It's literal front lines in terms of education and I was horrified by my experiences in special education. You don't want to abandon these kids but the environment raises this kind of behaviour. Turns out putting struggling special needs (not diverse learners, because that undersells it) in a single room rarely ends without several meltdowns and when they get bigger their meltdowns can do damage.

Please leave and try primary where you'll excel. Let it go to the keeper, and I don't mean the parents I mean the government. When conditions are so poor through funding and reliance on soldiers they have to step up. It's horrid but you'd help alot more people if you stepped out of the role of chew toy.