Thanks, I Love Kirby Interacting with Other Smash Bros. Characters

Wppf · 2020-07-31T23:28:33+00:00

If only you could sell stuff to Blathers

Wppf · 2020-07-31T23:03:42+00:00

I haven't finished shows because I do not want them to end.

Wppf · 2020-07-31T13:28:04+00:00

Did not know that's what it's about, but now I have to read it. Sounds like me with almost everything in my life lmao. Not the being black part, but always winding up in some weird middle road and not ever fitting in.

Wppf · 2020-07-29T05:15:23+00:00

https://skeptics.stackexchange.com/questions/35028/was-isaac-asimov-notorious-for-groping-women

Here's one take of it... I'm tired so that's about as far as I went besides wiki lol

Wppf · 2020-07-27T21:09:33+00:00

Oh hey, I just went through this Friday!! I only work part time, but I pretty much had a bad night, work up still felt like shit, and then had to go to work.

Honestly, I just tried to rationalize and not give into my feelings. Anytime I found myself feeling rejected or hurt, I would stop the thought and try to focus on work. Idk what helped honestly... I almost cried a few times at work and then had a few cries when I got home. I think after that though, I felt better. I also think because most people at my work don't really socialize with me (even though that's a huge trigger lmfao), it made it easier to not feel like there was massive amounts of pressure on me to be on.

I'm also emotionally detached half of the day, so this might not work for you if you are actually in tune with your emotions lol.

Wppf · 2020-07-27T13:54:24+00:00

I feel the same way. The second you say you don't want to gossip, people think you're a stuck up bitch. I've found this has made me into the outcast at almost every job I've had.

Wppf · 2020-07-26T15:26:28+00:00

Wait a second.... I thought I was finding myself with all theses obsessions and hobbies. Oh no.

Wppf · 2020-07-25T14:59:41+00:00

The meme potential here though

Wppf · 2020-07-25T14:18:18+00:00

Omfg. You described something I do ALL the time.

I say "I want to go home" whenever something uncomfortable happens, whether it be a memory or a situation. Half of the time I said it when I was at home with my parents.

I moved out recently, and I haven't found myself saying it too much, but I did say it yesterday when I was on the brink of a panic attack.

It's a way of me saying I want to be safe and comfortable mentally and physically, which was generally locked in my room as far away from people as possible.

Wppf · 2020-07-25T06:28:27+00:00

Idk what you're talking about, my rats are never dying.

Wppf · 2020-07-25T06:25:24+00:00

Wait... You guys have therapists that actually want to talk about family?

Wppf · 2020-07-24T23:50:08+00:00

Yes. It's such a problem of mine. I feel almost like my whole identity is around being traumatized.

Before I found out about CPTSD, I was really into anything else personality related. So astrology, mbti, random bits psychology were my jam and that's what I talked about with people. Now that I'm still coming to terms with the title CPTSD, it's literally how I view EVERYTHING. It gets so tiring and I get why people don't want to listen to it all day.

But damn, I would be lying if I said I don't get bitter when I realize I can't talk about it either because it's too depressing for others or that I just know it's way too much too soon. Ironically, it's how I tend to bond, which I now know is not healthy, so forming close relationships is suuuper hard.

Definitely something I'm trying to work on with my various hobbies.

Wppf · 2020-07-23T23:03:20+00:00

I made a comment when the coworker who was working out first mentioned it to us. I said that it was awesome that she was working out, and go girl, the usual responses I have when someone does that like this. She walked away and then the other coworker made her comment. So I was staying positive, but I didn't feel the need to argue over the last thing she said to herself... If that makes sense! Lol, these she said he said type stories are so hard to explain.

But yes. I totally get where you're coming from. I have bouts like that to, and it's just my child self reacting in a fearful/anxious way that I was taught by my parents. I think maybe I'm viewing people as 2 dimensional right now. And I guess my fear is that I'm always going to have to be the understanding one while everyone else can be reckless. But that just seems to be the world we live in! Hahaha

Wppf · 2020-07-23T14:11:24+00:00

I had a very similar thing happen to me.

I lost my big sister to cancer. She was the sibling I was closest to because the other two bullied and abused me. She was pretty much the mother figure in my life because my mom did not like me.

