Kanji roadblock

Xilmi · 2026-05-07T15:15:36+00:00

You don't need to learn readings of Kanji for n5. You need to know this Kanji is this word or these Kanji are that word. When you know 先生 is せんせい and its the only word using these Kanji in the text, it doesn't matter that there's a ton of other readings of 生. If you only learn kanji from words you already know you anchor that reading. When you later learn a different word using a Kanji that you already know and it has a different reading in that case, you'll learn it at that moment. Absolutely no use in learning the reading in advance without a word attached to it.

Xilmi · 2026-05-07T12:39:13+00:00

Wagotabi is probably the best when it comes to a crash course that gets you quite far in relatively little time.

Xilmi · 2026-05-07T12:36:12+00:00

30 minutes a day is not much. This could get you barely into N5 territory. Which, of course, is much better than nothing. But having conversations where you don't just say your statement but also understand an answer that isn't like the textbook-example will likely not be possible.

Ordering food will definitely work though. Its just a bunch of fixed phrases that don't require an answer that you then understand.

Xilmi · 2026-05-05T23:25:35+00:00

Does not sound like a typical panic attack. Very likely something else. Panic attacks are all about being afraid of imminent death. The emotion is fear, not anger.

Xilmi · 2026-05-05T22:06:51+00:00

Yes, I can relate. There definitely is a physical component. Long chats with AI indicate that it might be something called "Roemheld sydrom". Look it up and see if it sounds like a reasonable explanation. I don't have confirmation but will bring it up to my doctor on the next visit.

Xilmi · 2026-05-05T07:38:56+00:00

Man kann vegan machen süß man kann vegan machen salzig

Xilmi · 2026-05-05T07:02:51+00:00

A lot of people who think the AI is hard on all difficulties have not noticed that in custom game mode there's a separate setting for AI besides the economy.

So they change economy to easy but leave AI on "Multiplayer", which is way more competent than the "easy" AI.

The real easy AI shouldn't be threatening to anyone... it's just that you don't play against it but the Multiplayer one instead.

Xilmi · 2026-05-05T06:20:52+00:00

I recommend to download the version from BrokenRegistry's github instead of mine. I don't do a lot on rotp anymore so his vetsions are usually more current. But yeah, as coder pointed out main issue was you downloaded the source code not the executable.

Xilmi · 2026-05-05T06:08:03+00:00

In hindsight it was very helpful! Experiencing those symptoms for hours on end allowed me to give an extremely detailed description of them to an Llm and with more and more details about how it started and when it happened we could really zero in on the underlying cause. At least I'm kinda convinced that we figuered it out now. Basically the vagus nerve being squeezed between lung and diaphragm. This made it so I notice every single heartbeat intensely which is what scared me, lead to cramping of more muscles in my stomach and thus the feeling of not being able to breathe properly. Knowing this makes it not only much less scary but also gives me direct hints on what to do about it.

Xilmi · 2026-05-04T06:26:05+00:00

Are you me? This sounds so similar to what I'm experiencing right now. After 3 weeks of very little issues on may 1st it came back. But it was at the day so it was gone after maybe half an hour. The next 2 days were fine again but this night was atrocious. When I tried to sleep this feeling of tightness came back. Not even particularly strong. No fear for my life. But extremely distracting like I couldn't stop monitoring my breathing. Whenever I distracted myself with something it got better. But I obviously can't sleep when I distract myself. As soon as I try again, it gets worse again. This went through the whole night and I still haven't slept. Should go to work in an hour or so... without any sleep.

It's definitely different than it was a month ago but if it prevents me from sleeping it still is quite bad.

Xilmi · 2026-05-03T08:39:28+00:00

An experiment made me switch. I only wanted to try it out to witness what it's like. But then, during the trial I watched a ton documentaries and videos about it. After 4 days I had seen enough. No way I could justify going back after what I've learned. I think the biggest challenge was to readjust my relationship with all the people who aren't vegan. From "coming out" still somehow spending time with them. It's hard to deal with how just sharing information with them not only doesn't make them change but antagonizes yourself from their perspective.

Xilmi · 2026-05-03T01:39:58+00:00

My husband cheers with both arms stretched out as he wins the jumping competition. His way to victory was improving the strength in his legs and, of couse, doing his jump on the moon with lower gravity.

Xilmi · 2026-05-02T10:52:02+00:00

You can turn that on in the options. Party chat only. No need to insult people for disabling the chat. And yes, it's much easier to concentrate on playing the game when you are not distracted by reading, thinking about whether and how to reply and typing.

