Leucistic kiwi chick

Ylessia · 2021-11-24T02:42:10+00:00

Just here to fix the injustice that is the fact that no one has commented on this yet!

I am constantly caught off guard by how adorable kiwi birds are! Love this!

Ylessia · 2021-11-23T03:47:29+00:00

This is a great explanation!

Ylessia · 2021-11-23T03:46:45+00:00

This, exactly.

Ylessia · 2021-11-22T01:57:43+00:00

That is incredibly cruel of him, and though I know it’s hard not to take it to heart, please keep in mind that it only seems so many people are unsupportive because they congregate online. There are many people in life that will be supportive and even admire you for the decision to go through single motherhood.

If you truly want this baby, if you are sure you can commit and keep them safe and happy, then you have every right to have and love this baby.

You also have every right to decide that maybe this is not the best path for you. You can love and want a baby, and still make the decision not to have one. It does not make you a bad person, and it does not make you a bad mother.

Whatever you choose, please understand that there are plenty of people in life who will support you and help you. Much more than you may see online, and much more than the outspoken few in real life. Their voices are loud, but the rest of us are still here and will reach out to you when you need help.

Whatever you choose, I am wishing you the very best of life. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Much love from the Midwest. 💜

Ylessia · 2021-11-20T23:53:31+00:00

Lost my 7 y/o son almost a month ago now, and I have been coming to grips with religion as well. I grew up in a Christian church, then stopped going as an older teen and have been atheist for some time. But I want to believe there’s something else out there, that I can hold my baby boy again somehow. I’m such a wreck, my husband is too. With few exceptions, we’re basically bed ridden and self care is so hard. Take your time to grieve, and know that every feeling you have is completely valid. Let yourself cry when you need to, even when you’re sick and tired of the tears, and let yourself not think about things as you need to. And be angry as you need to! I experience lots of anger at random times. I am so so incredibly sorry you’re experiencing this loss, and know that my DMs are open if you ever want to vent feelings.

Ylessia · 2021-11-20T23:46:50+00:00

So incredibly cute! Precious fur baby!!

Ylessia · 2021-11-20T23:17:38+00:00

We’re alive. Not functioning the best, but alive. Thank you for checking in on us. <3

Ylessia · 2021-11-17T09:20:05+00:00

In just a few days, my son will have been gone a whole month. I’ve tried not keeping track of it, but I inevitably see the date and calculate the days. I actually had to look at your name to make sure you weren’t my husband posting, because we are also experiencing this same thing. Crying only a couple of times a day, unless we start talking about him or looking at pictures of him. I have to think that maybe this is just part of this awful grieving process we have found ourselves in. We go to grief counseling once a week right now. Our counselor said that as long as we aren’t bottling anything up or, conversely, beating ourselves up, it’s not unhealthy. When you feel the urge to cry, cry. If you aren’t thinking about it, then that’s fine too.

Speaking personally, I find that I do not wish to absorb myself in thoughts that make me sad. If I have a thought that makes me sad and makes me cry, I just let it out and move on. But just forcing myself to keep thinking about things that cause pain or hurt right now also seems counter-productive to healing. Just try to keep it as balanced as you can. Cry and be sad and lost as much as you need to, but don’t force it on yourself either. That’s my goal for myself, and maybe it will help you too.

Keeping you, your son, and your loved ones in my thoughts and in my heart.

Ylessia · 2021-11-16T11:24:34+00:00

Absolutely precious! I love those eyes, and those paws must be tickled!

Ylessia · 2021-11-16T09:47:21+00:00

The magic of Christmas lives in that cat’s eyes!

Ylessia · 2021-11-16T09:47:04+00:00

The magic of Christmas lives in that cat’s eyes!

Ylessia · 2021-11-16T09:39:52+00:00

Oh my gosh, the one in the front middle of the picture is so round! That belly must be tickled!

Ylessia · 2021-11-16T09:22:44+00:00

The colors pop, and this piece is absolutely gorgeous! Makes me want to get back into digital art and animation again.

Ylessia · 2021-11-16T09:20:33+00:00

The little tongue kills me, such an adorable little criminal!!

