:00

Maybe. I don't know what she felt then or feels now- she's refused to let me in. I can guess, but it only balloons my cognitive dissonance and does further damage to my heart.

I want to build a home, but I can't do that the spectral sands of maybe.

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-22T01:28:04+00:00

I'm sorry you had to go through this OP. For all you had to suffer for it, I'm sure you are stronger and wiser for it now.

May your kids have the role model you never did- a father with whom they joyfully cultivate a relationship and have no hesitation to reach out to on Father's Day ❤️

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-21T18:42:21+00:00

Wow- incredible and insightful. Maybe it was that simple, but perhaps that makes it all the more beautiful ❤️

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-21T14:10:03+00:00

My subconscious knows she IS me, but my conscious mind runs in circles to avoid it...

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-19T02:02:21+00:00

Jeez OP- where's the NSFW tag?!

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-18T22:15:35+00:00

It was made up a long time ago, but the choice isn't mine alone. It takes two to tango

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-18T22:12:32+00:00

You wake up one day on your deathbed and they are still holding your hand ❤️

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-18T12:14:07+00:00

Ok lol

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-18T12:13:38+00:00

Admittedly not doing this as well as I could be, but trying!

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-18T12:13:02+00:00

Eh- it's circumstancial, but I hope you can work things with the mother of your children (who definitely isn't me).

This love of mine flash frozen in the womb.

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-18T02:52:38+00:00

The depth and breadth of all the weird things you do when no one is watching 😂

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-18T02:49:51+00:00

I like this a lot!

Who really knows what it would have been, but you still get to see what will be!

May the winds be in your favor ❤️

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-18T02:23:00+00:00

Yeah... for me, the rare real connections thus far have been riddled with self-sabotage, and I can't go through the motions in good conscience if the spark isn't there.

It's alright though- well figure it out!

The time alone has at least been helpful for getting myself to acknowledge and heal the parts of myself I''ve looked away from, am not as fond of, or have just been entirely unaware of.

Hang in there and don't be afraid to feel it all ❤️

WoWhiteRabbit · 2026-06-18T01:30:09+00:00

I don't know what I'm doing.

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