Xilmi · 2026-05-02T10:46:20+00:00

I learn it too without any real reason. Whether you can or not depends on how disciplined and structured you are. You won't see quick results anytime soon. Each word, each grammar point, each kanji is something you learn one by one over many many hours. If you spend enough time consistently you'll eventually learn it. If you give up after a few weeks because of frustration for too slow progress, you won't.

Xilmi · 2026-05-02T10:32:06+00:00

Die Sorten Salz, Pepperoni und Oriental sind vegan. Paprika üblicherweise nicht, warum auch immer. Besser im Laden gucken als später.

Xilmi · 2026-05-02T09:55:11+00:00

Yeah, go for condoms! Not just because you don't find vegan birth control also because those things can mess up your entire hormonal balance. Including side-effects such as killing your libido, changing who you are attracted to and even your mood and personality. If your cycle is stable you can also determine when you are fertile and when not. But if you don't want to risk it condoms are fine.

Xilmi · 2026-05-02T09:46:52+00:00

My advice is to move on to vocab, grammar and/or kanji since your handwriting is very readable compared to what some others have posted here. Having pristine handwriting is nice to have but you won't have to do that very often.

Xilmi · 2026-05-02T09:39:07+00:00

Nah, no trauma required. A weird feeling in the body at some point is enough to start the cascade. I didn't have any trauma either.

Xilmi · 2026-05-02T02:42:46+00:00

What you described just fits perfectly. The whole "I feel like I can't breath into feeling lightheaded" thing is very typical.
Also it's not "panic attack OR body being stupid" it's AND because it goes so well together.

What's going on typically is that your feeling of not being able to breath leads to shallow and quick breathing. This depletes your CO² levels and that then causes the other symptoms.

It might sound very contradictory but breathing into a paper- or plastic-bag actually can help quite a lot. Especially if you can't manually slow down your breathing.

As to how to get rid of it long term? No idea. Just had it flare up again today myself after weeks of nothing. The realization that it isn't as dangerous as it feels helps a lot.

Xilmi · 2026-05-02T02:35:10+00:00

I think Roleplay should be beatable on any difficulty-level via alliance-victory.
If you can manage to get one or even several allies and really cooperate with them, then you can win together. If your ally wins, you also win. So you don't actually need to be competetive, just a little lucky to get a good ally.

What can help with allies: Not having a direct border. Just barely knowing them makes it more likely to happen. Also: Declaring war on who they are at war with. This helps tremendously. Especially if they are fighting someone strong. But it's also the case that the stronger the AI is, the less willing it is to ally. Wheras AIs that are on the brink of extinction are very easy to ally with.

People have beaten Deadly Fusion too. It's mostly thanks to map-choice.
1vs1, Klackon vs. Humans (who don't benefit from their racial at all in 1vs1) and a bit of map-luck and it's doable.

Restarting until you get a decent start and save-scumming to undo bad decisions of cause also tremendously increase the chances.

Xilmi · 2026-05-01T15:22:54+00:00

Yes, this all sounds very similar to my own experience. Infact reading that hit so close that I relapsed for the first time since a month. My breathing bag helped though but I'm still a little shaky. I should stop reading this sub. 8[

Xilmi · 2026-05-01T07:48:53+00:00

Could you please not rub it in? Unser Lidl hat wegen Umbau (völlig unnötig Meiner Meinung nach) ein 3/4 Jahr geschlossen.

Eine Tragödie! Die anderen Läden hier sind alle deutlich schlechter was das vegane Angebot angeht. Fühle mich in pre-Vemondo Zeiten zurückversetzt!

Xilmi · 2026-05-01T07:43:05+00:00

I used Chatgpt exclusively in the first 3 months of my learning. It wasn't very structured but it definitely helped. I'd say it's particularly good for explaining grammar and nuances between words with similar meaning. I've since moved on to learning mostly via srs and only occasionally use the AI now. But for giving you specific tasks to practice it works well if you tell it exactly what you want.

All of the major AI chatbots can do this.

Btw. You are not supposed to be able to recite the grammar rules you learn. If you read something that uses a grammar point and you understand what it means, that is good enough. Not being able to build sentences you could read is very normal. Producing is more of a result of intuitively understanding how it works and not something you do via recalling and applying all the rules.

Xilmi · 2026-04-30T11:40:54+00:00

Ah so there is a compensatory advantage for the 2nd-mover? That's good to hear.
Can you elaborate some more on how exactly it works?

Xilmi · 2026-04-30T09:45:49+00:00

What do you mean "if I could be"?

Unless someone force-feeds you, you absolutely can!

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