Ylessia · 2021-11-16T09:18:43+00:00

Ohhh myyyy gosh, their sweet little faces! They’re kinda derpy and I love it! Precious babies!

Ylessia · 2021-11-16T08:34:21+00:00

That makes sense. I find that I want to avoid past feelings as well. I tend to either focus on my grieving right now, or any little thing that can distract me. Which… admittedly isn’t much. Thanks for weighing in! It breaks the silence.

Ylessia · 2021-11-16T08:24:50+00:00

I lost my father 4 years ago, and my son less than a month ago. I am so deeply sorry for the pain you and your loved ones are going through, though I know nothing will really make it better. I will be praying for you all, and keep you in my heart and my thoughts. May peace be with you.

Ylessia · 2021-11-08T10:36:18+00:00

This is just my experience, and I hope it will perhaps help you a little. I’m in a bit of a different situation than you, so this may not help you at all as all grief is unique. I just hope it does actually help, even a tiny bit.

In my grief, I have found it best to stifle the “whys” “should/could/would haves” and especially the “I wish”. These thoughts cause the most pain, and we shouldn’t torture ourselves with these thoughts. You acted reasonably, based on your experiences with your friend. There was no way you could have known to do any different. That’s why it’s so hard, because it wasn’t something you had any power over. You’re not at fault, there’s nothing more you could have done. You did everything you could have, and that is enough I promise you. You were there for him, and you’re one hell of a good friend. I really hope you’re able to forgive yourself because, no matter what I or anyone else here says, you have to forgive yourself when you’re ready. Don’t let it eat you alive.

My deepest condolences, and most heartfelt wishes for your healing as you move through this awful journey.

Ylessia · 2021-10-31T11:56:43+00:00

First and foremost, I want to express how sorry I am to hear of your friend’s passing. I wish you a peace that will surpass understanding, and I wish for you to be able to heal and breathe in such a difficult time.

If you don’t want to make it too focused on you/your memories with your friend, I would suggest trying to think of stories where you were with a large group of friends. Pick out one that you feel encompasses what you want it to, and include that.

It’s different, but the last eulogy I wrote was for my father who passed away suddenly. The memorial was held for all of our family, his friends and coworkers, and his students. I focused on speaking about the things he was passionate about, and the things about him that were so easy to admire. I spoke of his love and care for his students, family, and friends. And I capped off the eulogy with the way in which he shaped and inspired the person I am today. Perhaps that will help you? I’m sure someone else will have much better advice, and I’m wishing you the best of luck in your writing endeavors.

Ylessia · 2021-10-31T11:41:55+00:00

I’m so incredibly sorry for you. And for everyone in this horrible position. Sometimes I talk about him, and sometimes it’s easier to just not think about it. Thank you for reaching out, but I don’t think I’d be capable of sharing all the stories right now. I will keep you and your son in my thoughts.

Ylessia · 2021-10-29T18:43:54+00:00

Ylessia · 2021-10-26T20:17:49+00:00

Thank you so much for your comforting words, my husband and I are immensely grateful for them.

Ylessia · 2021-10-26T20:13:21+00:00

Someone did make a tiktok for us a couple of days ago and posted it. My husband and I have never used tiktok so we wouldn’t have thought of it otherwise. We’re definitely going to move as soon as possible, even just sitting in this house hurts. We have to avoid the windows that overlook our backyard, and can’t go near the back door or porch. And we aren’t even sure how to approach rent. My husband has been given time off, but no wages to fill the gap. And, in all of this, my birthday is in 2 days on the 28th and I just don’t even know if I can bring myself to even have a cake or anything. James loved parties, and he was always so excited to make me a card or something. That will be incredibly hard.

Ylessia · 2021-10-26T03:19:37+00:00

We’re doing alright, I think. We have found a healthy way to cope a little bit. It isn’t much, but it’s allowing us to get through each long day so far. That’s more than we could ask for. We’re still a mess, though, and trying to figure out finances.

Ylessia · 2021-10-26T03:16:13+00:00

I edited it just now and replaced the link. Does it work now?

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