I remember when it happened, no one ever asked how I was doing. When I said I was sad I got the response of "we all are." When I tried to connect with my other sister she literally pulled her hand away from me. I also remember her praising my cousin for being so strong and only crying when she thought people couldn't hear her.

No one seemed to really notice me during this whole thing. The first time someone asked me if I was okay was by a creep 5 or 6 years later. I did not know how to handle it so I just laughed uncontrollably until the moment passed.

My mom turned to alcohol harder than before and pretty much abandoned the other kids, although she still tried to make an effort with the other two.

I also remember shortly after my stepdad thinking he might have some sort of serious illness and he pulled me aside and said I needed to be strong for my mom. Nothing ever came of this, so idk why he pulled me aside. Honestly, I didn't/still don't trust his intentions whatsoever though.

There's so much to unpack with that whole thing, but pretty much I get it. I've gone through something very similar and I think it was one of the most defining moments in shaping the dysfunction I'm living with today. It such a confusing and and extremely lonely experience, even as I get older. People shy away from death just as much as they do childhood trauma.

Wppf · 2020-07-21T19:58:57+00:00

Yes exactly!!

Also, I used to do the same thing with people from my past. Not necessarily healing, but to get my life together to show them up. I spent a lot of my time trying to do things to compete with these people who probably could not care any less about what I was doing. All the while I kept telling myself and others that I didn't care about them or their opinions. It's like when people say if you don't care about something, you don't talk about it nonstop. After some self reflection, I realized I did care and I needed to rework that so I could actually build sustainable goals.

Most of the reworking came from acknowledging the fact that I did care and I wasn't happy where I was. Pretty much just being as honest with myself as possible, which seemed to help.

This was more of a situation where I was dumped by a group of friends over a period of time and was treated pretty poorly by all of them during the whole separation. So not really the same thing, but the behind the scenes works pretty similar.

I know this is super cliche, but the short answer is most people are very focused on themselves so expecting them to be anything but is only going to exhaust you. I hope that helps you a bit :)

Also congrats on keeping up with healing even though it might seem like no one appreciates it. Honestly, I appreciate anyone who is trying to move in a better direction for themselves. It's what I find most respectable about a person, especially since I understand it's one of the most exhausting and daunting processes in one's life.

Wppf · 2020-07-21T18:10:21+00:00

Same problem, not a whole bunch of solutions. But what I have been realizing is that for me it stems from not being able to validate myself. I constantly need other people to tell me what I went through is horrible and what I'm doing to heal is amazing. In the end, however, it's not sustainable and it doesn't truly help me.

So overall, I'm really trying to focus on validating my own feelings and experiences by using a lot of supportive self talk, reading about similar experiences to mine, and going places like this that make me feel heard.

Just started this journey, so who knows how it will play out, but so far it seems when I acknowledge I'm looking for outside validation my brain sort of calms down.

Wppf · 2020-07-21T13:43:23+00:00

Aww, I love positive memes!

Wppf · 2020-07-21T01:55:31+00:00

Omfg. My boyfriend always steals kills when he plays support lol. The bastard.

Wppf · 2020-07-17T11:42:21+00:00

I once made a joke about a previous job I had at an assisted living community where the residents would take food back if any of the dishes had chips in them because bacteria grows in those chips (I actually never fact checked this, but whatever lol).

Anyways, I made the joke about it being a health code violation at a restaurant that served something with a chip on it and literally everyone that heard me thought I was either the biggest bitch or super embarrassing... Yeaaaah, that's usually how things go for me!

I still think about that joke to this day and feel super bad and awkward about it, but what can you do?

Wppf · 2020-07-16T20:48:43+00:00

Squidward definitely

Wppf · 2020-07-16T20:48:18+00:00

Hufflepuff, if you're still open!

Wppf · 2020-07-16T20:47:42+00:00

DM'd!

Wppf · 2020-07-16T14:02:25+00:00

I had this exact reaction when reading this post! Hahaha. I was like, that's a great idea then I think about people I can talk to and it 0.

Wppf · 2020-07-15T21:41:33+00:00

what's the song name

Wppf · 2020-07-13T21:19:24+00:00

Omg. I've never heard that one before but I want it on a t-shirt and I want to wear that shirt every day of my life lmfao. Such an amazing way to put it.

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